How can I regain the will to live?

Osho, how can I get back the will to live?

YOU are suffering from the ancient German disease, will to live, will to power, will and will and will. You have fallen in wrong company here. Either escape or we are going to de-Germanize you, because here the message is surrender, not will. Listening to me, you must have been misunderstanding. I am not teaching will to live. Will to live is already there, otherwise how would you be living? Wolfgang, you are alive! That's enough proof that the will to live is there. If the will to live leaves you, you will not breathe even a single breath more. Who will breathe? For what? If the will to live leaves, your breath will leave you immediately. You are still breathing; the will to live is there. The will to live is not something to be learned, it is inborn. What has to be learned is will to surrender. That…

Osho, I have not got any interest in anything. It all seems to be meaningless. Nothing, excites, provokes or challenges me. There is no juice, no zest. I have felt like this all my life. Why should I do this or that when nothing fulfills me anyway? I am always trying to be joyful -- pretending to feel, to be excited, interested and alive. I am always trying to be courageous, to jump over some of my fears. But for what? I am tired I feel that "I am not" -- and even that I don't really feel. Osho, where am I?

Christians say he created the world exactly four thousand four years before Jesus Christ. Of course, it must have been a Monday he started; the week starts on Monday. But the question is, four thousand four years before Jesus Christ -- that makes only six thousand years... and what he had been doing for the whole eternity? Just vegetating? And if he could manage for the whole eternity, he should have managed for six thousand years more, because six thousand years are not much compared to eternity. Not even six moments... And if he had to create a world, he had to create this world? Maybe he was feeling lonely, but why so many people have to suffer for that? Let him feel lonely; he can commit suicide. But why so many people should suffer? And how he is feeling now? Very great? Because since then he has not been…

Osho, “Slay me, O Lord, slay me; I long for death. Slay me with that death by which Rajneesh died upon seeing.” I am so much a stone that I cannot fully melt. I am restless. What should I do?

A man came to Ramakrishna and said, “I am going on pilgrimage, to bathe in the Ganges. What do you say?” Ramakrishna said, “Go, brother, fine—but keep one thing in mind. Have you seen the big trees on the banks of the Ganges?” “Yes.” “Why are they standing there?” “How should I know? Trees stand—what kind of question is that?” Ramakrishna said, “I’ll tell you the secret. You go with the bundle of your sins on your back and take a dip in Mother Ganges. As you dip, by her grace, the sins fall away. But sins don’t leave you so easily; they perch on the trees. They say, ‘Son, how long will you stay under water? Come out, and we’ll ride you again.’ You come out, and they jump back on. So all becomes as before. Keep an eye on those trees—if you dip, don’t come out again!” The…

Question: OSHO! KILL ME, O LORD, KILL ME! KILL ME, I CRAVE DEATH. KILL THAT DEATH OSHO DIED AND SAW. I AM SUCH A STONE, I CAN NOT COMPLETELY MELT. I AM UPSET. WHAT SHOULD I DO? He is saying, you yourself will have to die. If it were in my hands to destroy your ego then what an easy matter it would be. Then you could come to me, I would wave a magic wand and your ego would be destroyed. You would attain god and go back home. But if it were so cheaply demolished it would be dangerous. On the way you might meet someone else and he waves his wand in reverse and you are back right where you were! A man came to Ramakrishna, he said, "I am on my way to bathe in the Ganges. I am going on pilgrimage. What is your suggestion?

Osho, you ask us to surrender and at the same time you say, “Don’t cling to me.” And looking at our present state, it seems that in the name of surrender we have indeed clung to you. Now it feels as if without you we would simply die! What is the reason for this? What should we do in such a situation?

Then die! That is precisely the meaning of surrender. Do not try to save yourself. There is nothing wrong in dying; all the wrong lies in trying to be saved. And what is there to save for which we are so frantically busy—“Save me! save me! save me!”? What is there to save? If you look attentively even for a single moment, sit quietly and reflect, you will see there is nothing in your possession worth saving. And once you see that there is nothing to save, the fear of death will vanish instantly. For who is going to die? If there is nothing to save, what is there to lose? This fear that something may be lost stands upon the illusion that I have something. And you never open the door of your house to see whether anything is there; perhaps you don’t look precisely out of the fear…