According to Osho, you feel you're waiting because you don't trust the simple fact that you are already enlightened. Lifelong conditioning—'you are ignorant, unworthy'—makes you exclude yourself and postpone truth with ifs and buts. Enlightenment is not an event to happen but your present nature. Drop the project of becoming; stop fantasizing a future attainment, and relax into what is already the case.
You’re already the light; the waiting feeling comes from believing you’re not—just notice it now.