Why am I not interested in truth, meditation, God, nirvana, or sannyas?

I am not interested in truth, in meditation, god, nirvana, sannyas, etcetera. Why?

THEN WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? Are you mad? If you are not interested, you are not interested. Wait -- when the interest arises, come. But my feeling is, you must be interested in some way. Maybe the interest is unconscious. Maybe your conscious mind says "I am not interested" and your unconscious mind is interested. Perhaps there is no bridge between your unconscious and conscious; perhaps you can't listen to your unconscious or the messages that it gives to you. You have forgotten the language of the unconscious, you are closed in your conscious. And this question arises out of fear -- fear that you may really be interested in God, in truth, in nirvana, in meditation, in sannyas. Who knows? And the conscious is afraid. The conscious mind lives in fear, always in fear. It is afraid of all great things -- of love, of God, of sannyas…

I feel so much resistance against meditation and I don't have this desire for god that you speak about. Is this the right place for me?

The man looked, he came closer to the window and he said, 'Those clothes are not dirty. Your window glass is covered with dust.' They opened the windows and it was so. Those clothes were not dirty. Life is tremendously beautiful. It is Divine. When we say 'Life is God' we simply say that life is so tremendously beautiful that one feels a reverence for it. That's all. Life is so tremendously beautiful that one feels like worshipping it. That's all we mean when we say 'Life is God.' When we say 'Life is God' we only mean, 'Don't see that life is ordinary. It is extraordinary. There is tremendous potentiality. Just open your eyes.' I have never seen a person who is not interested in God -- although he may not know it -- because I have never seen a person who is not interested in happiness. If you…

Question: BELOVED OSHO, WHY AM I NOT CURIOUS ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE? Devageet, twelve hundred years ago there was a mystery school exactly like this. The mystery school belonged to one of the greatest Sufis, Mevlana Jalaluddin Rumi. The Turkish word mevlana means Beloved Master; it has never been used for anyone else. In front of his mystery school was written in bold letters: "This place is not for those who are only curious." Curiosity has no spiritual meaning. Curiosity is something like itching in your mind: if you itch it goes; if you don't itch it goes also. Curiosity has no passion in it; it is very superficial. Just by the way, an inquiry, a question arises in you -- but it is not your quest, you are not to dedicate your life in searching for the answer to it.

Osho, why are people drawn here as if by a magnet? Why are people held here? Is it our need? Or is it your magnetism? Sometimes I think you are a god who is playing for us and I am joyful. Then I think you are a sinister magician manipulating us and I am afraid and resentful. I wish I could believe totally in your disinterestedness. Is this all just my creating more nonsense?

And beyond that bridge, one day, the sunrise. And you see me as just pure emptiness. And through that emptiness, God's flowing -- God who is beyond God and evil, beyond good and bad, beyond sin and virtue. I WISH, you say, I COULD BELIEVE TOTALLY IN YOUR DISINTERESTEDNESS. Do you think God is disinterested in the world? Then why did he create it? The gospels say God created the world in six days, then he looked at the world and said, "It is good. It is beautiful." He created it and loved it. From where have you got this idea of disinterestedness? God is utter interest. We cannot say he is interested in the world because you will misunderstand it. It is better to say he is absolute interest, not that there is somebody who is interested: his whole being is interest. He is in tremendous love -- he…

Osho, what is the definition of God?

Words are very small. If you say God is light, then what of darkness? The scriptures have said that God is light. Suppose we accept this as a definition—then what about darkness? Where will darkness go? Darkness is too; in fact it is far more than light. Light sometimes is and sometimes is not; darkness is always, eternal. Where will you place darkness? If you say God is light, darkness is left out. If you say God is darkness, then light is left out. If you say God is both darkness and light, a contradiction arises: they cannot be together. Try to have both darkness and light in the same room. If you bring in light, darkness disappears; if you preserve darkness, you cannot have light. Then how can both be together? That becomes an impossibility. So you cannot say “both” either. Then the fourth device is to say: it…