What should I do to deepen my practice of meditation?

Another friend has asked: Osho, how does sexual desire disappear through the practice of meditation?

It is not that sexual desire disappears; through meditation your energy begins to move in another dimension and direction. If someone says that by digging canals the river no longer floods, it does not mean floods stop coming because of the canals; floods still come, but their force is carried off through the canals, and the villages along the banks no longer need to be submerged. Meditation does not throw your sexual desire out. You have only one power—whether you expend it in sex or in meditation. Your energy is one; use it however you will—into anger or into forgiveness, into love or into hate—the power is the same. All expressions are uses of that one power. Meditation makes your energy upward-moving. It starts traveling on a higher path. Its outlets change. Where sex was the outlet, love becomes its path. If the energy flows downward—degrades—it finds sex as its…

Osho, my eyes are like the monsoon months of Sawan and Bhadon, yet my mind remains thirsty...

Your sorrow is so deep it could have awakened you. But there are many lullaby-singers, many patting you to sleep, saying, “So far it hasn’t worked? No problem—tomorrow it will. Trust in fate, in God. Worship, recite, perform havan and yajña. Until now you tried by yourself; now rope in God and try to get it. Your effort so far wasn’t total—now try with your whole being. Bring a deeper method, a more intense yoga, gather every tactic, fight unitedly and victory will be yours.” Such people say, “Nothing is impossible.” I had a teacher—he had no real clue. He taught me in matriculation. He quoted Alexander’s famous line: “Nothing is impossible.” And he delivered an impassioned oration to prove that nothing is impossible. I stood up and said, “However beautifully you speak, this is not true, because Alexander’s own life proclaims his defeat. What difference does his statement make?…

Question: IF YOU SLEEP, DESIRE GROWS IN YOU LIKE A VINE IN THE FOREST. LIKE A MONKEY IN THE FOREST YOU JUMP FROM TREE TO TREE, NEVER FINDING THE FRUIT -- FROM LIFE TO LIFE, NEVER FINDING PEACE. IF YOU ARE FILLED WITH DESIRE, YOUR SORROWS SWELL LIKE THE GRASS AFTER THE RAIN. BUT IF YOU SUBDUE DESIRE, YOUR SORROWS FALL FROM YOU LIKE DROPS OF WATER FROM A LOTUS FLOWER. THIS IS GOOD COUNSEL AND IT IS FOR EVERYONE: AS THE GRASS IS CLEARED FOR THE FRESH ROOT, CUT DOWN DESIRE LEST DEATH AFTER DEATH CRUSH YOU AS A RIVER CRUSHES THE HELPLESS REEDS. FOR IF THE ROOTS HOLD FIRM, A FELLED TREE GROWS UP AGAIN. IF DESIRES ARE NOT UPROOTED, SORROWS GROW AGAIN IN YOU. That's why it happens that if you are involved into something really deeply you may not feel any interest in sexuality.

Osho, if I speak for myself, the deep experiences of meditation happened before I had even heard the names of Krishnamurti or you. This self-experience happened without practicing any method. Therefore when Krishnamurti says, “Do not practice any method; it happens naturally,” that feels natural to me. After all, Krishnamurti does emphasize continuous awareness and learning from life without a center, as a result of which meditation can happen. If I am not mistaken, you do not agree with this tenet of Krishnamurti. This surprises me. I hope to understand your viewpoint.

That night all ambition dropped. That night there was no feeling, no thought, no future. He slept. He lay under a banyan; it was a full-moon night. In that moonlight, the emaciated body, utterly thin—he must have looked unearthly, like a ghost! A woman had vowed that on a full-moon night, if she became pregnant, she would offer sweet rice pudding to that banyan deity. She had become pregnant; the full moon had come; so Sujata came with a platter of kheer and sweets, delicious food, to offer to the banyan on the bank of the Niranjana. In the moonlight she saw—as if the banyan deity had himself appeared! She was overwhelmed, touched his feet, and said, “O deity of the banyan! I had never imagined you would appear! But I am blessed—accept my offering.” On any other day Buddha would not have eaten at night—night eating was a sin.…

Question: Second question: Osho, what should I do? My mind is a great rascal! The German poet Heine wrote that once he got lost in a forest for three days. On the third day—tired, hungry, thirsty, losing hope—the full moon rose. He wrote: “I was amazed. I am a poet; I have written many poems on the moon, and always I saw my beloved’s face in it. Today I saw a loaf of bread floating in the sky. I couldn’t believe it. I rubbed my eyes and looked again—what has happened to the moon? A loaf of bread!” But a man hungry for three days will see only a loaf in the moon. What will you do with your beloved’s face? Bhookhe bhajan na hove Gopala—on an empty stomach no hymn arises. The beloved cannot appear; only bread appears.