Sudama

Osho, a small question about Sudama. It was only when Sudama came to Krishna to ask for something that he was given sovereignty over the three worlds. But before that, why did Krishna give Sudama nothing? He was so poor—the poor fellow!

In this world nothing is simply given. In this world nothing is obtained without seeking; it has to be searched for. God is present right here, and it is not that he is unaware of your pain—but you are standing with your back turned. And you have that much freedom: if you wish, you can take God; if you wish, you can refuse. The day you find him, you may complain to God, “Until I sought you, why did you not seek me?” But God will say, “To force myself upon you would also be a kind of bondage.” Freedom means precisely this: that what we seek can come to us, and what we do not seek does not. Remember, nothing in this world is had without seeking; it must be sought. What Sudama is like is not the main issue; Sudama could even have refused. I believe that had…

Questioner. I have again a small question in regard to sudama. When sudama came to krishna, he was given all the wealth of the world as a gift. How is it that krishna did not think of helping his indigent friend earlier?

In this world you have to search for and find everything you need; nothing is given gratis. God is everywhere, and it is not that he is not aware of your sufferings. But you have turned your back on him -- and you are free to do so. This much freedom you have that you can choose him or deny him. Now if you turn your face to God and find him, can you complain why he did not seek you before you sought and found him? If you complain, God will say that it would be a trespass on your freedom if he forced himself on you without your asking. Freedom means that I am entitled to find what I seek and not that which I don't seek. And remember, nothing in this world is had without seeking. Seeking is a must, and it is part of your freedom.…

Osho, you have earlier said, “Live moment to moment, live in the present.” Now you are saying, “Return to the past.” What should we do?

So it is with the mind—there are ruts. The past means endless grooves. However much you understand, your intellect agrees, you make decisions, you resolve—at the moment of resolve you feel something is going to change. But not even an hour passes before your decision breaks. Then only self-condemnation is produced, nothing else. Your saints, your fakirs, your priests and pundits—most of the time they only succeed in producing self-condemnation in you, nothing else. Their words are logically correct. You cannot even say they are wrong; you have to admit they are right. In that admission you take a decision. But against what are you deciding? Inside are grooves carved since who knows when, deep tracks. Walking in them has become a habit. It is easy to walk in them. They will pull you again and again. The meaning of returning into the past is: these grooves must be erased.…

Osho, when I first met you I knew nothing at all. I don’t know from where to where you have carried me! Solitude now feels sweet. Now there is nowhere to go and nowhere to come. Nothing to become and nothing to know. I have received so much, more than I was worthy of. So now, farewell and pranam. Who knows where today my boat has set sail—sailing, sailing, my boat sails. Some say it goes here, some say it goes there; I say, it goes to the Beloved’s village.

This is exactly what we all have done with God. We do not give thanks for what has been given. In those ten years he never once said thank you. But when fifty dollars were cut, he was angry, complaining, blazing. His fifty dollars are being cut? If you ask—first, you will not receive. And it is good that you do not—because whatever you ask is wrong. You cannot ask rightly. You are wrong; from the wrong only wrong asking can arise. In a neem tree only neem’s bitter fruit can grow; there is no possibility of the mango’s sweet fruit. What is not in your roots cannot appear in your fruits. If you are wrong, whatever you ask will be wrong. So first: you will not receive. And it is auspicious that you do not. It is God’s great compassion that what you ask is not granted. Sit sometime…