What happens to my feelings of love when I am away from my family?

Beloved Osho, the first time I saw you was when I took sannyas, and I had that beautiful feeling of "being at home" for the first time in my life. Whenever I'm away from you I feel a certain restlessness that keeps me moving from one place to another, never feeling right wherever I am. The moment I'm staying close to you again the feeling is back: I'm home again. 2 what is this beautiful feeling? You always say there is no home unless we find it in ourselves. But what is this feeling of being at home?

There is no home, unless we find it in ourselves. But if you are close to a person who has found the home and you are open to the person, available, receptive, then you will also share the feeling that you are at home. After all, your master's home is your home too. So what has been happening is perfectly right. You go far away; you miss the feeling of being at home and you feel that something is not right. It is perfectly as it should be. But it is only the beginning of a journey. You feel at home when you are close to me. Let this feeling grow deeper; don't let it be superficial. Allow it to sink to your very being; then wherever you are, I will be with you. Right now you have to be with me to make it possible for me to be…

Beloved Osho, when I am far away from you, I often feel very close. And when I see you again, I am sometimes startled to find us almost strangers. How can this be?

"Has the other passenger disturbed you? Or has he done anything to you, touched your body or anything?" He said, "He has not done anything, but just to be here feels very strange." People meeting each other try to make some bridges; otherwise it is difficult. Once it happened in Bombay, I entered the compartment -- one man was there already and he saw that hundreds of people had come to see me off, so I must be a Hindu saint, because those people outside all look like Hindus. So he simply fell at my feet. I helped him to stand up and I said, "You have done something wrong. I am a Mohammedan." He said, "Mohammedan? And I have touched your feet!" I said, "You didn't give me any chance -- you immediately jumped and touched my feet!" "No," he said. "No, you are not a Mohammedan, you must…

Osho, never before have I felt so much love and never before so alone. Thank you, Osho...

Carl Gustav Jung has made these words very famous. He divided people basically into two types: the introverts and the extroverts. That is a wrong division. People cannot be categorized that way. People cannot be pigeon-holed this way. I have never come across anyone who is just introvert -- he will die immediately, because he will have only the in-breath. I have never come across a person who is just extrovert -- he will die too. People are both. It is possible that one is more of an extrovert than an introvert, and vice versa. And that's what brings imbalance to your personality. One should be both simultaneously. One should be balanced. My sannyasins have to be extrovert introverts, introvert extroverts -- both together. This is one of the most important things to be understood, because in the past the monks have tried to be just introverts. They were called…

This is the perfect way. And feel grateful to his wife because she is helping your relationship to go deep, in fact she is the cause. If you take him away from his wife, then he will have to find another woman just as he has found you. Then he will have one kind of relationship with you -- husband-wife -- and he will be a lover to somebody else. Feel grateful to that woman and whatsoever you can do for that woman, do. Because she is the cause of the whole love affair.... So never feel angry and never feel bad about that. It is perfectly good, leave it as it is. Go deep with appetite, with longing, with passion. Don't ask for length, ask always for depth. It is only out of depth that this contentment arises, not out of length. And one cannot have both, remember.

That coming together and the joy of it depends on going away. If you don't go away, then you are stuck; then there will be no joy. It is just like you eat; then for six, eight hours you fast. You cannot go on eating twenty-four hours a day. Otherwise all joy of eating will be destroyed -- you will feel nausea. So for six, eight hours you forget about food -- again hunger is there and again you are asking for food, longing for food.... And you will eat! And the moment you eat the hunger starts disappearing. So the first bite has a different value; the second bite has less value than the first; the law .of diminishing returns. It is not only economical; it is a very fundamental law.