It only hurts because you expect names and words, but the master’s love is already there without saying it—so relax, trust, and feel it in silence.
From the Discourses
Passages where Osho speaks to this question — each links to the complete discourse.
Osho, glory to you! Even in a thousand lives I could not have received as much as you have, unasked, given me. Please accept me as your disciple!
If you have taken, you have become a disciple. Being a disciple does not depend on my acceptance; it depends on yours. A disciple means one who is ready to learn. A disciple means one who is willing to bow down, to hold out his bowl to be filled. A disciple means one eager to listen with humility, to contemplate in silence, to meditate. You have become a disciple—if you have taken, in the very taking you have become a disciple. Being a disciple does not depend on my acceptance. I may accept you—but if you do not take, what can I do? I may not accept you—but if you keep taking, what can I do? Discipleship is your freedom. It is not anyone’s charity. Discipleship is your dignity. No certificate is needed for it. That is why Ekalavya went and sat in the forest. Look: Dronacharya had refused him,…Read the full discourse →
Praises to you! In a thousand lives I could not achieve as much as you have spontaneously given me. Please accept me as your disciple!
... you have taken it? Then you have become a disciple. Becoming a disciple is not dependent on my acceptance. Becoming a disciple is dependent on your acceptance. A disciple means one who is ready to learn. A disciple means one who is ready to bow down, to fill his begging bowl. A disciple means one eager to listen in humility, eager to contemplate deeply and quietly, eager to meditate. You have become a disciple. If you took it, then by your very taking you have become a disciple. Being a disciple is not dependent on my agreement. What can I do if I accept you but you don't take it? What can I do if I don't accept you but you go ahead and take it anyway? Discipleship is your freedom. If is not anyone's charity. Discipleship is your privilege, your dignity. There is no need for any papers…Read the full discourse →
Beloved Osho, before coming to india I was your disciple "in spite of myself." but since coming here I have fallen so in love with you that I feel you as my beloved master and not just Osho. There are times when I feel awed or privileged or in blissful, painful communion. But there are also moments when life seems so utterly futile and hopeless, and I feel such despair that even one more footstep seems like too much. Beloved master, can you provide some insight?
Seeing no possibility that this man was not going to leave, he was allowed in, and twenty-four hours were given to him. Immediately he started spreading a rumor that in hell a new paper is going to be started and they need a chief editor, editors, reporters -- very good salary, free houses, cars, servants. What you are doing here? It looks like a desert and the saints are so old, so much dust has gathered on them, that one wonders whether they are alive or dead. He met all the twelve journalists and they were all very much excited about the news. The next day, when twenty-four hours were over, he went to the gate and he asked the gatekeeper, "What is the situation? Has anyone left?" The gatekeeper said, "Anyone? All have left. And now you cannot leave. We have a quota for twelve; at least one should…Read the full discourse →
Osho, whether you love me or not does not touch me in the least. I cannot even thank you for the suffering you have given me. I know fully that whatever you do, you do for my good. That you do not accept me as a disciple does cause some pain. But this pain is sweet, and I want to ask: can you also taste it? And my only prayer is that the feeling of gratitude becomes so dense that only that remains. Asked by Swami Achyut Bodhisattva!
Perhaps he has fallen into the illusion that because I never mention his name, I do not accept him as a disciple. Do not be so attached to a name. A name is only a convenience. Whoever has joined with me, I remember them—whether I take their name or not. A name is a formality. Do not let it come in the way. And you ask, “Whether you love me or not—it doesn’t affect me in the least.” It does affect you—otherwise you wouldn’t ask. You’re explaining it to yourself, consoling yourself: that no, nothing bothers you. But it will burn a little; there will be a hitch. And there should be. You have surrendered to me; you have accepted me; you are entitled to receive my love. There should be a tremor. And love is showering on you. But it often happens that we recognize love only when it…Read the full discourse →
Osho, can a disciple’s love for his true Master and the disciple’s ego both persist together?
Ego is the stair you have used till now; surrender is your foot—searching for the new. Until your foot rests on the new, you cannot lift it from the old—nor should you, else you will fall flat on your face. Once the foot has found its grip on the new step, then lift it; then there is no fear. Once your foot settles in surrender, there will be little difficulty in lifting it from the ego. But there is no need to hurry. Let things happen in their natural way, patiently. Do not be anxious: “If I have ego, how will surrender happen?” When a room is dark, do you ask, “There is so much darkness here, and not of a day or two, but of lifetimes—who knows since when! If I light a little lamp here—will it burn? Will it burn in such great darkness?” You don’t ask this,…Read the full discourse →