According to Osho, your pull toward homosexuality after long avoidance isn’t necessarily fear of heterosexuality; it can be a natural, healing step in sexual maturation. Go slowly. Love the person if he’s worthy, without labeling. Forcing a sudden jump to heterosexuality may revive avoidance. Watch the mind—the sexual center—so energy isn’t repressed or displaced (e.g., into food). Maturity culminates naturally, even beyond sex, through lived experience.
You’re not necessarily scared; same‑sex love can be a gentle bridge—go step by step, love sincerely, and don’t rush yourself.