According to Osho, your repeated return without faith or devotion means a deeper force is at work: an inner bond of love, a flame that storms of doubt cannot extinguish. This pull is more primal than belief; let it guide you. Keep coming, enter meditation and satsang—no prior belief required. As understanding ripens through experience, faith and devotion will naturally flower as by-products.
You keep coming back because a quiet love inside you is pulling you, even if your mind doesn’t believe yet.