According to Osho, truly feeling like a dry leaf moved only by existence means the doer has vanished: no questions arise, and breathing, moving or dissolving happen by themselves, effortlessly. If you’re still asking, it’s only intellectual. Practice meditative techniques totally; their intense effort matures you into effortlessness, where surrender happens spontaneously and enlightenment is simply revealed.
When it’s real, you stop trying and life moves you; until then, practice fully so trying can naturally drop.