According to Osho, Vivek signifies the disciple closest to the master, bearing the heaviest responsibility and the sharpest transformative friction. By “killing her slowly,” he means dismantling the old ego so a new being can be reborn. Her proximity demands relentless “homework”—painful situations that integrate and mature consciousness. Thus, Vivek embodies crucifixion-as-transformation: growth is arduous, yet necessary for rebirth and deeper worthiness.
Vivek shows that being very close to a true teacher is tough work that breaks the old self so a wiser, new you can be born.