According to Osho, first accept your sexual longing without shame or repression; it’s natural, even divine. Your struggle exists because you’ve repressed it for decades—the repressed grows stronger while the repressor weakens. Drop borrowed religious guilt and say a wholehearted yes to your sexuality. Only through conscious acceptance can the energy relax and you naturally move beyond obsession or compulsion.
Stop fighting your desire; kindly accept it, and it will calm down instead of controlling you.