According to Osho, you do not learn to 'swim' in inner growth—you stop swimming. When existence's tide brings you to shore, effort only pulls you back. Great things like love, silence, and gratitude happen through non-doing. Meditation is relaxing into the current, like a cloud on the wind: no goal, no resistance, simply allowing consciousness to settle and be carried.
Instead of trying hard, relax and let life carry you, like a leaf on the wind.