According to Osho, the urge to get the past resolved fast is neither laziness nor masochism, nor merely a mind trip. It is a sincere wish to be free, yet it arises from the mind, whose very nature is dualistic: one part pushes to cut the Gordian knot, another resists. Real release comes by stepping out of the mind’s dialectical tug-of-war through awareness, not by frantic inner conflict.
You’re not bad for wanting quick closure; it’s just your mind arguing with itself, so watch it calmly instead of fighting.