According to Osho, you cannot and need not know the form God will use you; true surrender drops all demands, images, and cleverness. Let the Whole decide—whether to exalt you or toss you aside—and simply be available. Insistence on a preferred form is ego bargaining; trust, bow to whatever comes, and play your part without preconditions.
Don’t try to figure out God’s plan—relax, trust, and do what life asks now without demanding a special role.