What happens when I cannot drop my ego?

According to Osho, you cannot drop the ego by willpower, technique, or another’s help; any forcing creates fear and resistance. Instead, grow in understanding through meditation until a “new head” of pure awareness arises. Then the old head—the ego—falls away by itself. Learning to “die” as ego is the doorway to real life. Otherwise, clinging persists and life stays ruled by fear.