[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been scanned and cleaned up. It is for reference purposes only.]
[Osho talked about the meaning of Daniel earlier this month; tonight he approached it from quite a different angle. First he pointed out that meditation is essentially a state of balance.]
It is easy to be thoughtless but then one falls asleep. It is easy not to fall asleep but then one remains thought-full. Meditation teaches you a totally new art of being aware and yet as peaceful as one is in deep, deep sleep, as if one is asleep and yet not asleep. It is a very paradoxical phenomenon but it opens doors to all the mysteries. Without it one knows nothing. One may accumulate the whole knowledge of the world yet one knows nothing.
And 'Daniel' is a beautiful word. It means god is my judge -- that is one meaning. There is another meaning which is even more appropriate; the second meaning is god has judged. "God is my judge" will create a subtle fear that you have to be judged, that sooner or later you will have to face god, that sooner or later you will be answerable for everything that you have done and you have thought. And that creates great trembling, great anxiety.
The modern man has denied god, not because we have found that god does not exist but because we are in such anguish already that we don't want any more added to it. To accept god means you are responsible, answerable; you will be judged.
In past ages people could accept god more easily because their life was not so much of an anxiety and an anguish. In fact they needed something to be anxious about, otherwise life was calm and quiet. They were tired really of the calmness and the quietness; they needed hell and heaven and god, because this life was not enough to keep them occupied. They created other lives -- past lives, future lives, lives after this life. That was just a way to remain engaged. But the situation has changed totally: modern man has too much anxiety, no more is needed. Hence the denial of god.
It is not that the modern man has become more irreligious than the people who preceded us; it is just the situation has changed. Neither they were religious nor are we religious. To be religious is a rare phenomenon, it has nothing to do with the common masses.
But the second meaning seems to be more beautiful: god has already judged -- so there is no need to fear, no need to be worried. In creating you he has already judged that he needs you, that you are an enrichment to existence, that without you there will be something missing in existence; there will be a gap, a link will not be there. Hence the second meaning is preferable to me .
This is my own experience too, that by giving birth to Us existence has already accepted us. There is no question of the Last Judgement Day; I believe in the first judgement day -- it has already passed, it is finished. The day god decided to create the world, that was the judgement day. That day he must have pondered, worried about whether to create the world or not, but he decided to create it. He judged that it was better to create than not to create. He liked something more than nothing. And whatsoever he has created, he is responsible for. I am not responsible, you are not responsible; nobody else is responsible. The whole responsibility is god's or existence's; whatsoever good belongs to it, whatsoever bad belongs to it.
We can close the chapter, we need not worry about it. One thing I can say to you: as one goes deeper into meditation one realises that there is no question of any future judgement and no question of ever being worried. As you become silent you start feeling the love of god pouring from all sides. You suddenly become aware that you are being taken care of, that you are not ignored, that you are not something accidental, you are intrinsic to existence. God needed you, that's why he created you.
That was the judgement -- but it is over. But the priests would prefer the first meaning: god is your judge -- remember it! Don't do this, don't do that, because god is the judge and he is a very harsh judge, a very harsh task master, and you will be punished and you will be rewarded. These are all tricks and strategies of priests to dominate people, to exploit people. And I am here to destroy all these strategies.
My whole effort consists of one thing: to make you free of all the stupidities that priests have imposed upon you, to make you so free that you can dance again like a child, sing again like a child. That's the way of my sannyas.
[It's a miracle that anyone survives their childhood with any notion of what it is to be natural when you consider how we categorically repress everything in a child that is simply dying to be expressed. Osho talked about the two ways in which one can be peaceful.]
One is to cultivate peace. That is very superficial. That is what is being taught to every child, "Be peaceful, and if you are peaceful you will be rewarded; if you disturb the peace you will be punished." And the same story goes on in the school, in the colleges, in the universities, in the churches. The whole of life is a cultivation of peacefulness. But a cultivated peace cannot go very deep; it remains just something painted on from the outside. Deep down you are boiling.
Mm? -- you can see it: you can tell a child to sit silently in the corner, otherwise there will be no food for him. He will sit there but you will see that he is boiling, just sitting on a volcano. He will be very tense, in deep anguish, fidgety, ready to jump, ready to fight, ready to run, to do something. But because he does not want to remain hungry for the whole day, he sits there peacefully.
This peace is what religions have been creating in the world. Because it is only a thin layer it can be destroyed very easily. Just scratch a little and all kinds of turmoil; all kinds of poisons, all kinds of animal attitudes -- violence, hatred, anger. You will find inside nothing but fire. This is not true peace.
True peace comes only through meditation. Meditation is not a cultivation of peace. It has nothing to do with peace at all; meditation is a totally different dimension. It is the art of becoming aware of your own thoughts, just a simple awareness of your own thoughts. And then the miracle starts happening: as you become aware of your own thoughts, a distance is created between you and your thoughts -- obviously, because one who is aware is separate from that of which he is aware.
A thought comes on the screen of the mind and passes by -- you are just a watcher. Whether it is good or bad one need not be worried. It has nothing to do with you; you are just a pure witness. Slowly slowly as this pure witnessing arises, less and less thoughts come. And one day when your witnessing is entire, complete, the screen of the mind suddenly becomes empty, white; there are no thoughts at all.
Out of this experience of no-thought, out of this witnessing, a fragrance arises in you which is peace. Your whole being is peaceful; every nook and corner is peaceful, every cell, every fibre is peaceful. This is true peace, but this is a by-product of meditation. You cannot attain it directly, you have to go via meditation. And via meditation many other things also happen: peace happens, love happens, compassion happens, bliss happens, creativity happens, sensitivity happens. Thousands of flowers suddenly bloom as if spring has come to you.
[It takes a lion's heart to be a lover. This was the message to Prem Leonidle, a painter from Italy.]
My own observation is this, that the world is so full of hatred because it is so full of cowards. The world is so loveless because we don't create the spirit of courage in people. And whatsoever we call courage is not real courage.
We create the soldier, the warrior, but theirs is a false courage, it is only a training. We reduce a human being to a machine. His spirit does not become courageous, just his body-mind becomes conditioned. The whole training of the soldier is ugly. For years he is being told to do stupid things and he has to follow orders. An order is an order, it has to be done; there is no question of why. So slowly slowly he forgets the why, slowly slowly he becomes conditioned and functions like a machine.
"Right turn"... and it is not that he consciously decides to turn right; the moment the order "Right turn" is given, he turns mechanically.
William James, one of the greatest psychologists of America, was sitting in a restaurant with a friend talking about something like this. Just then he saw outside a retired soldier walking along carrying a bucket of eggs.
From inside the restaurant he shouted "Attention" The soldier stood at attention and dropped the bucket and the whole street was full of broken eggs. The soldier was very angry and he said "Who is this fool who called me to attention?" But William James said "We are free to say any word we want. We are not telling you to follow it." The soldier said "It is no more a question of following. Although I have been retired- for twenty years the training has gone so deep that even if in the night somebody says 'Attention', I will jump!"
This is not creating the courageous spirit. It is really destroying the whole spirit of the man and instead programming his mind in such a way that he starts functioning automatically: you simply trigger him and he starts. It is like turning the light on or off. The bulb does not have to decide; if you turn the light on it is on, if you turn the light off it is off.
These soldiers, these warriors, these great generals, have been called courageous people, brave people -- I don't agree. To me Jesus is courageous because even on the cross he could pray to god "Forgive these people because they know not what they are doing." This is love!
If we had created a real courageous spirit then the world would be full of love -- but it is not full of love, not at all. People only talk about love but it doesn't happen because the basic requirement is not fulfilled. We make people cowards, we make them afraid of everything -- of tradition, of religion, of the church, of god. We even call religious people god-fearing. We create fear in the child from the very beginning to the very end. When a man is dying he is dying in fear. The priests are chanting and praying for him and creating more and more fear. They don't leave him even at the time of death. The priests take hold of the child till they give him the last send-off. They leave him only at the grave. Through his whole life they create cowardice, fear.
A sannyasin has to drop all fears -- the fear of hell and heaven. There is no hell, no heaven. He has to drop all fears of morality, immorality, because they are all man-made ideas. He has to drop all fear of the society and the ( ) and the collective mind because that is the lowest mind, the lowest state of intelligence. Only out of this rebellion is there a possibility that your heart will open up into a loving flower.
And when the heart opens as a loving flower you know god is. Then it is knowing, not believing. Love is the only proof of god.
[Osho gave Jorn the name Prem Ananda, and although he has spoken a lot on bliss and love this month, he magically managed to inject the them with new energy and insight.]
These two words, bliss and love, are the most important in any language. If these two words can become realities in your life then nothing else is needed. Then life is fulfilled.
One has come home, the search is over. There is tremendous contentment. is a sharing of that state with people, with animals, with birds, with trees, with stars -- because we are not separate, we belong to one universe, to one family. And whatsoever we have gained inside has to be given, for two reasons. One: If you don't give it away, it goes sour, it becomes bitter. Even nectar turns into poison if you don't give it. It has to be given, it has to be shared. In sharing it remains flowing and alive, otherwise it goes dead and dormant.
And secondly: the more you give, the more you get from the unknown sources of existence; so it is wise to give. To hold back from giving means you will not be getting any more. It is a totally different economics.
The ordinary economics says if you want things in your possession, hoard, don't go on giving them away. If you want to be a beggar that is another matter -- then you can go on giving. In the inner world the economics is just the opposite: if you want to be a beggar, hoard; if you want to be an emperor, give.
And this is the whole of my message for sannyasins; be blissful and be loving, and everything else -- god, truth, freedom -- will come of their own accord. Only fulfil these two conditions. How long will you be here? Osho asked. Till the third of September, Anando replied. And then where will you be going? I go back to Germany. You cannot escape from here -- it is not so easy!
[Then it was Mareile's turn. Osho malaed her, touched her forehead and then told her that her new name, Prem Pragit, meant a song of love -- and that was what she was to become.]
Sing, dance, celebrate. Forget those churches that you must have seen in Germany! (laughter) In the first place churches everywhere are sad and in Germany more so!
The German church must be representative of the church in hell. I have been visiting these places: the church in hell looks like a German church! (laughter) Here you can laugh and dance and sing because this is what we call prayer, service. And how long will you be here? She doesn't know.
That's good -- nobody really knows. Still people go on saying this date and that date -- nobody really knows! (much laughter) But people are fools -- what to do?
[Her name meant aloneness, Osho told Monika -- which wasn't loneliness. The two states are worlds apart.]
Loneliness is a negative state. You are lonely when you feel miserable in it and you really want to get rid of it; you want somebody to fill the gap, the emptiness. You are waiting for somebody and he has not turned up and you are feeling lonely. Your lover has left and you are feeling lonely, a friend has died and you are feeling lonely.
Loneliness simply means the other was filling a certain space in you and he is no more present, so that place is empty and that empty place hurts like a wound. Loneliness is a wound, aloneness is a flower. Aloneness means you are enjoying it, you are tremendously happy that there is nobody to disturb it, that you need not compromise, otherwise even the presence of the other in the room... He may not be a lover, he may not be a friend, he may not even be an acquaintance, but even the presence of the other person is enough: you have to make a few compromises.
You have to sit in a certain way, you have to behave in a certain way, although nobody is telling you to. But you know when somebody is present then you have to take care, you are not alone. And everybody knows that he is a different person in his bathroom for the simple reason that nobody is there; so you can make faces in the mirror and you can dance or you can sing. Almost everybody sings -- except me! (laughter) I have never done that in the bathroom because I am always alone, it is always the same -- bathroom or no bathroom, it makes no difference. I don't compromise even outside the bathroom, so why...? It makes no difference. If I want to sing I will sing anywhere.
But otherwise, if you leave out a few crazy people like me then all people are different in their bathrooms. (laughter) And if you become aware that somebody is looking in from the keyhole... there is an immediate change, immediate, instantaneous; you are a different person.
What happens? You become conscious, you are no more alone, the society is there; that somebody represents society. He will tell others what Monika was doing in the bathroom!
Aloneness is enjoying a state where you need not compromise for anything. It is one of the most beautiful spaces. It is really the goal of all meditation, of all religion as such. And the moment you can enjoy your aloneness you have gone through a revolution. After that your togetherness will also have a totally different quality to it. It will not be dependent on the other, it will be sharing, it will be friendship, it will not be a relationship. You will not be a wife or a husband; all those words are ugly -- you will just be a friend. You have more, so much to give that you need somebody to share it with. It is just a question of sharing.
And if the other shares you are grateful. And if one day he feels that enough is enough, that we have shared enough, you don't feel hurt, you don't feel lonely. You enjoy your aloneness. In fact one should enjoy one's aloneness more than one's love, then there is freedom.
If you enjoy your love more than your aloneness then you are not free and your love will be a kind of bondage.
When you are nourished by your aloneness and you cherish that space, then your love is not a bondage; it brings you more and more freedom, more and more fragrance.
[Meditation lends the meditator a beauty which, although it is not of the body nor of the mind, affects both, Osho explained to Dhyan Rupama.]
It starts radiating so forcibly that it changes the body-mind; it becomes luminous because of it. The beauty becomes like an aura surrounding you.
It is a well-known fact that even ugly people have become beautiful through meditation. About Jesus the story is... there are historical records saying that he was one of the ugliest men and there are also records saying that he was the most beautiful man in the world. And I can understand -- both records are true, although nobody has ever said that both the records saying that he was the most beautiful man in the world. And I can understand -- both records are true, although nobody has ever said that both the records are true... People decide: if they are Christians they decide that he was beautiful -- blond, tall, like our Vimal Kirti.
But the people who are against Jesus, decide that he was an ugly person; not only ugly but hunchback and a height of only four feet, five inches.
Every day when I enter the house Vimal Kirti and Siddhartha are standing outside receiving me. This morning also Siddhartha and Vimal Kirti were standing there and I thought Siddhartha looks like the Jesus of the enemies, Vimal Kirti like the Jesus... Both Jesuses standing together! But my feeling is both records are right.
The people who wrote against him must have know him before he became enlightened and the people who wrote about his beauty must have known him after he became enlightened. Meditation brings tremendous transformation.
[Indians have a much more fun-loving god than Christians.... Osho was talking to Gandharvo, formerly Yumiko, a yoga teacher from Japan.]
The Indian idea of god is festive. He has musicians and he has dancers, singers, poets -- he is surrounded by all these beautiful people. The Christian god looks very poor -- just these three fellows, not much of a family: god the father and Jesus the son and the Holy Ghost. Even if you want to play chess... only three persons. What kind of a family is this? -- I don't know. And then there is nothing else?
But the Indian concept of god is totally different. You see my musicians sitting there? -- Chaitanya Hari and his company -- these are my gandharvas. And you see my mediums, my dancers. This is a miniature representation. You also have to become a silent musician, a dancer, a singer.
To another yoga teacher from Japan Osho gave the name Anand Pravaha to remind him that bliss was in flow.
Bliss is not a thing, it is not static, it is a movement. It is flow, it is dynamic. Everything alive is bound to be dynamic, everything alive is never a noun but always a verb. So remember this, that life should be allowed to flow. One should always remain in a let-go. Don't fight with the river, don't push the river and don't try to go upstream -- that is an unnecessary wastage of energy.
Flow with the river, go with the river, abandon yourself totally to the river. It is already going to the ocean, it will take you to the ocean too; you need not even swim. And that's what I am trying to create here: a great river of orange dancers, singers, lovers, people who are capable of laughter, rejoicing, celebration -- a river that is constantly moving towards the ocean.
The ocean represents god, and unless we find the ocean we cannot be contented -- because of the limitations, boundaries. All boundaries are bondages. The moment the river falls into the ocean it becomes infinite, it becomes eternal. And that is the goal of sannyas: to help you reach the infinite, the eternal, the vast, the unlimited, the indefinable, the ineffable.
Buddha used to call his sannyasins "srotaapanna". The word "srotaapanna" means one who has entered the river. Today you are becoming a srotaapanna -- you have entered the orange river.
Osho's Commentary
[Osho talked about the meaning of Daniel earlier this month; tonight he approached it from quite a different angle. First he pointed out that meditation is essentially a state of balance.]
It is easy to be thoughtless but then one falls asleep. It is easy not to fall asleep but then one remains thought-full. Meditation teaches you a totally new art of being aware and yet as peaceful as one is in deep, deep sleep, as if one is asleep and yet not asleep. It is a very paradoxical phenomenon but it opens doors to all the mysteries. Without it one knows nothing. One may accumulate the whole knowledge of the world yet one knows nothing.
And 'Daniel' is a beautiful word. It means god is my judge -- that is one meaning. There is another meaning which is even more appropriate; the second meaning is god has judged. "God is my judge" will create a subtle fear that you have to be judged, that sooner or later you will have to face god, that sooner or later you will be answerable for everything that you have done and you have thought. And that creates great trembling, great anxiety.
The modern man has denied god, not because we have found that god does not exist but because we are in such anguish already that we don't want any more added to it. To accept god means you are responsible, answerable; you will be judged.
In past ages people could accept god more easily because their life was not so much of an anxiety and an anguish. In fact they needed something to be anxious about, otherwise life was calm and quiet. They were tired really of the calmness and the quietness; they needed hell and heaven and god, because this life was not enough to keep them occupied. They created other lives -- past lives, future lives, lives after this life. That was just a way to remain engaged. But the situation has changed totally: modern man has too much anxiety, no more is needed. Hence the denial of god.
It is not that the modern man has become more irreligious than the people who preceded us; it is just the situation has changed. Neither they were religious nor are we religious. To be religious is a rare phenomenon, it has nothing to do with the common masses.
But the second meaning seems to be more beautiful: god has already judged -- so there is no need to fear, no need to be worried. In creating you he has already judged that he needs you, that you are an enrichment to existence, that without you there will be something missing in existence; there will be a gap, a link will not be there. Hence the second meaning is preferable to me .
This is my own experience too, that by giving birth to Us existence has already accepted us. There is no question of the Last Judgement Day; I believe in the first judgement day -- it has already passed, it is finished. The day god decided to create the world, that was the judgement day. That day he must have pondered, worried about whether to create the world or not, but he decided to create it. He judged that it was better to create than not to create. He liked something more than nothing. And whatsoever he has created, he is responsible for. I am not responsible, you are not responsible; nobody else is responsible. The whole responsibility is god's or existence's; whatsoever good belongs to it, whatsoever bad belongs to it.
We can close the chapter, we need not worry about it. One thing I can say to you: as one goes deeper into meditation one realises that there is no question of any future judgement and no question of ever being worried. As you become silent you start feeling the love of god pouring from all sides. You suddenly become aware that you are being taken care of, that you are not ignored, that you are not something accidental, you are intrinsic to existence. God needed you, that's why he created you.
That was the judgement -- but it is over. But the priests would prefer the first meaning: god is your judge -- remember it! Don't do this, don't do that, because god is the judge and he is a very harsh judge, a very harsh task master, and you will be punished and you will be rewarded. These are all tricks and strategies of priests to dominate people, to exploit people. And I am here to destroy all these strategies.
My whole effort consists of one thing: to make you free of all the stupidities that priests have imposed upon you, to make you so free that you can dance again like a child, sing again like a child. That's the way of my sannyas.
[It's a miracle that anyone survives their childhood with any notion of what it is to be natural when you consider how we categorically repress everything in a child that is simply dying to be expressed. Osho talked about the two ways in which one can be peaceful.]
One is to cultivate peace. That is very superficial. That is what is being taught to every child, "Be peaceful, and if you are peaceful you will be rewarded; if you disturb the peace you will be punished." And the same story goes on in the school, in the colleges, in the universities, in the churches. The whole of life is a cultivation of peacefulness. But a cultivated peace cannot go very deep; it remains just something painted on from the outside. Deep down you are boiling.
Mm? -- you can see it: you can tell a child to sit silently in the corner, otherwise there will be no food for him. He will sit there but you will see that he is boiling, just sitting on a volcano. He will be very tense, in deep anguish, fidgety, ready to jump, ready to fight, ready to run, to do something. But because he does not want to remain hungry for the whole day, he sits there peacefully.
This peace is what religions have been creating in the world. Because it is only a thin layer it can be destroyed very easily. Just scratch a little and all kinds of turmoil; all kinds of poisons, all kinds of animal attitudes -- violence, hatred, anger. You will find inside nothing but fire. This is not true peace.
True peace comes only through meditation. Meditation is not a cultivation of peace. It has nothing to do with peace at all; meditation is a totally different dimension. It is the art of becoming aware of your own thoughts, just a simple awareness of your own thoughts. And then the miracle starts happening: as you become aware of your own thoughts, a distance is created between you and your thoughts -- obviously, because one who is aware is separate from that of which he is aware.
A thought comes on the screen of the mind and passes by -- you are just a watcher. Whether it is good or bad one need not be worried. It has nothing to do with you; you are just a pure witness. Slowly slowly as this pure witnessing arises, less and less thoughts come. And one day when your witnessing is entire, complete, the screen of the mind suddenly becomes empty, white; there are no thoughts at all.
Out of this experience of no-thought, out of this witnessing, a fragrance arises in you which is peace. Your whole being is peaceful; every nook and corner is peaceful, every cell, every fibre is peaceful. This is true peace, but this is a by-product of meditation. You cannot attain it directly, you have to go via meditation. And via meditation many other things also happen: peace happens, love happens, compassion happens, bliss happens, creativity happens, sensitivity happens. Thousands of flowers suddenly bloom as if spring has come to you.
[It takes a lion's heart to be a lover. This was the message to Prem Leonidle, a painter from Italy.]
My own observation is this, that the world is so full of hatred because it is so full of cowards. The world is so loveless because we don't create the spirit of courage in people. And whatsoever we call courage is not real courage.
We create the soldier, the warrior, but theirs is a false courage, it is only a training. We reduce a human being to a machine. His spirit does not become courageous, just his body-mind becomes conditioned. The whole training of the soldier is ugly. For years he is being told to do stupid things and he has to follow orders. An order is an order, it has to be done; there is no question of why. So slowly slowly he forgets the why, slowly slowly he becomes conditioned and functions like a machine.
"Right turn"... and it is not that he consciously decides to turn right; the moment the order "Right turn" is given, he turns mechanically.
William James, one of the greatest psychologists of America, was sitting in a restaurant with a friend talking about something like this. Just then he saw outside a retired soldier walking along carrying a bucket of eggs.
From inside the restaurant he shouted "Attention" The soldier stood at attention and dropped the bucket and the whole street was full of broken eggs. The soldier was very angry and he said "Who is this fool who called me to attention?" But William James said "We are free to say any word we want. We are not telling you to follow it." The soldier said "It is no more a question of following. Although I have been retired- for twenty years the training has gone so deep that even if in the night somebody says 'Attention', I will jump!"
This is not creating the courageous spirit. It is really destroying the whole spirit of the man and instead programming his mind in such a way that he starts functioning automatically: you simply trigger him and he starts. It is like turning the light on or off. The bulb does not have to decide; if you turn the light on it is on, if you turn the light off it is off.
These soldiers, these warriors, these great generals, have been called courageous people, brave people -- I don't agree. To me Jesus is courageous because even on the cross he could pray to god "Forgive these people because they know not what they are doing." This is love!
If we had created a real courageous spirit then the world would be full of love -- but it is not full of love, not at all. People only talk about love but it doesn't happen because the basic requirement is not fulfilled. We make people cowards, we make them afraid of everything -- of tradition, of religion, of the church, of god. We even call religious people god-fearing. We create fear in the child from the very beginning to the very end. When a man is dying he is dying in fear. The priests are chanting and praying for him and creating more and more fear. They don't leave him even at the time of death. The priests take hold of the child till they give him the last send-off. They leave him only at the grave. Through his whole life they create cowardice, fear.
A sannyasin has to drop all fears -- the fear of hell and heaven. There is no hell, no heaven. He has to drop all fears of morality, immorality, because they are all man-made ideas. He has to drop all fear of the society and the ( ) and the collective mind because that is the lowest mind, the lowest state of intelligence. Only out of this rebellion is there a possibility that your heart will open up into a loving flower.
And when the heart opens as a loving flower you know god is. Then it is knowing, not believing. Love is the only proof of god.
[Osho gave Jorn the name Prem Ananda, and although he has spoken a lot on bliss and love this month, he magically managed to inject the them with new energy and insight.]
These two words, bliss and love, are the most important in any language. If these two words can become realities in your life then nothing else is needed. Then life is fulfilled.
One has come home, the search is over. There is tremendous contentment. is a sharing of that state with people, with animals, with birds, with trees, with stars -- because we are not separate, we belong to one universe, to one family. And whatsoever we have gained inside has to be given, for two reasons. One: If you don't give it away, it goes sour, it becomes bitter. Even nectar turns into poison if you don't give it. It has to be given, it has to be shared. In sharing it remains flowing and alive, otherwise it goes dead and dormant.
And secondly: the more you give, the more you get from the unknown sources of existence; so it is wise to give. To hold back from giving means you will not be getting any more. It is a totally different economics.
The ordinary economics says if you want things in your possession, hoard, don't go on giving them away. If you want to be a beggar that is another matter -- then you can go on giving. In the inner world the economics is just the opposite: if you want to be a beggar, hoard; if you want to be an emperor, give.
And this is the whole of my message for sannyasins; be blissful and be loving, and everything else -- god, truth, freedom -- will come of their own accord. Only fulfil these two conditions.
How long will you be here? Osho asked.
Till the third of September, Anando replied.
And then where will you be going?
I go back to Germany.
You cannot escape from here -- it is not so easy!
[Then it was Mareile's turn. Osho malaed her, touched her forehead and then told her that her new name, Prem Pragit, meant a song of love -- and that was what she was to become.]
Sing, dance, celebrate. Forget those churches that you must have seen in Germany! (laughter) In the first place churches everywhere are sad and in Germany more so!
The German church must be representative of the church in hell. I have been visiting these places: the church in hell looks like a German church! (laughter) Here you can laugh and dance and sing because this is what we call prayer, service.
And how long will you be here?
She doesn't know.
That's good -- nobody really knows. Still people go on saying this date and that date -- nobody really knows! (much laughter) But people are fools -- what to do?
[Her name meant aloneness, Osho told Monika -- which wasn't loneliness. The two states are worlds apart.]
Loneliness is a negative state. You are lonely when you feel miserable in it and you really want to get rid of it; you want somebody to fill the gap, the emptiness. You are waiting for somebody and he has not turned up and you are feeling lonely. Your lover has left and you are feeling lonely, a friend has died and you are feeling lonely.
Loneliness simply means the other was filling a certain space in you and he is no more present, so that place is empty and that empty place hurts like a wound. Loneliness is a wound, aloneness is a flower. Aloneness means you are enjoying it, you are tremendously happy that there is nobody to disturb it, that you need not compromise, otherwise even the presence of the other in the room... He may not be a lover, he may not be a friend, he may not even be an acquaintance, but even the presence of the other person is enough: you have to make a few compromises.
You have to sit in a certain way, you have to behave in a certain way, although nobody is telling you to. But you know when somebody is present then you have to take care, you are not alone. And everybody knows that he is a different person in his bathroom for the simple reason that nobody is there; so you can make faces in the mirror and you can dance or you can sing. Almost everybody sings -- except me! (laughter) I have never done that in the bathroom because I am always alone, it is always the same -- bathroom or no bathroom, it makes no difference. I don't compromise even outside the bathroom, so why...? It makes no difference. If I want to sing I will sing anywhere.
But otherwise, if you leave out a few crazy people like me then all people are different in their bathrooms. (laughter) And if you become aware that somebody is looking in from the keyhole... there is an immediate change, immediate, instantaneous; you are a different person.
What happens? You become conscious, you are no more alone, the society is there; that somebody represents society. He will tell others what Monika was doing in the bathroom!
Aloneness is enjoying a state where you need not compromise for anything. It is one of the most beautiful spaces. It is really the goal of all meditation, of all religion as such. And the moment you can enjoy your aloneness you have gone through a revolution. After that your togetherness will also have a totally different quality to it. It will not be dependent on the other, it will be sharing, it will be friendship, it will not be a relationship. You will not be a wife or a husband; all those words are ugly -- you will just be a friend. You have more, so much to give that you need somebody to share it with. It is just a question of sharing.
And if the other shares you are grateful. And if one day he feels that enough is enough, that we have shared enough, you don't feel hurt, you don't feel lonely. You enjoy your aloneness. In fact one should enjoy one's aloneness more than one's love, then there is freedom.
If you enjoy your love more than your aloneness then you are not free and your love will be a kind of bondage.
When you are nourished by your aloneness and you cherish that space, then your love is not a bondage; it brings you more and more freedom, more and more fragrance.
[Meditation lends the meditator a beauty which, although it is not of the body nor of the mind, affects both, Osho explained to Dhyan Rupama.]
It starts radiating so forcibly that it changes the body-mind; it becomes luminous because of it. The beauty becomes like an aura surrounding you.
It is a well-known fact that even ugly people have become beautiful through meditation. About Jesus the story is... there are historical records saying that he was one of the ugliest men and there are also records saying that he was the most beautiful man in the world. And I can understand -- both records are true, although nobody has ever said that both the records saying that he was the most beautiful man in the world. And I can understand -- both records are true, although nobody has ever said that both the records are true... People decide: if they are Christians they decide that he was beautiful -- blond, tall, like our Vimal Kirti.
But the people who are against Jesus, decide that he was an ugly person; not only ugly but hunchback and a height of only four feet, five inches.
Every day when I enter the house Vimal Kirti and Siddhartha are standing outside receiving me. This morning also Siddhartha and Vimal Kirti were standing there and I thought Siddhartha looks like the Jesus of the enemies, Vimal Kirti like the Jesus... Both Jesuses standing together! But my feeling is both records are right.
The people who wrote against him must have know him before he became enlightened and the people who wrote about his beauty must have known him after he became enlightened.
Meditation brings tremendous transformation.
[Indians have a much more fun-loving god than Christians.... Osho was talking to Gandharvo, formerly Yumiko, a yoga teacher from Japan.]
The Indian idea of god is festive. He has musicians and he has dancers, singers, poets -- he is surrounded by all these beautiful people. The Christian god looks very poor -- just these three fellows, not much of a family: god the father and Jesus the son and the Holy Ghost. Even if you want to play chess... only three persons. What kind of a family is this? -- I don't know. And then there is nothing else?
But the Indian concept of god is totally different. You see my musicians sitting there? -- Chaitanya Hari and his company -- these are my gandharvas. And you see my mediums, my dancers. This is a miniature representation.
You also have to become a silent musician, a dancer, a singer.
To another yoga teacher from Japan Osho gave the name Anand Pravaha to remind him that bliss was in flow.
Bliss is not a thing, it is not static, it is a movement. It is flow, it is dynamic. Everything alive is bound to be dynamic, everything alive is never a noun but always a verb. So remember this, that life should be allowed to flow. One should always remain in a let-go. Don't fight with the river, don't push the river and don't try to go upstream -- that is an unnecessary wastage of energy.
Flow with the river, go with the river, abandon yourself totally to the river. It is already going to the ocean, it will take you to the ocean too; you need not even swim. And that's what I am trying to create here: a great river of orange dancers, singers, lovers, people who are capable of laughter, rejoicing, celebration -- a river that is constantly moving towards the ocean.
The ocean represents god, and unless we find the ocean we cannot be contented -- because of the limitations, boundaries. All boundaries are bondages. The moment the river falls into the ocean it becomes infinite, it becomes eternal. And that is the goal of sannyas: to help you reach the infinite, the eternal, the vast, the unlimited, the indefinable, the ineffable.
Buddha used to call his sannyasins "srotaapanna". The word "srotaapanna" means one who has entered the river. Today you are becoming a srotaapanna -- you have entered the orange river.