According to Osho, you feel miserable because you refuse responsibility for your inner state and keep blaming others (partners, parents, gurus, or saviors), thereby handing away your freedom. Responsibility and freedom are inseparable: your misery is your doing, and so is your bliss. Reclaim self-respect, stop outsourcing salvation, learn from your mistakes, and cultivate awareness, silence and love; then joy arises from within.
You’re unhappy because you let others run your feelings; take charge and learn from mistakes so happiness can grow inside you.