Will you come at the moment of my death to give me a push, and how should I prepare for that moment?

Osho, I am your seeker, but I have not taken sannyas. Still, will you come at the moment of my death to give me a push? If yes, how should I prepare for that moment?

Sannyas...! Because what you cannot obtain in life, the chances are small that you will obtain it by dying. If you could not be with me in life and you expect me to be with you in death—you are hoping a little too much. Not that there is any obstacle from my side. I will try. But when you could not be with me in life, will you be able to take my support in death? When, while conscious, you could not take my company, then when you start sinking into unconsciousness will you be able to cooperate? It will be difficult from your side. From my side there is no hindrance. From my side there is an assurance. But even I will not be able to do much. I will shout and you will not hear. I will catch your hand and you will pull it away. I will…

Osho, it seems as if a constant benediction showers from your eyes—sweet and tender. Your eyes move over the listeners, and the moment they fall on me it feels as if a spear has pierced my innermost core. My whole body trembles. Something like death happens. But why does the ultimate death not take place?

The goldsmith puts gold into the fire. If the gold had a little intelligence it would scream and writhe, saying, What are you doing—will you kill me? But how could the gold know that this is the very process of becoming pure? Passing through the fire, whatever remains is kundan, pure gold. What does not die in you even when you die—that is the soul. What is not erased in you even when you are erased—that is your true being. You will have to pass through death. If you go from me having learned anything else, you will have gone collecting trash. If you go having learned death, you have taken the key. We have called India’s supreme mystical scriptures the Upanishads. Upanishad means to be near the master; it means to sit close—just that. What happens by sitting close? By sitting near one who is gone, the courage to…

Osho, to remain awake even in death—or to successfully orchestrate a conscious death in meditation—what preparations should a seeker make concerning the body-system, the breath-system, the state of the breath, the state of prana, celibacy, willpower, etc.? Kindly shed detailed light on this.

But even in a cinema hall, where it is easier because it is all shadows, we do not remain witnesses. If we inspected the handkerchiefs of those exiting, we would know how many cried. We all know nothing is on the screen—only light and shadow. Yet everything “happens” there, and we become participants. Do not be mistaken that while watching a film you are merely a viewer—you become a participant. Someone pleases you, someone repels you; you identify. If we cannot be witnesses even to a film, how will we be witnesses in life? Life, too, is not much more than a film. At depth, like the play of rays on the screen, life is the play of electrical particles. If you reduce the body or a wall to its ultimate component, you find only electric particles. The difference between the screen and this is not great—two-dimensional there, three-dimensional here.…

There is no need to think about these things: that you don't love me or you don't love anybody. So what? It's perfectly good! Enjoy this, that you don't love anybody. This is very good, because you will not be in trouble. Love brings trouble: the more you love, the more trouble -- anxiety and anguish, the fear of rejection and this and that. You are completely beyond all that: nobody can reject you because you don't love at all. You are finished with the world. You are a real sannyasin! [The sannyasin answers: But I miss love... I miss it!] So miss it; what can be done about it? Or find somebody who is even colder than you. One thing has to be settled, that you are whatsoever you are and there is no way to be otherwise. The day you see this all misery will disappear.

Osho, will surrender happen only when I am ready to die for you?

By this time the diplomat was alert. He jumped immediately, took hold of the arm of the third man and said, "Are you mad or what? Why are you jumping? Why are you so eager to die? Don't you want to live?" The man looked at him with anger and said, "Do you call this life? Is it life? Is it worth living? Death is far better! Life is so miserable -- death is a relief. Let go of my hand and let me jump!" Since life is so miserable -- and Adolf Hitler had made life miserable -- everybody was ready to die. First make people's lives miserable, don't let them enjoy life, destroy all the roots of enjoyment, teach them all kinds of inhibitions, tell them that sex is sin, love is sin, teach them that to drink, to eat, to be merry -- these are the goals…