What happens when I surrender myself completely?

You cannot be back in your state now -- there is no way! Once some desire to grow has arisen, once an enquiry has entered your being, once you have started dreaming about the unknown, about future possibilities -- call it religion or whatsoever -- once a dream has arisen in you, there is no way to go back. You have to follow the dream. You can delay. The more you delay, the more you will suffer. But these dreams are such that they haunt.. Blessed are the ignorant -- because they don't have any dreams... they don't try to reach into the unknown. But they are not really alive. Life is always when there is challenge. Life is always between the old and the new. When you take the step, when you take the jump, you are alive.

Why and how should surrender happen?

Surrender, because we only appear to be persons—we are not. We only appear separate—we are not. It is a great illusory perception that we are separate. This totality of life—we are connected to it. Like a leaf may be under the illusion that it is separate from the tree. And of course it is under the illusion that it is separate from the other leaves on the same branch. This illusion arises naturally. The neighboring leaf dries up, yet this one does not dry along with it—if they were one, it too would dry. A neighboring leaf gets plucked, this one is not plucked with it—if they were one, it would be plucked too. One leaf is like a child, fresh and new; another like an old man. So it is quite natural that each leaf considers itself separate, though it is not the truth. But if the leaf looks…

The greatest music in life is experienced when you surrender to the whole, when you drop your identity, when you forget that you are separate, when the union happens, union with the whole. I Sannyas means surrender. It means a deep deep let-go. You are no more but the whole is. And when you are no more all your problems naturally disappear. They linger with you, they exist with you; without you they cannot exist, not even for a single moment. It would be impossible to have anxiety if you were not. Who would be anxious? It would be impossible to feel anguish if you were not. These are all branches of the ego. Ego is the very root cause of our hell.

Osho, what is surrender? I used to think I knew. Now it is a mystery.

THE FALSE KNOWLEDGE de-mystifies existence; the true knowledge re-mystifies it. Knowing, if authentic, makes life more of a mystery than it has ever been before. Knowledge certainly covers your eyes with dark clouds, creates a wall of thick smoke, and you start feeling you know. In fact, you are going deeper into ignorance. To be knowledgeable is to be more ignorant than even the ignorant ones. The Upanishads have a tremendously significant statement. They say: The ignorant man is lost in darkness, but the knowledgeable is lost in deeper darkness than the ignorant -- because the knowledgeable lives in an "as if" world. He thinks he knows, but he knows not. He only believes; he has not seen. He believes in God, he believes in love, he believes in surrender, but belief is always a cover-up. Your wound is covered, but it is not healed that way. In fact, the…

What is it to be surrendered to you?

Savita, that which you don't have and you think that you have, has to be surrendered to me. You don't really have the ego, the I, the self. You don't have it really. You are living in a kind of illusion that you are separate from existence. That separation is not there. You cannot live for a single split moment as separate. You cannot live like an island. You are part of the whole. The whole goes on participating in your being, the whole goes on showering you with its energy, but you have the idea that "I am separate." That 'I' has to be surrendered to me. And you don't have it, so you will not be really surrendering something to me, just an illusion. Let me repeat: that which you don't have, I want to take it away from you. And that which you have, I want to…