According to Osho, your hopelessness isn’t ripe yet—let it deepen until hope itself drops. Hope is desire and escape into the future; when it collapses, you fall into the present, where realization happens. Be patient and humble—ten years is little before the vast. Don’t hide; ask, expose your ignorance, and continue without expectation.
Let hopelessness grow until hope falls away, rest in the present, be humble and patient, and openly ask for help.