What happens when I fall asleep during discourse?

Osho, why do I always fall asleep during the discourse?

That's what happens in many car accidents. Many car accidents happen somewhere in the night nearabout between two and four, and the reason is that the driver is trying hard to keep his eyes open; by and by, he becomes capable of keeping his eyes open, and still he falls asleep. He keeps his eyes open and falls asleep with open eyes. Now this is a scientific finding. And that makes the whole problem: because he thinks he is awake he goes on driving because his eyes are open, but the sleep has taken possession of him, he is no longer aware. When you are awake, there is not much wakefulness; just a small part of you is awake. So you are not a loser, don't be worried. Whenever sannyasins come and ask me, "What should we do?" I tell them: Don't fight, otherwise you will miss me and you…

Why do I always fall asleep in discourse? Sometimes I can't help comparing myself to those people who sit absolutely still, just imbibing you, and that makes me feel like I have so far to go, especially every time when people come up to me after the lecture and say, "wasn't it amazing today?" maybe more would come through to me if I just accept that discourse is a good place for me to sleep.

It is the perfect place. Don't be worried about those people who come and tell you, they must be joking. You sleep well. They must be trying to disturb you, they must be trying to create some jealousy in you. They must be really jealous of you -- that you are sleeping so well and snoring, and those poor people are just sitting. They want to disturb you. Don't be worried. Go on sleeping. You have to go far, but in sleep, nowhere else. The game was drifting off into total boredom when a man in the crowd suddenly burst into a round of applause. The man next to him said, "Why did you do that?" "Sorry," he replied. "I was trying to keep myself awake." You don't know how much difficulty people are having in keeping themselves awake. You just go into your sleep, relax into it. If you…

Beloved Osho, each morning at discourse, as soon as I hear your voice, I begin to feel a sense of deep relaxation. I start to feel drowsy and find it difficult to stay awake. Could you explain?

That's great, because the same happens to me! The moment I start speaking I go to sleep. And by and by I have become so expert that you don't detect that I am talking in my sleep. That's perfectly good; relaxation is beautiful. And what I am saying today, tomorrow I will contradict, so no need to be bothered. Relax and go to sleep; you need it. And as far as hearing me is concerned, it is nonserious. It is not a sermon; I am not giving you a doctrine, I am not giving your principles. I am just speaking in my sleep. If you all also go to sleep and listen to me in your sleep, that will be really groovy!

Osho, even after a good night’s sleep, in the morning my attention often gets lost during your discourse. What can be done to prevent this?

Do nothing. If it gets lost, let it be lost. Only keep the awareness that it is lost. Turn even the state of non-attention into attention. And don’t look at the negative; look at the affirmative. You ask: even after a good night’s sleep, in the morning your attention often gets lost in the discourse. Many times it gets lost; many times it does not. Put your attention on the times it does not. Each time it does not, give thanks to the divine. As much as it settles, that much is grace. Is even that too little? If I speak for an hour and a half, and in that hour and a half even five minutes of your attention truly alight on my words, it is done. Let the remaining eighty-five minutes go. Don’t worry. Even if those five minutes come as scattered moments that add up, it is…

Beloved Osho, a man like you comes along once in eternity. Whatever you are doing and saying is unique. I'm indeed fortunate to be here and I may never have this opportunity again. Yet every morning I come to discourse, I fall asleep. Am I missing? Should I also go and jump in krishnamurti lake?

It is just great -- have a good sleep! Sleep is not contradictory to enlightenment. You will make history by becoming enlightened in your sleep. And there is no need to go to Krishnamurti Lake. I am here -- your Krishnamurti Lake But don't say that what I am saying is unique. It is simply the truth. Anybody who is ready to relax in his ordinariness will realize it. And it is not that a man like me comes only once in an eternity. You all have the same potential. Only men like me are born; there are no other kind. Just don't try to become somebody. That's why I am saying. Don't call me unique; otherwise you will start unconsciously trying to become unique. And the moment you go on the trip of becoming, you are going far away from the truth that you are. Just be ordinary! It…