According to Osho, your urge to awaken comes from your real self, which is suffocated by the false ego that constitutes your sleep. Awakening happens when this false 'I' dissolves; then your natural being—one with existence—shines forth. The seeming paradox vanishes: the 'you' that ends is only the pretender, while the authentic, egoless presence remains, fresh, spontaneous, and free.
There’s a pretend ‘me’ that sleeps and a real me that wants to wake up; when waking happens, the pretend me disappears and the real, peaceful me remains.