According to Osho, the only obstacle to understanding is the very urge to understand with the mind—its logic, postponements, and the question 'when'. Meditation is not grasped; it is drunk. The remedy is love and immediacy: drop the head, live now, and 'drink' the experience of being. From love, true understanding follows naturally, like a shadow.
Stop trying to figure it out with your head; feel and taste it with your heart right now.