[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been scanned and cleaned up. It is for reference purposes only.]
[You've got to be absolutely dying for sannyas, only then will you find life worth living was the gist of the message in Deva Parinito's name.]
Sannyas is a marriage to god -- and marriage in the real sense of a love affair, not the ordinary kind of marriage that we have become accustomed to. That is a plastic thing, a pseudo affair, a social institution. Sannyas is a mad, mad love affair with god. Unless it is a love affair and unless it is a mad love affair, there is no possibility of knowing god.
God cannot be known by thinking. There is no bridge between your head and god. God can only be known by intense, passionate feeling. It is far more a matter of the heart, a matter of the guts, rather than a heady affair. And man's whole energy has gone into the head.
The master has to bring the energy back to the right points, to your heart, to your guts, to your body. The head is a monster; it has exploited all the centres, it has left all the centres starving. It is a parasite; it has made the body almost dead. It has made you completely unaware of your heart, or if sometimes, in some moments, you become aware of the heart, the head is always there to condemn it. It condemns the body, it condemns the heart; it condemns everything except logical thinking. And logical thinking cannot give you joy or bliss or truth or freedom. Logical thinking is impotent; it never comes to any conclusion.
All its conclusions are hypothetical, they can change tomorrow; hence you cannot base your life on them.
Man needs something to live for and to die for, only then does his life have splendour. Unless you have something to die for you will not be able to live rightly.
And that's what sannyas is, something to die for. Then you can live, then you have something to live for. Hence I call it a marriage with god.
[Religion used to be a rationalisation for remaining miserable. To Osho it's synonymous with celebration. He said to Anand Abhishek:]
Religion attracted only the pathological people, obviously. No healthy person would have anything to do with such ideas. A healthy person loves life, a healthy person loves love; a healthy person wants to enjoy this tremendous existence in all its dimensions. It is the unhealthy, the coward, who wants to escape because he is afraid that he may not be able to cope with such a complex universe. He escapes to the caves, to the monasteries. But to me he is just a coward.
But nobody wants to be called a coward, so these cowards started calling themselves saints, mahatmas, sannyasins, sages, monks, nuns, and they invented all kinds of beautiful words. But they were very uncreative, ungrateful to god. God gives you life to live, not to escape from. Otherwise what is the point of giving you life? What is the point of creating this great universe and all these immense opportunities? -- just to escape? That does not seem to be at all logical. Either god is mad or your saints are mad. And I cannot say that god is mad so I have decided that your saints are mad, they are insane people.
I initiate my sannyasins into bliss, into love, into life, because to me to live life totally, lovingly, is the only way to be religious. To live in the world and yet not be of the world, that's the essential core of sannyas.
[Meditation maketh monarchs. Otherwise people remain beggars, said Osho.]
There are rich beggars and there are poor beggars, but they are all beggars. Even our so-called kings are nothing but beggars because their constant desire is for more. That's what I mean when I say that they are beggars -- they are constantly begging.
The man of meditation starts celebrating. He forgets all about begging because he discovers an inexhaustible source within himself of ecstasy, of love, of joy, of god. And the moment you know god is within you, you may not have anything as far as worldly things are concerned but your very demeanour will be that of a king.
Jesus or Buddha, Zarathustra or Lao Tzu, they had nothing compared to Alexander the Great or Napoleon or Adolf Hitler, but one can see clearly who the king is. Meditation releases your kingliness because it makes you aware of the kingdom of god within you.
The only work consigned to my sannyasins is: concentrate all your energies on meditation, then everything else follows of its own accord.
Use love as your foundation and you're off to a flying start. But usually we try to build in the mud of misery, Osho said tonight.
People make their houses on shifting sands, hence they are in misery because their houses go on collapsing. Not even a single desire is fulfilled. They never come to any kind of flowering because unless the foundation is right nothing can be right. And we have been told to base our life on ambition, on competition, on ego trips -- and they are all anti-love phenomena.
The only true foundation is love, but for that one has to drop all that is anti-love. That's the whole process of sannyas: dropping anti-love elements from your life and choosing and absorbing more and more love. Soon one becomes capable of finding a rock on which the temple of a right life can be raised.
And love is no ordinary rock either. It is eternal; it knows no beginning, no end. We just have to discover it. And it is not far away either, it is just within our very being.
[Totality transports one from the mediocre to the miraculous. That was the message to Anand Samagro.]
Man ordinarily lives a very partial life, very halfhearted. He lives in a lukewarm way, neither cold nor hot, neither this nor that. His life is without passion, without intensity. And that's why it is dull, that's why it is mediocre.
Life takes on a totally new flavour when you live it totally, intensely, passionately. When you risk then great intelligence arises in you. In risking you become sharp like a sword. But people who never risk, their swords go on collecting dust, their mirrors go on collecting dust. Their swords become rusty, useless. And that's what has happened to millions of people and their souls.
My effort here is to help you to clear the dust from the mirror of your consciousness, to clean the sword of your intelligence. And the only way is to live at one-hundred degrees, because it is at that point that evaporation happens. The ego disappears and you are part of the whole. And to be part of the whole is to be holy.
[To the next sannyasin Osho spoke about repression, comparing Freud's method of psychoanalysing his patients to Gurdjieff's getting his disciples sozzled!]
Bliss is always humble, always simple, always egoless. Misery is very eloquent, egoistic. It has to be, there is a certain reason for it Misery has to cover itself with something which at least can deceive others. The inferior person creates a facade of superiority around himself -- that's what an ego trip is. But whenever you see an egoist be absolutely certain that deep within him there is an inferiority complex. He is suffering very deeply because he feels that he is nothing, but he cannot confess it. He has to hide it from others, and not only from others but from himself too. He has to repress that feeling of inferiority so deeply in the unconscious that he becomes unaware of it.
That's why psychoanalysts have to go into your dreams -- because you cannot be believed. You may have repressed things so deeply that they are available only when you are fast asleep.
George Gurdjieff had a quicker method because a man like Gurdjieff has not much time to waste. Sigmund Freud's psychoanalysis can go from three years to ten years -- now a man like Gurdjieff cannot waste so much time on a single person -- and even then the psychoanalysis is not complete. In fact, on the whole of the earth there is not a single person whose psychoanalysis is complete; there is always something more hidden. You go on digging, you go on digging, you never come to the end. You cannot come to the end because it is not only a question of one life of repression, it is a question of millions of lives of repression.
'You have an unconscious; beneath it you have a collective unconscious -- Jung discovered that. Beneath that, Buddha says, you have an universal unconscious. Now if you go on digging, one single life is too small.
Gurdjieff had a quicker method. Whenever he would initiate anybody he would force him to drink as much alcohol as possible till the disciple fell on the floor and started shouting, mumbling, saying things. Then he would sit by his side and listen. What Gurdjieff was able to do within a single night Freud was not able to do within three years or even ten years, But Gurdjieff would force the disciple to drink so much alcohol that it would allow his deepest unconscious to be revealed.
When people are drunk they are far more true because they are not hiding anything. They cannot, they have no sense to hide. They are more naked.
The miserable person does not want to say that he is miserable. He smiles, he goes on pretending that everything is perfectly okay. And nothing is okay. When you ask people "How are you?" and they say "Fine!" nothing is fine. You know, they know, everybody knows, because when others ask you "How are you?" You say "Fine!" These are social mannerisms.
A really blissful person has nothing to hide. He is expressive, he is creative. And because he has nothing to hide he does not have a double personality. That's why I say he is simple, he is not complicated; double personalities are complicated. And you cannot stop at having two personalities. Once you move in that direction soon you will need a third personality, then a fourth, then a fifth ... and it is that goes on ad infinitum. One lie needs another lie to protect it, and so on, so forth. Tell a single lie and you will have to tell a thousand and one lies to protect it, And in their own turn they will need another lie. You will completely forget why you started lying, what the first lie was!
But a man who is blissful has nothing to lie about, has nothing to hide, nothing to cover up. He does not need another personality -- he is simple. And he is never arrogant; he cannot be, there is no need. Why should he be arrogant? He is so blissful that he is grateful, he is not arrogant. He is not angry at the world, he is very thankful -- thankful to all.
My sannyasins have to learn how to be blissful because only through bliss will they be able to be humble, truly humble. And to be truly humble is one of the doors of god, one of the surest bridges.
[Our consciousness is a treasure chest if only we knew it, Osho told Deva Svarno.]
All that is needed is a one-hundred-and-eighty degree turn -- one has to look withinwards. We are focused on the outside, we are continuously looking at the objects. We have to learn to look withinwards.
It is not a difficult process because the process of looking is the same, just the object changes: you start turning your consciousness upon yourself. You may have seen many pictures of snakes swallowing their own tails. Those pictures are very ancient symbols of mystery schools; they represent this inner transformation. When your consciousness starts turning upon itself you become a circle, and the moment you are a circle you are no more the same old person. Your life starts having a new grace, a new beauty, a new beatitude. You become golden, you become precious. For the first time you have a contact with god, and that contact is a magical transformation. It is sheer magic and a miracle.
Enjoy the trip, don't be too fixated on the target, Osho said in conclusion.
Bliss is not a pond, it is a river. It is not static. Anything static starts stinking. Anything that forgets flowing starts dying.
Life means remaining always flowing, moving. Go on reaching for the farthest star. Enjoy the very journey -- don't be too worried about the goals. Goals are only excuses so that one can go on and on in the journey. In fact, there are no goals in life. Life is a pilgrimage, a pilgrimage to nothing, a pilgrimage to nowhere -- just a pure pilgrimage.
To understand this brings great freedom, brings great unburdening. All anxieties, all anguishes, drop; all worries disappear, evaporate, because when there is no goal you cannot fail. Failure is our idea because we believe in a goal.
For example, I can never fail because I have no goal. I can never feel frustrated because I never expect anything. If something happens, good; if nothing happens, far out! Either way it is always good.
And that is my fundamental teaching to my sannyasins: live each moment in its totality. It is not a means to some end. But in the beginning it is very difficult so I go on giving you false goals and aims. They are just toys. Sooner or later you will be able to understand that they are toys; you can go on without them. Once you start enjoying the journey itself then there is no reason for any goal. Then you don't ask for the meaning of life, life is its own meaning; it is an end unto itself. And this is the state of total freedom.
Osho's Commentary
[You've got to be absolutely dying for sannyas, only then will you find life worth living was the gist of the message in Deva Parinito's name.]
Sannyas is a marriage to god -- and marriage in the real sense of a love affair, not the ordinary kind of marriage that we have become accustomed to. That is a plastic thing, a pseudo affair, a social institution. Sannyas is a mad, mad love affair with god. Unless it is a love affair and unless it is a mad love affair, there is no possibility of knowing god.
God cannot be known by thinking. There is no bridge between your head and god. God can only be known by intense, passionate feeling. It is far more a matter of the heart, a matter of the guts, rather than a heady affair. And man's whole energy has gone into the head.
The master has to bring the energy back to the right points, to your heart, to your guts, to your body. The head is a monster; it has exploited all the centres, it has left all the centres starving. It is a parasite; it has made the body almost dead. It has made you completely unaware of your heart, or if sometimes, in some moments, you become aware of the heart, the head is always there to condemn it. It condemns the body, it condemns the heart; it condemns everything except logical thinking. And logical thinking cannot give you joy or bliss or truth or freedom. Logical thinking is impotent; it never comes to any conclusion.
All its conclusions are hypothetical, they can change tomorrow; hence you cannot base your life on them.
Man needs something to live for and to die for, only then does his life have splendour. Unless you have something to die for you will not be able to live rightly.
And that's what sannyas is, something to die for. Then you can live, then you have something to live for. Hence I call it a marriage with god.
[Religion used to be a rationalisation for remaining miserable. To Osho it's synonymous with celebration. He said to Anand Abhishek:]
Religion attracted only the pathological people, obviously. No healthy person would have anything to do with such ideas. A healthy person loves life, a healthy person loves love; a healthy person wants to enjoy this tremendous existence in all its dimensions. It is the unhealthy, the coward, who wants to escape because he is afraid that he may not be able to cope with such a complex universe. He escapes to the caves, to the monasteries. But to me he is just a coward.
But nobody wants to be called a coward, so these cowards started calling themselves saints, mahatmas, sannyasins, sages, monks, nuns, and they invented all kinds of beautiful words. But they were very uncreative, ungrateful to god. God gives you life to live, not to escape from. Otherwise what is the point of giving you life? What is the point of creating this great universe and all these immense opportunities? -- just to escape? That does not seem to be at all logical. Either god is mad or your saints are mad. And I cannot say that god is mad so I have decided that your saints are mad, they are insane people.
I initiate my sannyasins into bliss, into love, into life, because to me to live life totally, lovingly, is the only way to be religious. To live in the world and yet not be of the world, that's the essential core of sannyas.
[Meditation maketh monarchs. Otherwise people remain beggars, said Osho.]
There are rich beggars and there are poor beggars, but they are all beggars. Even our so-called kings are nothing but beggars because their constant desire is for more. That's what I mean when I say that they are beggars -- they are constantly begging.
The man of meditation starts celebrating. He forgets all about begging because he discovers an inexhaustible source within himself of ecstasy, of love, of joy, of god. And the moment you know god is within you, you may not have anything as far as worldly things are concerned but your very demeanour will be that of a king.
Jesus or Buddha, Zarathustra or Lao Tzu, they had nothing compared to Alexander the Great or Napoleon or Adolf Hitler, but one can see clearly who the king is. Meditation releases your kingliness because it makes you aware of the kingdom of god within you.
The only work consigned to my sannyasins is: concentrate all your energies on meditation, then everything else follows of its own accord.
Use love as your foundation and you're off to a flying start. But usually we try to build in the mud of misery, Osho said tonight.
People make their houses on shifting sands, hence they are in misery because their houses go on collapsing. Not even a single desire is fulfilled. They never come to any kind of flowering because unless the foundation is right nothing can be right. And we have been told to base our life on ambition, on competition, on ego trips -- and they are all anti-love phenomena.
The only true foundation is love, but for that one has to drop all that is anti-love. That's the whole process of sannyas: dropping anti-love elements from your life and choosing and absorbing more and more love. Soon one becomes capable of finding a rock on which the temple of a right life can be raised.
And love is no ordinary rock either. It is eternal; it knows no beginning, no end. We just have to discover it. And it is not far away either, it is just within our very being.
[Totality transports one from the mediocre to the miraculous. That was the message to Anand Samagro.]
Man ordinarily lives a very partial life, very halfhearted. He lives in a lukewarm way, neither cold nor hot, neither this nor that. His life is without passion, without intensity. And that's why it is dull, that's why it is mediocre.
Life takes on a totally new flavour when you live it totally, intensely, passionately. When you risk then great intelligence arises in you. In risking you become sharp like a sword. But people who never risk, their swords go on collecting dust, their mirrors go on collecting dust. Their swords become rusty, useless. And that's what has happened to millions of people and their souls.
My effort here is to help you to clear the dust from the mirror of your consciousness, to clean the sword of your intelligence. And the only way is to live at one-hundred degrees, because it is at that point that evaporation happens. The ego disappears and you are part of the whole. And to be part of the whole is to be holy.
[To the next sannyasin Osho spoke about repression, comparing Freud's method of psychoanalysing his patients to Gurdjieff's getting his disciples sozzled!]
Bliss is always humble, always simple, always egoless. Misery is very eloquent, egoistic. It has to be, there is a certain reason for it Misery has to cover itself with something which at least can deceive others. The inferior person creates a facade of superiority around himself -- that's what an ego trip is. But whenever you see an egoist be absolutely certain that deep within him there is an inferiority complex. He is suffering very deeply because he feels that he is nothing, but he cannot confess it. He has to hide it from others, and not only from others but from himself too. He has to repress that feeling of inferiority so deeply in the unconscious that he becomes unaware of it.
That's why psychoanalysts have to go into your dreams -- because you cannot be believed. You may have repressed things so deeply that they are available only when you are fast asleep.
George Gurdjieff had a quicker method because a man like Gurdjieff has not much time to waste. Sigmund Freud's psychoanalysis can go from three years to ten years -- now a man like Gurdjieff cannot waste so much time on a single person -- and even then the psychoanalysis is not complete. In fact, on the whole of the earth there is not a single person whose psychoanalysis is complete; there is always something more hidden. You go on digging, you go on digging, you never come to the end. You cannot come to the end because it is not only a question of one life of repression, it is a question of millions of lives of repression.
'You have an unconscious; beneath it you have a collective unconscious -- Jung discovered that. Beneath that, Buddha says, you have an universal unconscious. Now if you go on digging, one single life is too small.
Gurdjieff had a quicker method. Whenever he would initiate anybody he would force him to drink as much alcohol as possible till the disciple fell on the floor and started shouting, mumbling, saying things. Then he would sit by his side and listen. What Gurdjieff was able to do within a single night Freud was not able to do within three years or even ten years, But Gurdjieff would force the disciple to drink so much alcohol that it would allow his deepest unconscious to be revealed.
When people are drunk they are far more true because they are not hiding anything. They cannot, they have no sense to hide. They are more naked.
The miserable person does not want to say that he is miserable. He smiles, he goes on pretending that everything is perfectly okay. And nothing is okay. When you ask people "How are you?" and they say "Fine!" nothing is fine. You know, they know, everybody knows, because when others ask you "How are you?" You say "Fine!" These are social mannerisms.
A really blissful person has nothing to hide. He is expressive, he is creative. And because he has nothing to hide he does not have a double personality. That's why I say he is simple, he is not complicated; double personalities are complicated. And you cannot stop at having two personalities. Once you move in that direction soon you will need a third personality, then a fourth, then a fifth ... and it is that goes on ad infinitum. One lie needs another lie to protect it, and so on, so forth. Tell a single lie and you will have to tell a thousand and one lies to protect it, And in their own turn they will need another lie. You will completely forget why you started lying, what the first lie was!
But a man who is blissful has nothing to lie about, has nothing to hide, nothing to cover up. He does not need another personality -- he is simple. And he is never arrogant; he cannot be, there is no need. Why should he be arrogant? He is so blissful that he is grateful, he is not arrogant. He is not angry at the world, he is very thankful -- thankful to all.
My sannyasins have to learn how to be blissful because only through bliss will they be able to be humble, truly humble. And to be truly humble is one of the doors of god, one of the surest bridges.
[Our consciousness is a treasure chest if only we knew it, Osho told Deva Svarno.]
All that is needed is a one-hundred-and-eighty degree turn -- one has to look withinwards. We are focused on the outside, we are continuously looking at the objects. We have to learn to look withinwards.
It is not a difficult process because the process of looking is the same, just the object changes: you start turning your consciousness upon yourself. You may have seen many pictures of snakes swallowing their own tails. Those pictures are very ancient symbols of mystery schools; they represent this inner transformation. When your consciousness starts turning upon itself you become a circle, and the moment you are a circle you are no more the same old person. Your life starts having a new grace, a new beauty, a new beatitude. You become golden, you become precious. For the first time you have a contact with god, and that contact is a magical transformation. It is sheer magic and a miracle.
Enjoy the trip, don't be too fixated on the target, Osho said in conclusion.
Bliss is not a pond, it is a river. It is not static. Anything static starts stinking. Anything that forgets flowing starts dying.
Life means remaining always flowing, moving. Go on reaching for the farthest star. Enjoy the very journey -- don't be too worried about the goals. Goals are only excuses so that one can go on and on in the journey. In fact, there are no goals in life. Life is a pilgrimage, a pilgrimage to nothing, a pilgrimage to nowhere -- just a pure pilgrimage.
To understand this brings great freedom, brings great unburdening. All anxieties, all anguishes, drop; all worries disappear, evaporate, because when there is no goal you cannot fail. Failure is our idea because we believe in a goal.
For example, I can never fail because I have no goal. I can never feel frustrated because I never expect anything. If something happens, good; if nothing happens, far out! Either way it is always good.
And that is my fundamental teaching to my sannyasins: live each moment in its totality. It is not a means to some end. But in the beginning it is very difficult so I go on giving you false goals and aims. They are just toys. Sooner or later you will be able to understand that they are toys; you can go on without them. Once you start enjoying the journey itself then there is no reason for any goal. Then you don't ask for the meaning of life, life is its own meaning; it is an end unto itself.
And this is the state of total freedom.