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Question: BELOVED OSHO, WHAT IS MOMENT-TO-MOMENT UNDERSTANDING IN RELATIONSHIP? When Gurdjieff's father was dying he told Gurdjieff, "Only one message I give to you -- and remember it!" Gurdjieff was very small, just nine years of age, and the father said, "I am not rich so I have nothing to give to you, only one advice which my father gave to me when he was dying. And this is the message: that if you get angry, don't answer immediately, wait twenty-four hours. Then do whatsoever you like. Even if you want to kill the man, go and kill -- but after twenty-four hours." And Gurdjieff says, "In my whole life anger has not created any problem for me, because I have to wait twenty-four hours and then the whole thing seems foolish. And sometimes even the person who created anger seems to be right, so I go and thank him.

Beloved Osho, On what day will the chariot set out? When will you, striking me with light, take me across? On what day will you come bearing flaming arrows, draw a line upon my heart and pass on? On what day shall I take your fire upon my head and throw open my very life before your arrows? Asked by Anand Maitreya!

When the Divine comes, it feels—He came unasked. And when He goes, it feels—everything is looted. All is looted! You become poorer than before. Because earlier you had no experience, so you did not know—you could not compare—what treasure is. Once light has entered the eye and then darkness grows dense again, the darkness will seem deeper than before. You will weep much, writhe much. All is looted. The robbers have taken everything. So there is one kind of separation that a man feels before knowing God. It is not very deep. It cannot be very deep. If you have not seen the Beloved, have not known His beauty, not even had a glimpse, you can weep, but how deep can that weeping be? With no experience, what will you weep for? For whom are you weeping? Are you even sure He is? That He ever was? Or is it…

Osho, even though there is so much love for you, why do restlessness and anger sometimes arise while listening to you?

I have heard: a politician died, and his ghost went along with his bier. Another ghost was there at the cremation ground—an old ex-politician. The new politician’s ghost said, “Had I known that in dying such a crowd would gather, I’d have died long ago! Never in my life did such a crowd assemble. If only I had known earlier, I’d have died long ago!” There is a great relish in gathering a crowd. Behind it is a psychological truth. If no other way is found, a person resorts to upside-down means. In the early part of this century, in America, a man wanting to become famous shaved off half his hair and half his beard and mustache. He wandered the streets of New York for three days. Wherever he went, people stared in shock: what happened! His name was in every newspaper. In three days he was on everyone’s…

In this very lifetime, someone who has indulged—can he attain that understanding?

Absolutely he can; there is no question about it. It’s not even a question. While indulging, we can do so with understanding or without understanding. If we indulge with understanding, we move toward brahmacharya; if we indulge without understanding, we keep revolving in the same circle. So the issue is not indulgence; the issue is indulging while awake. Whatever we are enjoying—are we enjoying it awake or asleep? Sex has this particular twist: for lifetimes people indulge in it, but asleep. That’s why no real experience ever comes into our hands. In the moment of sex a person becomes almost unconscious, loses awareness. When he comes out and awareness returns, the moment is gone; then the craving for that moment begins again. The key formula of the discipline of brahmacharya is: how to remain awake at the moment of sex. And you can remain awake in that moment only if…