HIS MOTHER ALREADY A SANNYASIN, TWO-AND-A-HALF-YEAR OLD CEDAR.
OSHO: Everybody is happy with you!
CEDAR: I got liddle mala... I got liddle mala!
This will be his name: Swami Anand Cedar....
CEDAR: I got liddle mala!
Osho paused and studied the excited pink face.
Can you wait a minute?
(much laughter)
Anand means bliss and the cedar is an evergreen that has a fragrant wood. In the East, particularly in Lebanon, the cedar represents the soul of man. It represents eternity, because it is the longest living tree in Lebanon. It also represents the ambition of man to reach the stars, because it is the highest tree in Lebanon.
CEDAR: Oshoo! (softly, curiously and continuously)
... It also represents essence, because it takes the longest time to grow....
CEDAR: Oshoo... Oshoooo! (wondertruck)
And bliss is also a tree, ever green....
OSHO PAUSES TO GLANCE AT CEDAR AND TURNS TO HIS MOTHER WITH THE SHEET OF PAPER BEARING THE SANNYAS NAME. HE MENTIONS CEDAR INDIRECTLY IN THE DISCOURSE A DAY OR SO LATER:
Just a few days ago, a small boy took sannyas. I had to ask him "Can you be silent for one minute so that I can explain your name to your mother?" But he was not even able to be silent for one minute.
Small girls come and I say to them "Close your eyes and sit silently." They sit so beautifully... they can sit for hours. When small boys come and I say to them "Close your eyes," they have to clench their eyes! They are afraid that if they don't do it enough their eyes will open. They are so curious about what is happening, what is going on outside.
When small girls take sannyas they look at me, and the boys -- they look at Krishna Bharti and his camera! They are looking at people: What is the response? -- are people laughing, enjoying, watching? They are great performers and have great curiosity which constantly keeps them tense.
Osho (to Jeannine) : If it comes, it comes, if it does not come we have to be patient, waiting, trusting. A created love is a false love. Only when it comes as a grace of God does it have beauty and truth. Then it is something which transcends death and time and mind.
When we create love it is just an impotent gesture. We can talk about it, we can even act, but it will be without any soul. We can even deceive others and ourselves -- and that's what millions of people have always been doing. In the name of love something very false is current, because we never allow God, we never become available to him so that he can descend in us. Only when God descends in you does it become love. When God touches your heart you have a totally different beat and a different rhythm. You are reborn; and with you is born love. Then love is nothing but prayer. Then love is a blessing to you and a blessing to the whole of existence.
When God is gracious to you he is gracious to the whole existence through you. In a Jesus, in a Buddha, in a Zarathustra, that's what has happened: the beyond has penetrated into the dark, dismal world, into the world of misery, into the world that we have created. It is ugly, it is hell, it is insane. Love brings sanity, health, wholeness; but remember it is always a gift of God. One attains it not by doing anything but by being in a state of non-doing. Just being silent, still, with no effort, with no ambition, with no goal... that's how one becomes rooted in the present. And the present is the door to the divine.
It is from the present that you move into God and God moves in you; that movement of God in you and your movement in God is love. Love is the most precious experience of live. If one has known love, one has known all.
Osho (to Reta) : Unless one is full of light there is no possibility of bliss. Light itself is transformed into delight. Hence those who seek bliss directly can never find it, but those who seek light, they always find bliss. Bliss is a by-product of the experience of light; hence meditation becomes immensely important. It does not give you bliss directly, because there is no way to reach bliss directly. Meditation disperses your darkness. Meditation releases your inner potential of light. You become full of light and the moment you are full of light suddenly there is bliss. It follows light inevitably. Hence the word "enlightenment"; it simply means one who has become total light. And bliss is a by-product, a consequence.
Seek light: you will find both light and bliss. Seek bliss: you will not find bliss and you will remain miserable. The more you seek, the more miserable you will become because the more you seek, the more you will experience the failure, the frustration. The more you seek, the more you will be full of expectation. And each time that expectation leads nowhere great frustration arises.
That is the misery of the modern man: he is seeking bliss directly. Hence for the first time man is so miserable. He has never been so miserable before, and ironically, he has all that man has always wanted and never had. Science and technology have made available to man all the comforts possible. Now this is the moment to be blissful but man is living in such despair that his most fundamental question is no more God but suicide. His most fundamental question is no more concerned with transformation, enlightenment, meditation. He is obsessed by madness. He finds himself surrounded by madness everywhere and suicide seems to be the only solution to finishing with all this.
This is the lowest rung of the ladder. Now there is nothing lower than this, hence we are coming to a moment when humanity will either disappear because of the despair -- it will commit a global suicide, a third world war -- or it will start rising on the ladder again to new altitudes of being. But then the search has to be changed: it has not to be a search for bliss but a search for light.
It has always been so -- through the whole past of humanity light has been the search, the goal. It is light that is called god; god and light are synonymous. It is light that is called nirvana; light and nirvana are synonymous.
So remember it: bliss comes only as a consequence. One can forget all about bliss. Meditate more and more, go deeper within yourself so that slowly slowly, the sleeping soul is awakened. When you are awakened there is light the dawn has arrived. Bliss will follow inevitably, just as when the sun rises birds start singing -- not vice versa. It is not that birds start singing so the sun has to rise. The sun rises and the flowers start opening -- not vice versa, that the flowers open and the sun has to rise.
Exactly like that let light happen first and the birds will sing and the flowers of bliss will bloom.
Osho (to Thomas) : Go beyond all seeking, all searching -- that is the only way to find truth.
Seeking is a sure way to miss it because when you seek truth you have already assumed that truth is somewhere else -- hidden, occult, esoteric. You have already assumed that truth is not now and here but then and there. Seeking needs space, distance. Seeking is a journey from here to there, from now to then. Seeking means that you have already put truth somewhere in the future. Seeking needs tomorrow and truth can be found only now and here, this very moment. So you have to be here and now and a seeker can never be here and now; he can be everywhere else, anywhere else, but not here and now.
A seeker of truth becomes a philosopher but he never becomes a mystic. The mystic knows and the philosopher only assumes, infers, guesses, argues. The philosopher simply goes on making castles in the air. In fact he has no roof over his head. He makes great systems of thought, he is very skillful with words, but he has not experienced anything. That is the difference between a Hegel and a Buddha, between a Kant and a Lao Tzu, between an Aristotle and a Jesus.
Truth has to be experiences, truth has to be lived, and the only way to experience it is to live herenow, to withdraw all your projections from the future. No past has to be allowed to hang around you and no future either. When you live in the pure present you are truth. It is not something outside you, it is the very ground of your being. And that's what meditation is all about: to be here and now.
Seeking is a kind of desiring and every desire brings misery. Non-seeking means non-desiring and the moment of non-desiring is the moment of realization.
Osho (to Christopher) : Be a Christ -- there is no need to be a follower of Christ. Go beyond all following. My sannyasin is not a follower. The very idea of following is ugly. My sannyasin is my friend. I am sharing whatsoever I have got and he is sharing whatsoever he has got. And something transpires when you start sharing love: communion begins.
If you want to be a Christ, never be a follower of Christ. To be a follower means to be imitative. To follow is to fall below human dignity. And what can one do by following? One can learn how to be like Christ -- in the way he walks, the way he lives, the way he eats, but these are all outer things and they don't create a Christ.
Millions of people have been following Christ -- not a single one has become a Christ. The reason is that they are followers; their very following is the barrier. One can become a Christ by going in, not by following somebody. Yes, find friends who can be helpful. A real Master is a friend. Because he knows the inner path he can give you a few hints, a few suggestions. He cannot give you commandments, no Master can give you commandments because when you start moving inwards each person has to find his own way. Each person has to really create his own way. And every single individual's experience is going to be a little bit different from everybody else's, it is going to be unique.
So the Master only gives vague hints, not clear-cut commandments. He cannot give you a map, he can simply describe the beauty of the inner world. His description is bound to remain not mathematical, but only poetic. He will leave it for you to take the hint and then to search for your own path, to seek your own inner being, to explore, to go on an adventure. He cannot give you a guidebook and he cannot be a guide as far as details are concerned because they are never going to be the same. My going into my own being is not going to be the same as Christ or Buddha. You going into your own being is not going to be the same as me going into my being. No two individuals are similar, each individual is a unique creation of God; hence, don't be a follower.
And when one can be a Christ, why be a follower? Transcend all following and then you can love Christ more easily. In fact when you follow somebody you cannot love them. You can respect them but you cannot love them and respect is a poor substitute for love. When you follow somebody you feel offended deep down. You will take revenge -- you cannot forgive the person whom you are following. Hence followers betray.
The greatest follower of Jesus was Judas. He was the most intelligent amongst all the apostles, the most educated, the most sophisticated. In fact he was the only person who could have succeeded Jesus, who would have become the leader once Jesus was gone; he was the only competitor.
And he followed Jesus in spite of himself, in spite of all his doubts he followed. All that following created deep wound in him. If Jesus had told him "You are just my friend, not a follower." Jesus would not have been betrayed. But Judas was offended, the very presence of Jesus was an offense to him. He wanted Jesus to be removed.
But once Jesus was crucified, the next day Judas committed suicide. First he took revenge and then naturally he started feeling repentance. These are all joined together: following, betraying, repentance. He felt so repentant that he committed suicide, thinking "What have I done? -- I betrayed my Master, and for only thirty silver rupees!" But that is not the real thing, those thirty silver rupees mean nothing. The real thing is that he was the greatest follower. He was following Jesus exactly, precisely, step by step, and that was creating great offense in his being, great wounds: one day he exploded. But once Jesus was killed, naturally he started feeling very repentant, guilty. He destroyed himself. A follower destroys his Master and destroys himself. That is the whole essence of the story of Jesus and Judas.
Never be a follower. That way you avoid being a betrayer, that way you avoid being repentant. Be a friend of Buddha's.
Buddha said that "The next Buddha, the next person who becomes enlightened, his name will be Maitreya, the friend." That's a beautiful prediction.
Enough of following! Now the relationship between the Master and the disciple should be of love. It should be a love affair!
How long will you be here?
CHRISTOPHER : As long as I can!
Good. Do as many groups as possible.... It is just a hint!
MIND IS CHAOS...
OSHO (to Siegfried) : Yes, there can be degrees -- more turmoil, less turmoil -- but mind can never be peaceful because the moment mind is peaceful mind disappears.
When all thoughts have gone where is the mind? Mind is nothing but the name of the whole thought process and the thought process is the disturbance. It continues day in, day out, year in, year out, life in, life out, It goes on and on. You are waking, it is there, you are asleep, it is there. In waking you think it is thinking, in sleep you think it is dreaming -- it is the same process.
Dreaming is a little more primitive language of thought. Thinking is a more sophisticated way of dreaming. Dreaming is pictorial, hence primitive. Thinking is verbal, linguistic, is more civilized that's all, but it is the same phenomenon. When there is no dreaming, no thinking, there is peace; then there is no mind.
Meditation means a state of no-mind, a state of peace, and when peace is victorious in you, you are fulfilled. You have blossomed. You have come to know the meaning and significance of life. And the moment you go beyond mind you go beyond time too, because time is another aspect of the mind. When there is no mind there is eternity. Each moment is so intense. It has such depth that you cannot fathom it. And each moment gives you so much bliss and so much peace and so much love that you cannot contain it: you start exploding. Your love, your peace, your joy, start radiating around you. It creates great ripples in the world, ripples of joy.
It is said that when Buddha became enlightened trees blossomed out of season. It can't be an historical fact -- trees are not so intelligent -- but it is a beautiful way of saying something immensely valuable: that when Buddha became enlightened such great waves of joy and peace started radiating that trees became full of flowers out of season. Trees that had been dead became green and rivers that had been dry became flooded with water. These are just symbols to say that much life happened around. If even a single person arrives the whole existence rejoices.
So it is not only your victory when meditation happens, it is the victory of the whole existence. It is the victory of God through you.
OSHO (to Pratika) : That's exactly what happened to a Sufi mystic, Mansoor -- the last thing he did on the earth. He was also crucified and crucified more cruelly that Jesus. He was cut into pieces -- legs first, then hands, then eyes. Before his tongue was cut, he laughed.
Somebody asked, "Mansoor, is this a time to laugh?" He said, "Now there is no more time for me. This is the last time and I am having the last laugh! I am laughing at the stupidity of people; and I am laughing at the joke God is playing with me."
My sannyasin has to become a totally new concept of spirituality, a new vision, a new birth of religion. Bliss has to be his very aroma, flavor. Dance, sing, be cheerful. Be cheerful because God is. Be cheerful because God is not far away; be cheerful that God resides within you. Be cheerful that God has not forsaken us.
OSHO (to Viramo) : From this moment don't relate yourself to your past, be discontinuous with it. And it is easier to disconnect oneself with a single blow. In parts you can never become disconnected and that's what many people try: they leave small chunks but the major part becomes the past and that major part again goes on growing those same chunks. It is like a tree -- you prune it and instead of one leaf, three leaves replace it because the tree also takes the challenge. The tree has to be cut from the roots if it is to be cut at all.
That's what sannyas is: it is totally cutting yourself from the past. Nothing is to be saved. If you try to save something which you think is good, then you cannot drop the bad because they are together, they have an organic unity. That has to be understood: life is an organic unity. You cannot choose a few pieces and drop a few other pieces. Either you have to drop the whole or you have to keep the whole. That's the basic meaning of sannyas -- that we drop the whole, that we start fresh. Then we start life from abc; we become children again.
This will be your new name: Swami Anand Viramo. anand means bliss; viramo means relaxation.
You have been straining too hard. You have been trying to prove something to yourself and to the world unnecessarily. We are not here to prove anything. We are here to live, to love, to dance and to sing. If out of that something is created, it's okay, but one should not force oneself to do something, to create something. That becomes a heavy load on the being and it is very self-destructive, it is suicidal. It is slow poisoning of your being.
You are already accepted by God as you are. There is no need to prove anything. You need not be famous. You can live anonymously and your joy will be far more profound. And what is the point of proving yourself to the stupid crowd? Even if they honor you and respect you and confer great prizes on you and awards, what is the point? They don't understand anything.
The last words of Jesus were: Father, forgive these people because they know not what they are doing. So whether they give you a Nobel Prize or they crucify you, it is all the same! My understanding is this, if Jesus had been given a Nobel Prize, he would have prayed the same way -- "Father, forgive these people because they know not what they are doing!" It has nothing to do with crucifixion. It has something to do with the stupidity of people -- they are utterly blind.
Once you forget proving, great relaxation happens. Your whole being comes loose. The stiffness, the hardness disappears, the ice starts melting. You become flowing. That is the meaning of viramo and that has to become your life style now.
A sannyasin has to live in deep relaxation, neither worried by the past nor concerned for the future. Then each moment becomes a joy and each moment becomes creative. But is is a totally different kind of creativity, not something forced... something that simply happens, flows out of you. People may understand it, may not understand it. You are happy just because of the flow. Your joy is not in gaining something out of it, your joy is in the very doing of it. And then bliss blooms, if you are relaxed something like a lotus opens up in your heart.
How long will you be here?
VIRAMO: Three months... maybe longer!
Good. This is your home. Think of it as a home now, and do as many groups as possible. And finally you are going to land here!
SAMBODHI : I've come to stay this time!
OSHO : That I know!
SAMBODHI : I wanted to tell you that....
Good Sambodhi you have come home!
OSHO : Anything to say? Osho asked another Sambodhi, wife of Bodhimitra.
SAMBODHI : So much... my heart is so full (quavering).
OSHO : Good, Sambodhi. You are ready for many things!
Osho's Commentary
OSHO: Everybody is happy with you!
CEDAR: I got liddle mala... I got liddle mala!
This will be his name: Swami Anand Cedar....
CEDAR: I got liddle mala!
Osho paused and studied the excited pink face.
Can you wait a minute?
(much laughter)
Anand means bliss and the cedar is an evergreen that has a fragrant wood. In the East, particularly in Lebanon, the cedar represents the soul of man. It represents eternity, because it is the longest living tree in Lebanon. It also represents the ambition of man to reach the stars, because it is the highest tree in Lebanon.
CEDAR: Oshoo! (softly, curiously and continuously)
... It also represents essence, because it takes the longest time to grow....
CEDAR: Oshoo... Oshoooo! (wondertruck)
And bliss is also a tree, ever green....
OSHO PAUSES TO GLANCE AT CEDAR AND TURNS TO HIS MOTHER WITH THE SHEET OF PAPER BEARING THE SANNYAS NAME. HE MENTIONS CEDAR INDIRECTLY IN THE DISCOURSE A DAY OR SO LATER:
Just a few days ago, a small boy took sannyas. I had to ask him "Can you be silent for one minute so that I can explain your name to your mother?" But he was not even able to be silent for one minute.
Small girls come and I say to them "Close your eyes and sit silently." They sit so beautifully... they can sit for hours. When small boys come and I say to them "Close your eyes," they have to clench their eyes! They are afraid that if they don't do it enough their eyes will open. They are so curious about what is happening, what is going on outside.
When small girls take sannyas they look at me, and the boys -- they look at Krishna Bharti and his camera! They are looking at people: What is the response? -- are people laughing, enjoying, watching? They are great performers and have great curiosity which constantly keeps them tense.
Osho (to Jeannine) : If it comes, it comes, if it does not come we have to be patient, waiting, trusting. A created love is a false love. Only when it comes as a grace of God does it have beauty and truth. Then it is something which transcends death and time and mind.
When we create love it is just an impotent gesture. We can talk about it, we can even act, but it will be without any soul. We can even deceive others and ourselves -- and that's what millions of people have always been doing. In the name of love something very false is current, because we never allow God, we never become available to him so that he can descend in us. Only when God descends in you does it become love. When God touches your heart you have a totally different beat and a different rhythm. You are reborn; and with you is born love. Then love is nothing but prayer. Then love is a blessing to you and a blessing to the whole of existence.
When God is gracious to you he is gracious to the whole existence through you. In a Jesus, in a Buddha, in a Zarathustra, that's what has happened: the beyond has penetrated into the dark, dismal world, into the world of misery, into the world that we have created. It is ugly, it is hell, it is insane. Love brings sanity, health, wholeness; but remember it is always a gift of God. One attains it not by doing anything but by being in a state of non-doing. Just being silent, still, with no effort, with no ambition, with no goal... that's how one becomes rooted in the present. And the present is the door to the divine.
It is from the present that you move into God and God moves in you; that movement of God in you and your movement in God is love. Love is the most precious experience of live. If one has known love, one has known all.
Osho (to Reta) : Unless one is full of light there is no possibility of bliss. Light itself is transformed into delight. Hence those who seek bliss directly can never find it, but those who seek light, they always find bliss. Bliss is a by-product of the experience of light; hence meditation becomes immensely important. It does not give you bliss directly, because there is no way to reach bliss directly. Meditation disperses your darkness. Meditation releases your inner potential of light. You become full of light and the moment you are full of light suddenly there is bliss. It follows light inevitably. Hence the word "enlightenment"; it simply means one who has become total light. And bliss is a by-product, a consequence.
Seek light: you will find both light and bliss. Seek bliss: you will not find bliss and you will remain miserable. The more you seek, the more miserable you will become because the more you seek, the more you will experience the failure, the frustration. The more you seek, the more you will be full of expectation. And each time that expectation leads nowhere great frustration arises.
That is the misery of the modern man: he is seeking bliss directly. Hence for the first time man is so miserable. He has never been so miserable before, and ironically, he has all that man has always wanted and never had. Science and technology have made available to man all the comforts possible. Now this is the moment to be blissful but man is living in such despair that his most fundamental question is no more God but suicide. His most fundamental question is no more concerned with transformation, enlightenment, meditation. He is obsessed by madness. He finds himself surrounded by madness everywhere and suicide seems to be the only solution to finishing with all this.
This is the lowest rung of the ladder. Now there is nothing lower than this, hence we are coming to a moment when humanity will either disappear because of the despair -- it will commit a global suicide, a third world war -- or it will start rising on the ladder again to new altitudes of being. But then the search has to be changed: it has not to be a search for bliss but a search for light.
It has always been so -- through the whole past of humanity light has been the search, the goal. It is light that is called god; god and light are synonymous. It is light that is called nirvana; light and nirvana are synonymous.
So remember it: bliss comes only as a consequence. One can forget all about bliss. Meditate more and more, go deeper within yourself so that slowly slowly, the sleeping soul is awakened. When you are awakened there is light the dawn has arrived. Bliss will follow inevitably, just as when the sun rises birds start singing -- not vice versa. It is not that birds start singing so the sun has to rise. The sun rises and the flowers start opening -- not vice versa, that the flowers open and the sun has to rise.
Exactly like that let light happen first and the birds will sing and the flowers of bliss will bloom.
Osho (to Thomas) : Go beyond all seeking, all searching -- that is the only way to find truth.
Seeking is a sure way to miss it because when you seek truth you have already assumed that truth is somewhere else -- hidden, occult, esoteric. You have already assumed that truth is not now and here but then and there. Seeking needs space, distance. Seeking is a journey from here to there, from now to then. Seeking means that you have already put truth somewhere in the future. Seeking needs tomorrow and truth can be found only now and here, this very moment. So you have to be here and now and a seeker can never be here and now; he can be everywhere else, anywhere else, but not here and now.
A seeker of truth becomes a philosopher but he never becomes a mystic. The mystic knows and the philosopher only assumes, infers, guesses, argues. The philosopher simply goes on making castles in the air. In fact he has no roof over his head. He makes great systems of thought, he is very skillful with words, but he has not experienced anything. That is the difference between a Hegel and a Buddha, between a Kant and a Lao Tzu, between an Aristotle and a Jesus.
Truth has to be experiences, truth has to be lived, and the only way to experience it is to live herenow, to withdraw all your projections from the future. No past has to be allowed to hang around you and no future either. When you live in the pure present you are truth. It is not something outside you, it is the very ground of your being. And that's what meditation is all about: to be here and now.
Seeking is a kind of desiring and every desire brings misery. Non-seeking means non-desiring and the moment of non-desiring is the moment of realization.
Osho (to Christopher) : Be a Christ -- there is no need to be a follower of Christ. Go beyond all following. My sannyasin is not a follower. The very idea of following is ugly. My sannyasin is my friend. I am sharing whatsoever I have got and he is sharing whatsoever he has got. And something transpires when you start sharing love: communion begins.
If you want to be a Christ, never be a follower of Christ. To be a follower means to be imitative. To follow is to fall below human dignity. And what can one do by following? One can learn how to be like Christ -- in the way he walks, the way he lives, the way he eats, but these are all outer things and they don't create a Christ.
Millions of people have been following Christ -- not a single one has become a Christ. The reason is that they are followers; their very following is the barrier. One can become a Christ by going in, not by following somebody. Yes, find friends who can be helpful. A real Master is a friend. Because he knows the inner path he can give you a few hints, a few suggestions. He cannot give you commandments, no Master can give you commandments because when you start moving inwards each person has to find his own way. Each person has to really create his own way. And every single individual's experience is going to be a little bit different from everybody else's, it is going to be unique.
So the Master only gives vague hints, not clear-cut commandments. He cannot give you a map, he can simply describe the beauty of the inner world. His description is bound to remain not mathematical, but only poetic. He will leave it for you to take the hint and then to search for your own path, to seek your own inner being, to explore, to go on an adventure. He cannot give you a guidebook and he cannot be a guide as far as details are concerned because they are never going to be the same. My going into my own being is not going to be the same as Christ or Buddha. You going into your own being is not going to be the same as me going into my being. No two individuals are similar, each individual is a unique creation of God; hence, don't be a follower.
And when one can be a Christ, why be a follower? Transcend all following and then you can love Christ more easily. In fact when you follow somebody you cannot love them. You can respect them but you cannot love them and respect is a poor substitute for love. When you follow somebody you feel offended deep down. You will take revenge -- you cannot forgive the person whom you are following. Hence followers betray.
The greatest follower of Jesus was Judas. He was the most intelligent amongst all the apostles, the most educated, the most sophisticated. In fact he was the only person who could have succeeded Jesus, who would have become the leader once Jesus was gone; he was the only competitor.
And he followed Jesus in spite of himself, in spite of all his doubts he followed. All that following created deep wound in him. If Jesus had told him "You are just my friend, not a follower." Jesus would not have been betrayed. But Judas was offended, the very presence of Jesus was an offense to him. He wanted Jesus to be removed.
But once Jesus was crucified, the next day Judas committed suicide. First he took revenge and then naturally he started feeling repentance. These are all joined together: following, betraying, repentance. He felt so repentant that he committed suicide, thinking "What have I done? -- I betrayed my Master, and for only thirty silver rupees!" But that is not the real thing, those thirty silver rupees mean nothing. The real thing is that he was the greatest follower. He was following Jesus exactly, precisely, step by step, and that was creating great offense in his being, great wounds: one day he exploded. But once Jesus was killed, naturally he started feeling very repentant, guilty. He destroyed himself. A follower destroys his Master and destroys himself. That is the whole essence of the story of Jesus and Judas.
Never be a follower. That way you avoid being a betrayer, that way you avoid being repentant. Be a friend of Buddha's.
Buddha said that "The next Buddha, the next person who becomes enlightened, his name will be Maitreya, the friend." That's a beautiful prediction.
Enough of following! Now the relationship between the Master and the disciple should be of love. It should be a love affair!
How long will you be here?
CHRISTOPHER : As long as I can!
Good. Do as many groups as possible.... It is just a hint!
MIND IS CHAOS...
OSHO (to Siegfried) : Yes, there can be degrees -- more turmoil, less turmoil -- but mind can never be peaceful because the moment mind is peaceful mind disappears.
When all thoughts have gone where is the mind? Mind is nothing but the name of the whole thought process and the thought process is the disturbance. It continues day in, day out, year in, year out, life in, life out, It goes on and on. You are waking, it is there, you are asleep, it is there. In waking you think it is thinking, in sleep you think it is dreaming -- it is the same process.
Dreaming is a little more primitive language of thought. Thinking is a more sophisticated way of dreaming. Dreaming is pictorial, hence primitive. Thinking is verbal, linguistic, is more civilized that's all, but it is the same phenomenon. When there is no dreaming, no thinking, there is peace; then there is no mind.
Meditation means a state of no-mind, a state of peace, and when peace is victorious in you, you are fulfilled. You have blossomed. You have come to know the meaning and significance of life. And the moment you go beyond mind you go beyond time too, because time is another aspect of the mind. When there is no mind there is eternity. Each moment is so intense. It has such depth that you cannot fathom it. And each moment gives you so much bliss and so much peace and so much love that you cannot contain it: you start exploding. Your love, your peace, your joy, start radiating around you. It creates great ripples in the world, ripples of joy.
It is said that when Buddha became enlightened trees blossomed out of season. It can't be an historical fact -- trees are not so intelligent -- but it is a beautiful way of saying something immensely valuable: that when Buddha became enlightened such great waves of joy and peace started radiating that trees became full of flowers out of season. Trees that had been dead became green and rivers that had been dry became flooded with water. These are just symbols to say that much life happened around. If even a single person arrives the whole existence rejoices.
So it is not only your victory when meditation happens, it is the victory of the whole existence. It is the victory of God through you.
OSHO (to Pratika) : That's exactly what happened to a Sufi mystic, Mansoor -- the last thing he did on the earth. He was also crucified and crucified more cruelly that Jesus. He was cut into pieces -- legs first, then hands, then eyes. Before his tongue was cut, he laughed.
Somebody asked, "Mansoor, is this a time to laugh?" He said, "Now there is no more time for me. This is the last time and I am having the last laugh! I am laughing at the stupidity of people; and I am laughing at the joke God is playing with me."
My sannyasin has to become a totally new concept of spirituality, a new vision, a new birth of religion. Bliss has to be his very aroma, flavor. Dance, sing, be cheerful. Be cheerful because God is. Be cheerful because God is not far away; be cheerful that God resides within you. Be cheerful that God has not forsaken us.
OSHO (to Viramo) : From this moment don't relate yourself to your past, be discontinuous with it. And it is easier to disconnect oneself with a single blow. In parts you can never become disconnected and that's what many people try: they leave small chunks but the major part becomes the past and that major part again goes on growing those same chunks. It is like a tree -- you prune it and instead of one leaf, three leaves replace it because the tree also takes the challenge. The tree has to be cut from the roots if it is to be cut at all.
That's what sannyas is: it is totally cutting yourself from the past. Nothing is to be saved. If you try to save something which you think is good, then you cannot drop the bad because they are together, they have an organic unity. That has to be understood: life is an organic unity. You cannot choose a few pieces and drop a few other pieces. Either you have to drop the whole or you have to keep the whole. That's the basic meaning of sannyas -- that we drop the whole, that we start fresh. Then we start life from abc; we become children again.
This will be your new name: Swami Anand Viramo. anand means bliss; viramo means relaxation.
You have been straining too hard. You have been trying to prove something to yourself and to the world unnecessarily. We are not here to prove anything. We are here to live, to love, to dance and to sing. If out of that something is created, it's okay, but one should not force oneself to do something, to create something. That becomes a heavy load on the being and it is very self-destructive, it is suicidal. It is slow poisoning of your being.
You are already accepted by God as you are. There is no need to prove anything. You need not be famous. You can live anonymously and your joy will be far more profound. And what is the point of proving yourself to the stupid crowd? Even if they honor you and respect you and confer great prizes on you and awards, what is the point? They don't understand anything.
The last words of Jesus were: Father, forgive these people because they know not what they are doing. So whether they give you a Nobel Prize or they crucify you, it is all the same! My understanding is this, if Jesus had been given a Nobel Prize, he would have prayed the same way -- "Father, forgive these people because they know not what they are doing!" It has nothing to do with crucifixion. It has something to do with the stupidity of people -- they are utterly blind.
Once you forget proving, great relaxation happens. Your whole being comes loose. The stiffness, the hardness disappears, the ice starts melting. You become flowing. That is the meaning of viramo and that has to become your life style now.
A sannyasin has to live in deep relaxation, neither worried by the past nor concerned for the future. Then each moment becomes a joy and each moment becomes creative. But is is a totally different kind of creativity, not something forced... something that simply happens, flows out of you. People may understand it, may not understand it. You are happy just because of the flow. Your joy is not in gaining something out of it, your joy is in the very doing of it. And then bliss blooms, if you are relaxed something like a lotus opens up in your heart.
How long will you be here?
VIRAMO: Three months... maybe longer!
Good. This is your home. Think of it as a home now, and do as many groups as possible. And finally you are going to land here!
SAMBODHI : I've come to stay this time!
OSHO : That I know!
SAMBODHI : I wanted to tell you that....
Good Sambodhi you have come home!
OSHO : Anything to say? Osho asked another Sambodhi, wife of Bodhimitra.
SAMBODHI : So much... my heart is so full (quavering).
OSHO : Good, Sambodhi. You are ready for many things!