According to Osho, feeling and watching during catharsis aren’t signs of pathology but of your type. Two valid doors: total involvement (no witness) or total awareness (only witness). Wholeness means totality, not mixing. If you can’t lose control, drop that ideal and choose alert witnessing; both routes reach the same peak when practiced totally.
Either be fully the dancer or just the watcher—don’t half-do both; pick what fits you and do it totally.