According to Osho, you forget yourself because for many lifetimes you've trained attention outward—toward people, money, the ‘ten thousand things’—forming a deep habit. Self-remembering returns in brief flashes; that’s enough to begin. Work moment-to-moment with patience and intelligence, without guilt or frustration. Perseverance in these small awakenings gradually breaks the old conditioning.
You’ve looked outside for so long that you overlook yourself; just notice yourself for one gentle moment at a time, without scolding, and it will grow.