According to Osho, existence always cares for your whole life because you are part of it; becoming a sannyasin has not increased that care—it has heightened your awareness of it. The more you notice this ever-present support, the more gratitude arises. That grateful awareness is your awakening, the only true religiousness, the shift from unconsciousness to a conscious trust in life.
Life has always been helping you; becoming a sannyasin just helped you notice it, and feeling thankful is your awakening.