My beloved Atman! Before we engage in the experiment of meditation, it is right that I say a word or two to you. Today is the last day of the camp. In these two days many friends have given ample proof of their resolve. Perhaps only a few have remained behind. I hope that today they too will not remain behind. One or two friends have come into such a state that you may have felt troubled. But do not be troubled by it. When new energies are born within a human being, everything becomes disordered, chaotic. Before a new order is available, there is an interim, a time of transition; then it almost appears like a state of madness. But it is not madness; it will depart with the camp. Do not take any anxiety from it. When Kundalini awakens within the body, unprecedented events begin to happen. Certain things begin to be seen, certain things begin to be experienced, which are not in the range of ordinary experience. So for the person to whom it begins to happen, it becomes difficult for us to understand him. In a sadhana camp remember: anything can happen to anyone. Now, one friend has been sitting in the rain the entire time. Within him Kundalini is arising with such intensity that he feels he must somehow remain seated in the cold, in coolness. Inside he feels a burning fire, a melting fire rising. That is not our experience; therefore for us it will be difficult. Another friend tried all night to climb a lamp-post. When Kundalini strikes strongly within, it seems somehow we must go upward. In that moment nothing else is remembered; only this thought comes: how to go higher. Even the attempt to climb a light-pole can arise from that. Do not be concerned by it. There is no reason at all to worry. With the close of the camp all this will quiet down in him. Yes, if it is suppressed, difficulty can arise. Therefore no one should cooperate in stopping them; rather, cooperate in being with them. If the rain comes we will not be worried. For you it will be only blissful. When the whole body moves, the rain will be blissful; we will take no concern from it. No one will go away. And there are two or three questions; I will take them in the evening. For now I will only say this to you: today put in your total energy; let no fraction remain unused. Let us close the eyes for forty minutes. This is our first resolve. Now these eyes will not open for forty minutes. Until I tell you, the eyes will remain closed. And do not be afraid of the rain. The rain will be pleasant. A rain is to happen within as well, and outside also there will be rain. There is no difficulty. Join your hands and make a resolve before the Supreme. Today is the last day; remember your resolve and allow it to happen totally. Witnessing the Lord I resolve that I will put my whole energy into meditation. Witnessing the Lord I resolve that I will put my whole energy into meditation. Witnessing the Lord I resolve that I will put my whole energy into meditation. Remember your resolve; the Lord will remember your resolve. Now begin the first stage. Strongly. Strongly. Your whole energy must be poured in. See, do not stand in the middle with eyes open. No person will stand in the middle with eyes open, otherwise he will be asked to leave. Put in your total force. Strongly, intensely, intensely. Throw the breath out, take it in. Strongly, strongly. Put in your total strength, total strength. Strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly. Put in your whole energy. Strongly, strongly, strongly. The rain will be an ally; put in your full strength. Be filled with bliss and breathe. Put in your full strength; the rain will be supportive. Breathe strongly, exhale strongly. With intensity, with intensity, with intensity. Strongly. Stay at your place, do not move from your place. Strongly, strongly. Energy will awaken; allow it to awaken. Strike strongly. Give a strong blow with the breath. Very good! Very good! Eight minutes remain; put in total strength, then we will enter the second stage. Strongly, strongly, strongly. Your whole energy must be poured in. Very good! Very good! Do not worry, apply your strength strongly; energy is awakening. The body will sway, will dance; let it dance. Strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly. Awaken the energy, awaken it blissfully, strike strongly. Dance, leap, awaken the energy. Take deep breaths. Strongly. Strongly. Absolutely right! Absolutely right! Pour in your full strength. Strongly, strongly, strongly. Six minutes remain; put in full strength. The body’s electricity must be fully awakened. Strike. Strongly. Let no one remain behind, let no one remain behind. The rain will be supportive; put in full strength. Dance with joy, leap, take deep breaths. Very good! Very good! Very good! Strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly. Five minutes remain; put in full strength, awaken the energy, then we will enter the second stage. Strongly, strongly. Breathe intensely. Deliver a deep blow. Empty the lungs as a blacksmith works the bellows. Very good! Dance, leap, take deep breaths. The energy has awakened; do your utmost. Two or four people are still standing; they too should try, do not remain behind. Let no one remain behind. Take care of yourself; apply your strength strongly. Very good! Very good! Apply your strength. Energy is awakening; the whole body will be filled with electricity. Let the body sway, let it sway strongly; you take deep breaths. Strongly. Intense breaths. Let no one remain standing; give a deep blow. Strike with joy. Strike. Three minutes remain; strike fully, then we will enter the second stage. Stay at your place, do not move from your place—dance at your place, leap, take deep breaths. See that no one remains behind. Only three minutes remain; strike fully. Strongly. Awaken the energy. Kundalini is awakening; strike strongly. Two minutes remain; deliver the full blow, then I will say one, two, three—then you will put in your total force. One! Put in your total strength. Two! Put in total strength. Three! Put in total strength—for one minute put in your entire energy. Awaken the energy; it will be needed in the second stage. Awaken it completely; let every fiber be filled with energy. Very good! Very good! Faster, and faster. It is a matter of a few seconds; put in your full strength. For a few seconds put in total force, then we enter the second stage. Dance, sway, breathe deep. Good! Absolutely good! Faster. Faster. Faster. Now enter the second stage. Now whatever the body wants to do, let it do with total energy. If it wants to dance, dance with total energy; if it wants to shout, shout; if it wants to laugh, laugh; if it wants to cry, cry. For ten minutes, do whatever has to be done with total energy. Strongly. Put in total strength. Let no one remain behind. Dance with joy, shout, laugh, cry. Dance, shout, cry, laugh—with total energy. The energy has awakened; let it work. Whatever the body is doing, let it happen. Strongly, strongly. Let no one remain behind; whatever you are doing, do it strongly. If you shout, shout strongly; scream with your whole strength. Scream, scream; roar with your full roar. Scream, scream; scream loudly; put in your whole energy. Strongly. Laugh loudly; laugh in peals; fill the whole atmosphere with laughter. Laugh in peals; put in your total strength. Laugh, laugh, laugh—laugh loudly. Laugh utterly madly, utterly madly. Dance, dance, dance totally. Dance, dance, dance totally. Four minutes remain; put in your full strength, then we will enter the third stage. Strongly, strongly. Whatever you are doing, do it strongly. Dance, dance, dance; laugh, shout—strongly. Put in your total energy. Let no one remain behind. See—go beyond your neighbor; apply your full strength strongly. Three minutes remain; put in full strength, then we will enter the third stage. Dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance. Do not fall behind your neighbor; put in your full strength. Very good! Two minutes remain; go further, raise a total storm. Go mad, raise a storm. One! Put in your total strength. Two! Put in your total strength. Three! Put in your total strength. It is a matter of one minute. It is a matter of one minute; pour in your full energy, then we will enter the third stage. Put in total strength. It is a matter of one minute; put in your full strength. Put in your total strength; raise a complete storm. Laugh loudly. Shout loudly. Dance intensely. Now enter the third stage. Ask—Who am I? Continue dancing, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? For ten minutes, within, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, dance, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance and ask, dance and ask—Who am I? Strongly, strongly, strongly. Let the sound come out; do not be concerned. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Eight minutes remain; put in your total energy, then we will go into rest. Let no one remain behind; put in total strength, total strength—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, dance, ask; let the sound also come out; do not worry—ask: Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Strongly, strongly, strongly. Ask—Who am I? Dance, ask. Six minutes remain; put in your full strength. Who am I? Very good! The moment is coming close—put in your full strength. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Five minutes remain; put in your total strength, then we will go into rest. Strongly, strongly. Ask with your total energy—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Strongly, strongly. Dance. Four minutes remain; put in your full strength. Raise a storm, go mad. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Strongly. Three minutes remain; dance, leap, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Bring the storm. Two minutes remain; ask—Who am I? Do not fall behind your neighbor; put in your full strength. Who am I? It is only a matter of two minutes. One! Put in your full strength. Dance, scream, ask—Who am I? Two! Put in your full strength. Three! Put in your full strength; for one minute be utterly mad. Do not hold back; pour in your whole energy. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Come to the full climax, to the very peak; put in your total strength. It is a matter of a few seconds—dance with full strength, leap, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Enough, now be still; now for ten minutes go into the fourth stage. Drop everything. Dancing, leaping, shouting, asking—drop it all. Wherever each one is, remain exactly so. Drop everything. For ten minutes, as if you have died. For ten minutes, as if you have died. Descend into the void. Look within. All has fallen silent, all has become quiet. Drop everything, drop everything. Look within, look within. Only light, only light will fill you. Look within. Only light, infinite light has filled you. A rain of bliss will begin within. Look within. Within, only bliss, only bliss will rain. Only light, only light—only bliss, only bliss remains. Within, look within, look within, look within, look within, become the witness. Only light, only bliss remains. This is the door of the Lord. This is the path of the Lord. Recognize it well. Deepen it day by day. Slowly, slowly this light will begin to remain within for twenty-four hours. This bliss will begin to remain within. Taste it rightly. Let this bliss be filled into every fiber. Let this light be filled into every fiber. Drown in it, bathe in it, become one with it. See, look within, look within, look within, look within, look within. Only bliss, only light remains. This bliss will deepen every day. This light will deepen every day. This infinite light, this infinite bliss will surround you on all sides; you will be drowned from all sides; this alone—this alone will remain; you will dissolve. Now join both hands, bow your head, offer thanks to that Paramatman. His grace is boundless! Place your head at his feet; bow at his unknown feet. Join both hands, bow your head, offer thanks to him. His grace is boundless! From all around his grace is showering. Through every fiber his grace is entering within. Give thanks, give thanks; his grace will deepen every day. His grace is raining from all sides. He alone is all around. It is an ocean of his grace; allow it to enter within from all sides. Join your hands, bow your head, and remain surrendered at his feet. Now slowly, slowly place both hands over your eyes, take two or four deep breaths, then slowly, slowly open the eyes. Take two or four deep breaths, then slowly open the eyes. If the eyes do not open, take two or four more deep breaths, then open the eyes. Those who have fallen, let them also take two or four deep breaths, then slowly get up, sit in their places. Those who have fallen, let them also get up. Slowly, slowly take two or four deep breaths, then sit in your places.
Osho's Commentary
Before we engage in the experiment of meditation, it is right that I say a word or two to you. Today is the last day of the camp. In these two days many friends have given ample proof of their resolve. Perhaps only a few have remained behind. I hope that today they too will not remain behind.
One or two friends have come into such a state that you may have felt troubled. But do not be troubled by it. When new energies are born within a human being, everything becomes disordered, chaotic. Before a new order is available, there is an interim, a time of transition; then it almost appears like a state of madness. But it is not madness; it will depart with the camp. Do not take any anxiety from it.
When Kundalini awakens within the body, unprecedented events begin to happen. Certain things begin to be seen, certain things begin to be experienced, which are not in the range of ordinary experience. So for the person to whom it begins to happen, it becomes difficult for us to understand him. In a sadhana camp remember: anything can happen to anyone.
Now, one friend has been sitting in the rain the entire time. Within him Kundalini is arising with such intensity that he feels he must somehow remain seated in the cold, in coolness. Inside he feels a burning fire, a melting fire rising. That is not our experience; therefore for us it will be difficult.
Another friend tried all night to climb a lamp-post. When Kundalini strikes strongly within, it seems somehow we must go upward. In that moment nothing else is remembered; only this thought comes: how to go higher. Even the attempt to climb a light-pole can arise from that. Do not be concerned by it. There is no reason at all to worry. With the close of the camp all this will quiet down in him.
Yes, if it is suppressed, difficulty can arise. Therefore no one should cooperate in stopping them; rather, cooperate in being with them.
If the rain comes we will not be worried. For you it will be only blissful. When the whole body moves, the rain will be blissful; we will take no concern from it. No one will go away.
And there are two or three questions; I will take them in the evening. For now I will only say this to you: today put in your total energy; let no fraction remain unused.
Let us close the eyes for forty minutes. This is our first resolve. Now these eyes will not open for forty minutes. Until I tell you, the eyes will remain closed. And do not be afraid of the rain. The rain will be pleasant. A rain is to happen within as well, and outside also there will be rain. There is no difficulty.
Join your hands and make a resolve before the Supreme. Today is the last day; remember your resolve and allow it to happen totally. Witnessing the Lord I resolve that I will put my whole energy into meditation. Witnessing the Lord I resolve that I will put my whole energy into meditation. Witnessing the Lord I resolve that I will put my whole energy into meditation. Remember your resolve; the Lord will remember your resolve. Now begin the first stage.
Strongly. Strongly. Your whole energy must be poured in.
See, do not stand in the middle with eyes open. No person will stand in the middle with eyes open, otherwise he will be asked to leave.
Put in your total force. Strongly, intensely, intensely. Throw the breath out, take it in. Strongly, strongly. Put in your total strength, total strength. Strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly. Put in your whole energy. Strongly, strongly, strongly.
The rain will be an ally; put in your full strength. Be filled with bliss and breathe. Put in your full strength; the rain will be supportive. Breathe strongly, exhale strongly. With intensity, with intensity, with intensity. Strongly. Stay at your place, do not move from your place. Strongly, strongly. Energy will awaken; allow it to awaken. Strike strongly. Give a strong blow with the breath.
Very good! Very good! Eight minutes remain; put in total strength, then we will enter the second stage. Strongly, strongly, strongly. Your whole energy must be poured in.
Very good! Very good! Do not worry, apply your strength strongly; energy is awakening. The body will sway, will dance; let it dance. Strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly. Awaken the energy, awaken it blissfully, strike strongly. Dance, leap, awaken the energy. Take deep breaths. Strongly. Strongly.
Absolutely right! Absolutely right! Pour in your full strength. Strongly, strongly, strongly. Six minutes remain; put in full strength. The body’s electricity must be fully awakened. Strike. Strongly. Let no one remain behind, let no one remain behind. The rain will be supportive; put in full strength. Dance with joy, leap, take deep breaths.
Very good! Very good! Very good! Strongly, strongly, strongly, strongly. Five minutes remain; put in full strength, awaken the energy, then we will enter the second stage. Strongly, strongly. Breathe intensely. Deliver a deep blow. Empty the lungs as a blacksmith works the bellows.
Very good! Dance, leap, take deep breaths. The energy has awakened; do your utmost. Two or four people are still standing; they too should try, do not remain behind. Let no one remain behind. Take care of yourself; apply your strength strongly.
Very good! Very good! Apply your strength. Energy is awakening; the whole body will be filled with electricity. Let the body sway, let it sway strongly; you take deep breaths. Strongly. Intense breaths. Let no one remain standing; give a deep blow. Strike with joy. Strike.
Three minutes remain; strike fully, then we will enter the second stage. Stay at your place, do not move from your place—dance at your place, leap, take deep breaths. See that no one remains behind. Only three minutes remain; strike fully. Strongly. Awaken the energy. Kundalini is awakening; strike strongly.
Two minutes remain; deliver the full blow, then I will say one, two, three—then you will put in your total force. One! Put in your total strength. Two! Put in total strength. Three! Put in total strength—for one minute put in your entire energy. Awaken the energy; it will be needed in the second stage. Awaken it completely; let every fiber be filled with energy.
Very good! Very good! Faster, and faster. It is a matter of a few seconds; put in your full strength. For a few seconds put in total force, then we enter the second stage. Dance, sway, breathe deep.
Good! Absolutely good! Faster. Faster. Faster.
Now enter the second stage. Now whatever the body wants to do, let it do with total energy. If it wants to dance, dance with total energy; if it wants to shout, shout; if it wants to laugh, laugh; if it wants to cry, cry. For ten minutes, do whatever has to be done with total energy. Strongly. Put in total strength. Let no one remain behind. Dance with joy, shout, laugh, cry. Dance, shout, cry, laugh—with total energy. The energy has awakened; let it work. Whatever the body is doing, let it happen.
Strongly, strongly. Let no one remain behind; whatever you are doing, do it strongly. If you shout, shout strongly; scream with your whole strength. Scream, scream; roar with your full roar. Scream, scream; scream loudly; put in your whole energy. Strongly. Laugh loudly; laugh in peals; fill the whole atmosphere with laughter. Laugh in peals; put in your total strength. Laugh, laugh, laugh—laugh loudly. Laugh utterly madly, utterly madly.
Dance, dance, dance totally. Dance, dance, dance totally. Four minutes remain; put in your full strength, then we will enter the third stage. Strongly, strongly. Whatever you are doing, do it strongly. Dance, dance, dance; laugh, shout—strongly. Put in your total energy.
Let no one remain behind. See—go beyond your neighbor; apply your full strength strongly. Three minutes remain; put in full strength, then we will enter the third stage. Dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance. Do not fall behind your neighbor; put in your full strength.
Very good! Two minutes remain; go further, raise a total storm. Go mad, raise a storm. One! Put in your total strength. Two! Put in your total strength. Three! Put in your total strength. It is a matter of one minute. It is a matter of one minute; pour in your full energy, then we will enter the third stage. Put in total strength. It is a matter of one minute; put in your full strength. Put in your total strength; raise a complete storm. Laugh loudly. Shout loudly. Dance intensely.
Now enter the third stage. Ask—Who am I? Continue dancing, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? For ten minutes, within, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, dance, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance and ask, dance and ask—Who am I? Strongly, strongly, strongly. Let the sound come out; do not be concerned. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Eight minutes remain; put in your total energy, then we will go into rest. Let no one remain behind; put in total strength, total strength—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, dance, ask; let the sound also come out; do not worry—ask: Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Strongly, strongly, strongly. Ask—Who am I? Dance, ask. Six minutes remain; put in your full strength. Who am I?
Very good! The moment is coming close—put in your full strength. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Five minutes remain; put in your total strength, then we will go into rest. Strongly, strongly. Ask with your total energy—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Strongly, strongly. Dance. Four minutes remain; put in your full strength. Raise a storm, go mad. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Strongly.
Three minutes remain; dance, leap, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Bring the storm. Two minutes remain; ask—Who am I? Do not fall behind your neighbor; put in your full strength. Who am I? It is only a matter of two minutes. One! Put in your full strength. Dance, scream, ask—Who am I? Two! Put in your full strength. Three! Put in your full strength; for one minute be utterly mad. Do not hold back; pour in your whole energy. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Come to the full climax, to the very peak; put in your total strength. It is a matter of a few seconds—dance with full strength, leap, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
Enough, now be still; now for ten minutes go into the fourth stage. Drop everything. Dancing, leaping, shouting, asking—drop it all. Wherever each one is, remain exactly so. Drop everything. For ten minutes, as if you have died. For ten minutes, as if you have died. Descend into the void. Look within. All has fallen silent, all has become quiet.
Drop everything, drop everything. Look within, look within. Only light, only light will fill you. Look within. Only light, infinite light has filled you. A rain of bliss will begin within. Look within. Within, only bliss, only bliss will rain. Only light, only light—only bliss, only bliss remains. Within, look within, look within, look within, look within, become the witness. Only light, only bliss remains.
This is the door of the Lord. This is the path of the Lord. Recognize it well. Deepen it day by day. Slowly, slowly this light will begin to remain within for twenty-four hours. This bliss will begin to remain within. Taste it rightly. Let this bliss be filled into every fiber. Let this light be filled into every fiber. Drown in it, bathe in it, become one with it.
See, look within, look within, look within, look within, look within. Only bliss, only light remains. This bliss will deepen every day. This light will deepen every day. This infinite light, this infinite bliss will surround you on all sides; you will be drowned from all sides; this alone—this alone will remain; you will dissolve.
Now join both hands, bow your head, offer thanks to that Paramatman. His grace is boundless! Place your head at his feet; bow at his unknown feet. Join both hands, bow your head, offer thanks to him. His grace is boundless! From all around his grace is showering. Through every fiber his grace is entering within. Give thanks, give thanks; his grace will deepen every day. His grace is raining from all sides. He alone is all around. It is an ocean of his grace; allow it to enter within from all sides. Join your hands, bow your head, and remain surrendered at his feet.
Now slowly, slowly place both hands over your eyes, take two or four deep breaths, then slowly, slowly open the eyes. Take two or four deep breaths, then slowly open the eyes. If the eyes do not open, take two or four more deep breaths, then open the eyes. Those who have fallen, let them also take two or four deep breaths, then slowly get up, sit in their places. Those who have fallen, let them also get up. Slowly, slowly take two or four deep breaths, then sit in your places.