According to Osho, deep transformation is the onset of love’s holy madness: tears, pain, and social disgrace dissolve your borrowed identities and logic; everything you think is yours is swept away. Endure and turn sorrow into prayer. In this annihilation of the ego, living springs open and your true essence—Truth/God/Nirvana—reveals itself; only those who die in love attain the immortal.
Deep change feels messy and painful as love breaks your old self, but if you stay patient and pray through it, your real self appears.