Decision Making

Beloved Osho, living decisively, knowing what one wants, seems easy. However, my reality is that I can never make up my mind about anything. I can always see both sides of an argument and can never decide which is right. So I am left hanging between the two. One part of me, listening to you, feels this is okay, but it makes me feel static, as if I am only partially alive. Please comment.

What I have been telling you is that it is the nature of the mind to be in a limbo. It is the nature of the mind to be in the middle of polar opposites. Unless you move away from the mind and become a witness to all the games of the mind, you will never be decisive. Even if you sometimes decide -- in spite of the mind -- you will repent, because the other half that you have not decided for is going to haunt you: perhaps that was right and what you have chosen is wrong. And now there is no way to know. Perhaps the choice was better that you had left aside was better. But even if you had chosen it, the situation would not have been different; then this which would have been left aside would haunt you. Mind is basically the beginning of…

Osho, you say the same thing in countless ways. But when I listen to you, it feels as if I am hearing it for the first time. And I feel so much joy that I don’t feel like going back home. What should I do—what can I do—so that I can just keep listening to you!

You will feel as if you have been made to rise out of season, before time—as if you were not yet to go and yet had to go. And if you go in that way, your home will become even more desolate than before. I do not want to make your home desolate; I want to make your home a temple. I want that when you go home, your home’s new form is revealed. I do not want to tear you away from home, from the world, from family life. That is the newness of my sannyas: I do not want to sever you from the world; I want to join you to the world in such a way that your connection with the world becomes a connection with the Divine. Let the world no longer be a barrier between you and the Divine; let it become a means. If…

The past is no more and the future is never going to be, so this is the moment. You can celebrate it: you can love, you can pray, you can sing, you can dance, you can meditate, you can use it as you want. And the moment is so small that if you are not very alert it will slip out of your hands, it will be gone. So, to be, one has to be very very alert. Doing needs no alertness, it is very mechanical. But don't use the word 'wait' -- because that means the future has entered again from the back door. You follow me? If you think that you should just wait, then again you are waiting for the future. So doing or waiting are not separate things. There is nothing to wait for. The existence is as perfect this moment as it will ever be.

Osho, the actions a person performs—are they not, in fact, done by God alone? Has it been rightly asked: are not the actions a person performs actually done by the Divine?

Second stage: Now we enter the second step. Keep the breathing deep, and let the body do whatever it wants—leave it to itself. Let the body make mudras, make postures; if the body starts trembling, whirling, crying—let it. Let the body go completely—breathing will remain deep, and you will let the body go. If the body falls, let it fall. If it rises, let it rise. If it begins to dance, don’t worry—let the body go. Let the body go completely. Breathing will remain deep, and the body will be left completely free. Let the body do whatever it wants. Do not stop it even a little; cooperate with it. Whatever the body wants to do, cooperate—if it whirls, let it whirl; if it sways, let it sway; if it falls, let it fall; if it cries, let it cry; if it laughs, let it laugh—let go—whatever happens, let it…