Transformation

Beloved Osho, the ecstasy of being in your beautiful presence... The thrill of your love, your laughter, your dance, your silence... The agony of realizing the transformation has not yet happened to me. Beloved master, is it very far away?

And the same question he raised with Mahavira: "I have come here.... Give me your meditation, and I am ready to give you anything you want -- you can take my whole kingdom. My wife has shattered my ego, telling me that you have something which I don't have." Mahavira laughed, and he said, "There was no need to come so far to see me. Just in your city a very poor man, who is my disciple, has what you are asking for. And he is so poor... perhaps he may sell it." It was a joke. Prasenjita said, "I know that man -- there is no problem." He turned his chariot towards that poor man's house. His chariot had never been in that part of the city, so a whole crowd gathered. The poor man came out of his house and he said, "What can I do for you?"…

Osho, whatsoever you say, I always agree with it. Then why is my life not changing?

So to follow is a way to avoid change. Please don't follow me. You simply listen to what is happening here, you see what is happening here. You just look into me, and you give me way -- so my energy can start functioning on your energy. It is not a mind thing: it is a total affair... so that you can start vibrating in the same wavelength -- even for a few moments. Those moments will bring change, those moments will bring glimpses of the unknown. Those moments will make you aware that there is eternity beyond time. Those moments will give you a feel of what it is to be in meditation. Those moments will allow you a little taste of God, of Tao, of Tantra, of Zen. Those moments will bring the possibility of change, because those moments will come, not from your past but from your…

Beloved master, I have been to many gurus but I have not changed a bit. Why?

"Ahh!" said Morgenstern with a deep sigh. "I've tried, Father, I swear I've tried, but I'm afraid the good man doesn't want it." "In that case, my son," said the priest, "I see nothing wrong with your keeping the watch, and since you've now confessed, there's no need at all anymore for you to feel guilty!" You see the Jewish mind? You can go on changing your religion, you can go on changing your philosophy -- these are really ways to avoid the real change. The real change has to happen deep down in you. You are unconscious, and the only change that is going to help is to become conscious. You are living mechanically: the only thing that can help is to live life non-mechanically. De-automatize yourself, de-hypnotize yourself. The society has hypnotized you. The society has dulled your senses, it has poisoned you. It wants skillful efficient machines;…

I understand everything that you say, but why does my life still remain unchanged?

Sudhas, to understand something intellectually is one thing, but to understand something intellectually is not going to transform your life. You will remain the same. To understand something intellectually is really to deceive yourself. You have not understood, the mind has only pretended to have understood. This is a trick, because if you really understand it then change is bound to happen. And the mind does not want any change. The mind is very traditional, conventional, conformist, orthodox. The mind is never revolutionary; it is against all change. And the change I am talking about is a total change. You say, "I understand everything that you say...." You only believe that you understand. You understand the words, naturally. My words are simple, I don't know many words. In fact, if you count, I must be using not more than four hundred words. But see the turnout! I am not a…