What is the truth behind the way you walk?

Beloved Osho, the way you walk, it seems as if you are drunk. What is the truth?

Man, I am drunk! But not drunk with ordinary alcohol, marijuana, hashish, opium, LSD. I grow my own marijuana within me. No government can interfere with it. My source of drunkenness is my silence, my love, my centeredness, my rootedness in myself. Yes, I walk like a drunkard because I am a drunkard. You have observed truly. Once you know the inner serenity, a gap between you and your body arises, a gap between you and your mind arises. That creates my bobbily walking. Nothing can be done about it. It is not a medical question, it is natural to anyone who is enlightened. Mostly enlightened people die immediately after enlightenment, for the simply reason that they cannot manage any connection with their body and mind. It is very rare that somebody goes on living after enlightenment. But one has to compromise. That bobbiling is the compromise.

Beloved Osho, you often say that life is fun. Still, sometimes you seem to be taking things very, very seriously.

That, too, is fun. I LOVE THE WAY YOU WALK. WHY DO YOU WALK HOW YOU WALK? Thank you! I am a drunkard, and I cannot do better. There is no art to it; it is just my drunkenness. And if you also want to walk like that, you will have to become like me. Don't try to imitate it; because you can imitate a drunkard, but by that you will not become drunk. You can imitate a drunkard perfectly -- even better than the drunkard himself -- but you will not become drunk. Become drunk. I am drunk with the divine. It is a miracle how I am here. When I stand on my feet, I say, "So, old boy, you are doing it again?" It is a miracle how I stand. It has become very, very difficult for me to be here on the earth. The wings have…

Osho, in one camp I did five meditations. I don’t know at what moment what happened. After returning, for four months I continuously felt a strange kind of bliss within, and my body kept swaying like a pendulum. “Om Anand” began to arise from my lips of its own accord, and I felt an intoxication that I still feel. And during bhajans, kirtans, discourses, or even just seeing others meditate, my body starts to sway. Also, after emotional excitement or a little exertion, the body begins to sway. Kindly analyze this condition, guide me for future practice, and shed light on the possibilities.

Bhagwandas! Meditation pours a wine into the heart. An auspicious sign has happened. You began to sway, you began to feel intoxicated. Embrace it. It seems there is still a little hesitation in your mind about accepting it. You are a bit timid, a little afraid. You are doubtful—did what happened happen rightly or not? Am I perhaps going mad? When the first incident of meditation happens, it does feel as if one has gone mad. Who knows what they kept thinking, endlessly, in their hearts, their heads bowed a long while over my funeral bier. Among them lay hidden someone’s secret of love— whose tears, having risen to the eyelashes, had already dried. The boundary of the Beloved’s lane begins exactly there where your steps start to stagger. The Beloved’s domain begins where the feet begin to wobble. Your feet have wobbled. Good! With it, some restlessness will also…

Every time you come and go in the lecture, I am worried you may miss a step and fall. P.s. You look so drunk.

That's true. But I have been drunk for so long that you need not be afraid. For twenty-five years I have been that way. In the beginning it really was difficult to walk. I was very much afraid myself that I might fall any moment. Somehow the body had become so distant and there was such a gap -- earth and sky apart. It took time for me to settle down. Although everything has settled down, that drunkenness is still there. This is God-drunkenness. Once you have drunk from the spring of the divine you are never in a state of being undrunk. Once is enough. A drop of it is enough to drown you forever. You need not drink again and again; you will never become thirsty again. I can understand your question, but don't be worried. Somehow.... I call it 'somehow' because I am not managing it. I…

I have heard, Osho, that when you walk your feet don't touch the ground. Have you something to say about it?

That's true. When I walk, my feet don't touch the ground -- but there is nothing miraculous about it. They don't reach the ground because I always wear shoes. If it does not satisfy you -- because you would like your Master to be a great miracle-maker -- then just to satisfy you, I would like to say that those shoes are of awareness, and if you also wear the shoes of awareness, your feet will not touch the ground. It is simple, it is not miraculous. And you have asked, `Have you something to say about it?' That is dangerous. The time is over. I have nothing to say about it, but if I have to say, it takes ninety minutes... and the time is over... and my bladder is full... and I would like to go to the bathroom. Excuse me.