What happens when I go deeper into meditation and gain weight?

Beloved Osho, the deeper and deeper I go into meditation, the fatter and fatter I am getting. Am I in danger of exploding?

People who drop sex automatically start eating a little more: the way life begins creates this connection. The child becomes aware of his mother's breast and the food that comes from it at the same time. Later on the breast becomes a sexual symbol, but the association with food is very deep in your unconscious. The people who drop sex -- in this place it is otherwise; sex drops people -- start eating more to substitute, because eating is connected with man's sexuality. So you have to be aware, Yogesh: exploding is perfectly good, but that is an exploding of consciousness, an explosion of your inner being, not an explosion of your body. People are already afraid of coming close to me, and if you do this kind of exploding then I am going to lose all my crazy people. So please, be kind towards yourself and be kind towards…

When there is nobody, not even a thought of anybody and you are really alone, you start sinking, you drown into yourself. Don't be afraid. In the beginning that drowning will look like death and a gloom will surround you, a sadness will surround you, because you have always known happiness with people, in relationships. Just wait a little. Let the sinking go deeper, and you will see a silence arising and a stillness which has a dance to it... an unmoving movement inside. Nothing moves, and still everything is tremendously speedy... empty, yet full. Paradoxes meet and contradictions dissolve. So for one month you delight in it, and just wait for something to happen. Sit silent, relaxed, yet tense because you are waiting, something is going to descend on you. And I am going to do something.

But in the West a stupid concept has come, but don't be bothered by it. This goes on changing. In every age it changes. Sometimes people love fat women, sometimes thin; it is like a fashion. And women have never really uttered what they really like to be. They always look to the man and to what he likes. If you look into old indian statues, Khajuraho, Konark and Puri temples, you will always find very fat women, because in India they have always loved the motherhood of woman. A thin woman cannot really be a mother. So don't be worried about it. Enjoy it! Become an Indian! When you become thin, you can become Western again. When you are fat be an Indian. And just enjoy your meditation and let things happen inside you, mm? [A sannyasin says: I find it very hard to meditate.

Question: OM. THAT IS WHOLE, AND THIS ALSO IS WHOLE. FOR ONLY THE WHOLE IS BORN OUT OF THE WHOLE; AND WHEN THE WHOLE IS TAKEN FROM THE WHOLE, BEHOLD, THE REMAINDER IS WHOLE. OM. PEACE, PEACE, PEACE. So the first thing is: hyperoxygenate. Let there be an abundance of oxygen in you. Remember this throughout these seven days. Two or three things will happen if you do this, but don't be afraid of them. When you start breathing deeply, your sleep will become shorter. This is not something to worry about. When sleep is deep and sound, its duration decreases, and as you begin to breathe more deeply, the depth of your sleep will increase also. This is why those who do hard physical work sleep so soundly at night.

Question: Last question: Osho! I am a complete glutton. What should I do? Buddha has said: In the house where a lamp is lit, thieves do not enter. In the same way, in the house where the lamp of meditation is lit, no disease can enter. These are all diseases. These are the real diseases. The body’s diseases are not much; the physician treats those. I too am a physician, but I am a physician of the soul’s diseases. Do not go by the symptoms; always cut at the root. And there is only one axe to cut the root—meditation. Zen master Rinzai was sitting on the riverbank. A man asked him, “Tell me briefly: what is the essence of your teaching?” He sat silently, saying nothing. The man said, “Did you not hear? Are you deaf? Do you hear only if one shouts?