According to Osho, when you long for presence (my glance), love and a profound invitation arrive—but they carry the ‘death’ of your old self. The ego shrinks, fear surfaces, and you flee, repeating a hide-and-seek of yes/no. Real connection destroys the familiar so the hidden can be born. Freedom invites vastness and insecurity; only total, fearless receiving ends the pattern.
When the connection you wanted actually comes, it feels like losing your old self, so fear makes you run away.