According to Osho, when you feel increasingly ‘unspiritual’ or hedonistic, it means your borrowed, show-window spirituality is being dismantled; repressed, natural energies are surfacing. A real master shocks you by stripping masks, not consoling. This seeming fall is actually authenticity: the false drops, inner conflict ends, depth meets surface, and true growth and wisdom begin in the space of being real rather than pretending to be holy.
Feeling less “holy” just means you’ve stopped pretending and your real self is coming out—and that honesty is where true growth starts.