What happens when sannyasins behave negatively despite receiving love?

Osho, since taking sannyas I have received so much—love, a way of living...! I feel blessed. But sometimes I get filled with such hatred toward you—so much that I could shoot you. What is this, Master? I can’t make any sense of it!

And it is true. I know his relatives—those who were beggars are wealthy today. I know his friends—those who had nothing have everything now. It is true; there is not the slightest exaggeration in saying that he has given a lot and has not been stingy in giving. His hands are very free. He has given with a free heart. So naturally his question is meaningful: Why are they displeased with me? I said, You don’t understand, but let me ask you one thing; it will make it clear. Have you ever allowed these friends, relations, family members to do anything for you in return? He said, No, there was never any need. I have everything. And if ever anyone wanted to do something, I refused: What’s the point? I have plenty. So I never took anything in return from anyone. I said, Then the matter is clear—why they are…

You have asked: “You often say that this world is an echo-point, from where everything we give it returns to us. Love receives love; hatred receives hatred. If that is so, why were Buddha and Mahavira tortured? Why were Jesus and Mansoor killed? And why are you met here with false accusations, slander, and abuses?”

All cultures, all societies instruct people: respect your parents. Why? Because if this is not taught, children will kill their parents. There is fear. By nature, the process of life is such that the parents have to anger the child a thousand times. The child wants to play with a snake—the mother has to pull him back. The child wants to go toward the fire—the mother has to stop him. A thousand occasions arise when she must say no, no, no. The child begins to feel: into what enemies’ hands have I fallen! Whatever I want to do is wrong! Everything is wrong! None of my feelings are respected—only insult upon insult. The small child begins to think: wait, let me grow up; I will teach you a lesson. When the power is in my hands, I will show you. And it is no wonder that when the parents grow…

Osho, you have loved so many sannyasins across the world with such boundless love that no one could ever repay that debt. Yet there are so many sannyasins who were very close to your grace, and still those very ones are now behaving toward you like Judas. Will this tradition of Judas never come to an end? And what is the secret behind it?

A priest was brought and the marriage was performed. And the next thing Hitler did after marrying was this: both of them took poison, poured petrol over themselves, and had themselves set on fire. Marriage for just that long! The woman had pressed him for long; he had promised her, “I will marry you—even if I am dying, I will marry you. Don’t worry.” He married to fulfill that assurance—but he married when everything had already slipped from his hands, when nothing remained but death. Even his highest generals were miles away from him. The fear of Judas! Bringing anyone close is not free of danger. Whoever you bring close, that very one can betray you. The great political thinker of the West, Machiavelli—you will be surprised to know that Machiavelli’s granddaughter is my sannyasin. Machiavelli is the Chanakya of the West. He wrote all the sutras of Western politics.…

Osho, why do disciples betray the Master? Vijayanand and Mahesh now speak against you. And a sannyasin, Swami Chinmay, has written in Current that when my Master speaks against politics he falls below religion; and also says that since I am a living disciple I can therefore speak against my Master.

He does not understand me. He does not know what I am saying or what is happening here. He has just assumed. These things will happen. As my sannyasins increase and a wave arises, many will dye their clothes, string malas, announce themselves. People flock to a rising sun; they try to profit from it. Such a gentleman has no value. His statements have none—he does not know my vision of life. Religion is not a subject with boundaries. Religion has no limit. Religion is the name of the whole of life. Whatever life includes, religion has the right to speak about. The politician cannot speak about religion, for politics has limits; but the religious man can speak about politics, for religion has no limits. Religion is boundless. It envelops the whole of life, like the sky. Nothing is to be left outside religion. The religious person’s vision applies to…

Question: OSHO, WHEN I WAS A CHILD ATTENDING SUNDAY SCHOOL THERE WAS A HEBREW PROVERB HANGING ON THE WALL. IT READ: "THE BEGINNING OF WISDOM IS THE FEAR OF THE LORD." FOR MANY YEARS I WAS CONVINCED OF THE MEANING THAT GOD WAS FRIGHTENED OF MAN GAINING ANY WISDOM. AFTER ALL, DIDN'T HE FORBID EATING OF THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE? AND THEN ONE DAY IT WAS EXPLAINED: "FEARING GOD IS THE FIRST STEP IN MAN'S PATH TOWARDS UNDERSTANDING." AGAIN IT MADE PERFECT SENSE. AFTER ALL, WASN'T JEHOVAH A FEARSOME, PUNITIVE, OMNIPOTENT GOD! AND NOW I AM FINDING IT HARD TO RECOVER FROM THAT IDEA, AND IT INTERFERES WITH MY LOVE FOR YOU. IN SPITE OF "KNOWING BETTER" I HAVE TO SEE YOU AS ALL-POWERFUL; I HAVE TO BE DEPENDENT ON YOU FOR MY LIBERATION; AND SOMETIMES IT FOLLOWS THAT THEN I HAVE TO BE AFRAID OF YOU AND YOUR "PUNISHMENT.