Why do I struggle to let go completely and fall back into old patterns?

According to Osho, you relapse because your old conditioning still has slightly more pull than your urge to jump—cowardice makes you half‑hearted (51–49). Letting go begins by honoring confusion, dropping seriousness, and refusing psychological slavery to any authority—including him. Become an individual, agree only with yourself, and move with playful totality; then love and trust dissolve the backward pull.