Why do I feel angry, hurt, and frustrated when non-sannyasins are not drawn to sannyas?

Beloved master, when nonsannyasins that I know are not drawn to sannyas and do not fall in love with you, I find myself feeling very angry, hurt, and frustrated about it. Can you please explain this reaction of mine?

In the first place it was not a Christian church; it was a community church, it belonged to the whole community. And if sannyasins are living there, they have every right to use it, they are part of the community. But before the old council had to resign they donated the church -- which is absolutely illegal -- to The Dalles, to the head office of their fellow Christian worshippers. Now, what has The Dalles to do with it? In the first place it was illegal; a community church cannot be donated to a Christian hierarchy. A community church remains a community church, it will belong to whoever constitutes the community. But we don't need it. It is so old, and so dirty, and so dilapidated -- no sense of beauty. So I said, "It is okay, we will withdraw the case. You can have it, although it is illegal."…

Question: BELOVED OSHO, WHEN I CAME TO POONA TEN YEARS AGO I WAS A FIFTEEN YEAR-OLD TEENAGE GIRL WITH A HEART FULL OF TRUST AND A LONGING FOR TRUTH. DURING THOSE FEW MONTHS THAT I COULD STAY WITH YOU UNDISTURBED I EXPERIENCED THE MOST BEAUTIFUL TIME OF MY LIFE. WHEN I WAS FORCED BACK TO GERMANY BY THE LEGAL AUTHORITIES AND MY PARENTS, WHO ARE NOT YOUR SANNYASINS, SOMETHING BROKE INSIDE AND LEFT A WOUND WHICH NEVER HEALED. NOW, BEING WITH YOU IN INDIA AGAIN, THE MOMENT I WALKED THROUGH THE ASHRAM GATE IN POONA SOMETHING SLID INTO PLACE, AND A DOOR OPENED. WALKING THROUGH YOUR GARDEN, JUST SITTING SILENT, UNDER THE TREES, YOUR FRAGRANCE IS STILL IN THE AIR. MY BEING VIBRATES, MY HEART SINGS, "HOME, HOME, THIS IS THE PLACE WHERE I WAS BORN.

Osho, Jains believe that apart from the Jin-shasan all other dispensations are false; therefore one should not go to any other path. Even when told about awakened and accomplished beings, they do not turn toward them. Is it impossible to bring them to the right path?

How will you live in Mahavira’s time? How will you walk with Mahavira? How will you dwell in his shade? That tree is no more. If under a blazing noon your head is dripping with sweat you seek the shade of a tree that is; you do not sit under the shade of a tree that once was. You would be mad to sit in the shade of a vanished tree—there is neither tree nor shade; you will burn in the sun. If you thirst, you go to a lake that exists now; you don’t go to a lake that once was, however beautiful the ancient texts say it was—that will not quench thirst. If you hunger, you seek fresh food now. What is true for hunger and thirst is also true for truth. Seek truth now. Go to a lake that is present now. The danger is: you may…

Osho, since I took sannyas there is peace inside, but outside there is great upheaval. I am at ease, yet others are getting very uneasy. What should I do?

It came to this: I would be sitting in the house; my mother would be sitting in front of me and say, “There is no one around to send for vegetables.” And I would be right there! She’d say, “No one is to be seen.” I’d say, “I don’t see anyone either.” A dog would wander into the house; I’d be sitting there; my mother would say, “There’s no one in the house and the dog has come in!” And I would be sitting right in front of her. Slowly they accepted it. What could they do? There’s a limit. For a while they pulled this way and that, dragged me here and there, sent me; but there’s a limit. You have become a sannyasin; now remain absorbed in your own inner mood. People will say this and that, pull you here and there. Don’t create quarrels, and don’t try…

Osho, I have undoubtedly set out on the path, and the path itself is becoming the destination. But when I sit in discourse, my mind keeps collecting what you say so I can tell it to others. Why is there such eagerness in me to expound it before others—especially before my loved ones?

It is natural. Those whom we love—we want to give them what we have received, that in which we have known joy, in which we have caught a hint of truth. The taste we have savored, we want our loved ones to taste. We want to make them partners in it. Completely natural. Share! Whatever seems right to you, say it. Who knows—someone else may also find it right. Just keep one thing in mind. The eagerness to share is fine; insistence is not. Don’t sit on anyone’s chest saying, “I have accepted it, you must accept it too—because you are my wife; if you don’t agree with me, that’s not okay; or you are my husband.” Do not be insistent—non-insistence! Give full freedom to accept or not. But if a feeling rises in your heart, don’t suppress it either. If you feel joy, if you taste the essence, share…