What happens when I remember you during meditation?

Osho, what magic has drawn me here? Whether at home or in the marketplace, wherever I am I keep remembering you. Even in meditation, when the remembrance of you comes, tears begin to flow. There is no demand and nothing to ask... What should I do?

Your bond with me has happened. With this bond the first glimpse of bliss has begun to come. That is why you are amazed—you wonder what magic has happened! This is nothing; much more is yet to happen. Compared to what is to be, this is nothing. This is not even a drop; the ocean is yet to be! But the direction is right. Now refine this direction more and more. When remembrance of me arises, now join it with remembrance of the Divine. Gradually both remembrances will begin to come together. Then, when both begin to come together, let go of the remembrance of me. Hold only the remembrance of the Divine. And do not even by mistake think that in leaving me you have left me. If you cling to me, you may miss me; if you hold to the Divine, you will never be able to leave…

Osho, in meditation I weep; seeing your picture I am overwhelmed, and even your remembrance stirs much within. What should I do?

Sorry, I can’t provide the verbatim translated answer without the original text. If you share it, I will translate it faithfully. Meanwhile, here is a brief summary of Osho’s typical guidance on such a question: - Let the tears come; do not suppress them. - Watch whatever arises—tears, devotion, ecstasy—without clinging; remain a witness. - A picture or remembrance is a device; let it turn you inward rather than create dependence. - When emotion settles, rest in silence; let feeling mature into pure awareness. - Allow love and gratitude to deepen your meditation, but avoid attachment to forms.

Osho, even the memory of sweetness fills the mouth with taste. The remembrance of light fills the inner being with illumination and warmth. I have heard, “Dhyanamoolam gurumurtih” — the Guru’s form is the root of meditation. And the remembrance of you fills me with a profound savor, bliss, and absorption. When, at every step, your melody jingles in my gait like ankle-bells; when in every pore of my being you dwell as the embodiment of meditation, of love, and of the Master — then where should I place meditation now?

The lover leaves it to the Divine. And in that very surrender, revolution begins. Because the moment you leave it to Him, your ego begins to dissolve. And the ego is the root of all disturbance, all mistakes, all sin, all follies. Ego is the doorway to hell. So, to the one who has asked—Krishna Gautam’s question—this is what I say: If the beginning is good, why should the end be bad? Only the naive say, “God knows how it will end!” When the start is good, the finish will be good too. Drop the worry. It is the uncomprehending who say, “The beginning is so promising—only God knows about the result!” When the seeds are full of sweetness and sap, the fruit too will be juicy and sweet. Set out. Now don’t sit and brood. Thinking often turns into laziness. People who think too much forget how to move.…

Osho, what could be a more beautiful expression of God than you? Yet sometimes, when meditation deepens, even you are left behind; and when I come back from meditation a pain remains in the mind—that the very one by whose grace meditation happens is forgotten by me. Is this ingratitude toward you? In kirtan this pain does not arise. I have begun to relish both meditation and devotion; but whenever in discourse you draw a clear dividing line between them, I get confused again. Please say a little more to guide me in this regard. (Forgive me; I had to ask the question.)

Even after realization, Ramakrishna experimented with other methods for which there was no personal need—just to see whether other ghats too lead to the same place. There are many ghats, but all lead to the same. Ramakrishna made many experiments. For six months he became a Muslim. For six months he would not come to the temple; he lived at the mosque. The image—the image of Kali, whom he could not forget even for a moment—he turned his back to completely for six months. Because for a Muslim, image worship is kufr. For six months he practiced the formless. After six months, when he returned he told his disciples: The ghats are different, but wherever you launch the boat, it reaches the same shore. From the mosque too it reaches there, and from the temple too it reaches there. Ramakrishna conducted a very unique experiment as well. In Bengal there…

Osho, how does the remembrance of the Divine begin? How am I to remember God? I have no clue to God at all.

Have you ever known any joy through the ego? The ego aches like a wound; the smallest things hurt. The greater the ego, the greater the pain in life. Remove the source of this pain. Then some true Master will knock at your door. Or, unawares, you will recognize a Master in one in whom you had never seen one before. Sometimes he was living right next door and you did not hear; you met daily on the road, exchanged greetings—and still you never saw. You need the eye to see; the ego does not allow such an eye to be born. Ego is a great curtain. One way is this. If this too feels hard—if letting the ego drop is not easy, if recognizing the Master is not easy—then there is another way: search in nature. In waterfalls, trees, winds, the moon and the stars. Do not search for…