Is there still a need to meditate if I experience emptiness and hollowness when sitting near someone?

Osho, when I sit near you, the emptiness, the hollowness that happens does not happen so much through meditation. Is there still a need to meditate? And I am very, very grateful. I cannot express what is in my heart.

Shab-e-gham—on the night of sorrow—their call has begun to be heard My night has begun to hum again The flowers have started stealing his smile The morning breeze has begun to bring her message Behold the supposed feebleness of my sigh— it has started to go beyond the stars What was drowned in the darkness of grief— that rainbow has begun to smile A new resonance has risen from the instrument of the heart Hope has begun to sing like a song Ecstasy has upturned the chessboard of love Reason has begun to suffer defeat upon defeat In such a state is Samadhi. In such a state many of my sannyasins here are. A distant sound has begun to come close. Some song is breaking forth within. Some melody is awakening. Some fragrance is appearing. Ecstasy has upturned the chessboard of love Intoxication, sweetness, a holy madness is appearing. Blessed…

Live the emptiness... because whatsoever you do can never be greater than you. Whatsoever the mind is going to do is going to be part of the mind. Mm? It is going to be a game. Once you start feeling empty there is no need to do anything on your own. Let emptiness be lived, and things start happening. Not that you do them -- they happen. Emptiness is hard in the beginning, because one starts feeling a little depressed, sad, with nothing to do. For the whole life we have been occupied with this and that, improving ourselves, reaching for, achieving, some goal... excitement, misery, failure, success -- but one is occupied. Then suddenly one feels emptiness settling -- nothing to do, nowhere to go, nowhere to hide; no ambition that can give one excitement and can create fever.

When there is nobody, not even a thought of anybody and you are really alone, you start sinking, you drown into yourself. Don't be afraid. In the beginning that drowning will look like death and a gloom will surround you, a sadness will surround you, because you have always known happiness with people, in relationships. Just wait a little. Let the sinking go deeper, and you will see a silence arising and a stillness which has a dance to it... an unmoving movement inside. Nothing moves, and still everything is tremendously speedy... empty, yet full. Paradoxes meet and contradictions dissolve. So for one month you delight in it, and just wait for something to happen. Sit silent, relaxed, yet tense because you are waiting, something is going to descend on you. And I am going to do something.

... The problem arises if the heart is closed. But conditioning never reaches to the heart, never. the heart remains unconditioned. and we can by-pass that head -- that is not such a big thing. I can go on hammering on it -- don't be worried. [A visitor says he has been practicing Vipassana and likes the Nadabrahma meditation. He asks if he should try other meditations.] If Vipassana suits you there is no need to go on trying. Vipassana goes to the very core. Nadabrahma will be very helpful, because between it and Vipassana there is no contradiction. So you can do two sittings of Vipassana and one of Nadabrahma...

Now try to go deep into meditation. Sannyas needs nothing, nothing external; its need is just internal, and that is that you should be deeply involved in meditation and all your energy should flow into it. It is only a matter of effort for a few days in the beginning. Once the rock is broken and the stream starts flowing, there is no difficulty. Once the stream starts flowing, then the stream itself will carry you to the ocean. Effort is needed only in the beginning. If you do it for the first four to six months with determination, without wavering and without relaxing your efforts, then meditation will happen by itself; you will not be required to do it. Try all the meditation techniques here, and then regularly continue one of them that suits you. [The new sannyasin says: I do Vipassana.] Vipassana is good. Concentrate on Vipassana....