According to Osho, your search feels empty because seeking itself—rooted in desire, future, and winning—keeps you a beggar chasing mercury. Meaning isn’t found outside or later; it flowers when you stop, turn within, live this moment totally, and surrender the ego. In desirelessness you touch the inner spark—the soul—and the division of inner/outer dissolves; then fulfillment arises by itself.
Stop chasing meaning outside; be still, drop desire, and feel the aliveness inside you—there you’ll find it.