According to Osho, when a disciple feels a deep pull toward the master yet also wants to run, it means real bliss has touched them. Bliss threatens the ego, so fear triggers the impulse to flee; this paradox is natural. The urge to escape is the shadow of authentic grace—run if you must, but you’ll return, because once tasted, all else becomes tasteless. Don’t condemn it; simply watch, trust, and allow transformation.
Feeling drawn to your teacher while wanting to escape means true joy is shaking your ego—just watch it and trust the process.