What is the relationship between spontaneous living with awareness and the conditioning of the mind?

Beloved Osho, could you please explain the relationship between spontaneous living with awareness, and the conditioning of mind? How can one be certain that something is one's nature and not conditioning?

If you are in doubt, it is conditioning. If there is no doubt, it is awareness. It is a very simple criterion!

Osho: would you please say something about the relationship between spontaneity and working on oneself? Shouldn't we be loving as much as we can? If there are certain things to do or ways to be to increase our capacity for joy, shouldn't we do them? Shouldn't we let our egos drop? Many good men have written that love can begin as an impulse of the will, and trying to be spontaneous seems to be a contradiction. Would you comment on this?

You have forgotten what real love is. You fall in love with the color of the hair -- now, what has that to do with love? After two days you will not look at the color of the hair at all. Or you fall in love with a certain shape of nose or a certain kind of eyes, but after the honeymoon these things are just boring! And then you have to go on managing somehow, pretending, cheating. Your spontaneity has been corrupted and poisoned, otherwise you would not fall in love with parts. But you only fall in love with parts. If somebody asks you, 'Why do you love this woman or this man?" your answer will be, "Because she looks so beautiful," or, "Because of her nose, eyes, proportion of the body, this and that" -- and all this is nonsense! Then this love cannot be very deep…

As a cloud that rises from the sea absorbing rain, the earth embraces,

SO, LIKE THE SKY, THE SEA REMAINS WITHOUT INCREASING OR DECREASING. SO FROM SPONTANEITY THAT'S UNIQUE, REPLETE WITH THE BUDDHA'S PERFECTIONS, ARE ALL SENTIENT BEINGS BORN, AND IN IT COME TO REST. BUT IT IS NEITHER CONCRETE NOR ABSTRACT. THEY WALK OTHER PATHS AND SO FORSAKE TRUE BLISS, SEEKING THE DELIGHTS THAT STIMULANTS PRODUCE. THE HONEY IN THEIR MOUTHS, AND TO THEM SO NEAR, WILL VANISH IF AT ONCE THEY DO NOT DRINK IT. BEASTS DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE WORLD TO BE A SORRY PLACE. NOT SO THE WISE WHO THE HEAVENLY NECTAR DRINK WHILE BEASTS HUNGER FOR THE SENSUAL. EVERYTHING CHANGES... and Heraclitus is right: you cannot step in the same river twice. The river is changing, so are you changing too. It is all movement. It is all flux. Everything is impermanent, momentary. Only for a moment it is there, and then gone... and you will never find…

For the first time in my life I feel absolutely free and unconditioned: free to be myself every second without any compromising. And I realize that the only effort I have to make is to become aware. Can you say something about awareness? By the way, I love you.

Anand Matthias, "BY THE WAY," hm? By the way you love me? And you don't know what awareness is. And yet you feel: ABSOLUTELY FREE AND UNCONDITIONED: FREE TO BE MYSELF EVERY SECOND WITHOUT ANY COMPROMISING. But the ego is very clever. If you throw it out from the front door it comes from the back door, but it goes on grabbing you again and again. Now this can become your conditioning. Remember, even the idea that "I am unconditioned" can become a conditioning. Conditioning is a very subtle process. I have heard about one man who was a disciple of the famous Russian psychologist, Pavlov. Pavlov has found the theory of conditioned reflex, and the whole of Russian psychology depends on that, because Pavlov tries to explain everything through conditioning. Pavlov says everything is conditioning, and he is ninety-nine point nine percent right, because he is wrong only about…

Beloved Osho, can one live without planning? Not counting the dreams about a hazy future, I see that a lot of my mind activity goes into planning -- for next week, for next month. And when I try to act spontaneously I look like a weather vane that does not know how the wind blows.

These are the people who have made the proverb: Man proposes and God disposes. There is no God and nobody disposes. Your very proposition is wrong. Proposing anything from your side means you are not trusting existence. Just be a weather vane which slowly moves without any reluctance, without any resistance, wherever the wind is blowing. It enjoys all directions. The whole of life has to be enjoyed; existence in all its colors has to be enjoyed. But the mind is one of the most stupid things that you are carrying within you. When it is morning it is longing for the evening, when it is evening it is longing for the morning; it is the root cause of all your misery and frustrations. What is the need? I cannot understand why the weather vane should want to know how the wind blows. Can you figure it out? Is there…