According to Osho, neither theist nor atheist can be a disciple, because any fixed belief closes learning. Discipleship begins in humble 'not-knowing': drop conclusions, ego, and second-hand knowledge, and come as a receptive nobody. From this openness, direct experience - being, not memory - flowers. Only such alert ignorance opens the door to yoga.
Stop insisting whether God is or isn’t, say “I don’t know,” and learn like a fresh beginner.