Dhyan Darshan #3
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Questions in this Discourse
Some friends have asked... One friend asks: “At night, even while trying to remain very alert, every little while my eyelids kept drooping.”
Be concerned about staying alert. It is enough that you do not let them drop from your side. If the eyelids drop on their own, don’t worry. Then simply resume. You don’t drop them.
But the distinction is subtle. It seems to us that they are falling by themselves; in ninety out of a hundred cases it is we who are dropping them. Just keep this much awareness—that you are not dropping them. If they do fall, don’t worry too much. There will be a little discomfort, but in a day or two it will be fine; they will stop falling. Because no part of the body can go absolutely against the mind. Keep the remembrance that you will not let them drop—that much is enough. And put in a little effort, be a little more watchful.
And don’t worry too much about the eyelids; be more concerned with looking towards me. If you keep your attention on the eyelids, they will fall. Two things: when you are looking towards me at night, keep your attention on me; drop concern about the eyelids. If you attend to the eyelids, within five to seven minutes you yourself will feel weak, and it will seem you cannot continue this long. And as soon as it seems you cannot continue, the eyelids will drop. If you forget the eyelids and keep looking at me—don’t even bother whether the eyelids are there—then they will not fall. Let the attention be on me, not on the eyelids. If it goes to the eyelids, soon you will get perturbed and say, “It’s been too long—how can the eyelids stay up so long? They’ll start burning; now this will happen, now that will happen.” And this feeling of the mind will make the eyelids fall. Look at me; let the eyelids be.
But the distinction is subtle. It seems to us that they are falling by themselves; in ninety out of a hundred cases it is we who are dropping them. Just keep this much awareness—that you are not dropping them. If they do fall, don’t worry too much. There will be a little discomfort, but in a day or two it will be fine; they will stop falling. Because no part of the body can go absolutely against the mind. Keep the remembrance that you will not let them drop—that much is enough. And put in a little effort, be a little more watchful.
And don’t worry too much about the eyelids; be more concerned with looking towards me. If you keep your attention on the eyelids, they will fall. Two things: when you are looking towards me at night, keep your attention on me; drop concern about the eyelids. If you attend to the eyelids, within five to seven minutes you yourself will feel weak, and it will seem you cannot continue this long. And as soon as it seems you cannot continue, the eyelids will drop. If you forget the eyelids and keep looking at me—don’t even bother whether the eyelids are there—then they will not fall. Let the attention be on me, not on the eyelids. If it goes to the eyelids, soon you will get perturbed and say, “It’s been too long—how can the eyelids stay up so long? They’ll start burning; now this will happen, now that will happen.” And this feeling of the mind will make the eyelids fall. Look at me; let the eyelids be.
Someone else has asked: they have been doing the experiment for six months, yet the catharsis is still continuing, the purging is still going on. The crying, shouting, jumping, laughing continue. How long will this last?
Don’t be alarmed! The turmoil in our minds is not from just one life; it is of many lives. But it can come out quickly if the intensity increases. We don’t allow the intensity to rise—then it comes out slowly, and it takes a long time.
It can be released in a single day if you give your full cooperation. If your participation is total, even in one day it can all come out. But that rarely happens, so it is released gradually. Within, there is a big reservoir of disorder. If you let it out drop by drop, it takes a long time. Break the wall, and it can flow out today—even in a single moment. It will take exactly as long as the slowness of your cooperation. If your cooperation is complete, it will happen quickly. Don’t be afraid—let it come out.
A sister has written:
Last night you said we should remain standing, that standing would give a good result. But I found great delight in sitting. While looking toward you, the burden of the body fell away. The first cry was: Help me! That transformed into Help them. Later there was an extraordinary peace, a silence, which then turned into bliss—and it is still present. Was my meditation honest?
The question is not so much of standing or sitting; each person will differ a little. If sitting suits someone, they can certainly sit. If standing suits someone, they can stand.
Generally, I prefer you begin standing, because the second stage can unfold properly when standing. Sitting, the second stage may not be as effective, because the body doesn’t have the same freedom of movement. But if you feel it works better sitting, you are the final authority. Sit by all means—it will happen. Sitting makes no fundamental difference; it will happen sitting as well. And what happened to you is perfectly right.
A friend has said that some friends are new, so I will say a few things about the morning meditation before we sit for the experiment.
There are four stages in the morning meditation. In the first stage, breathe intensely for ten minutes—so intensely that every pore of the body trembles. Keep increasing the intensity. By the tenth minute, you should reach a climax. The body should be filled with a dancing electrical charge. It should feel as if electrons are dancing, everything else is gone. It will feel so—if you have breathed with full intensity and with the deep hammering of breath. Then the hidden energies in the body begin to awaken, and the body becomes nothing but a dance of energy.
If you are even a little miserly in these ten minutes, the rest of the experiment goes astray. In these ten minutes you must invest your total strength. After the ten minutes, forget about the breath. Then let the breath move as it moves: if you feel to continue, continue; if you feel to let go, let go. But during those first ten minutes, even if you feel like stopping, don’t stop. For those ten minutes you must breathe faster and faster. You have to hammer with the breath.
It is by the impact of breath that Kundalini awakens. The stronger the impact, the more something within rises and begins to move upward. Its upward movement is itself an incomparable bliss. And as it moves upward, the body fills with a wondrous trembling and dance. From that impact, your suppressed illnesses will begin to erupt. And from that impact, the bliss suppressed within you will also begin to manifest.
Therefore, do not be even a little miserly with the impact of the breath. Nothing harmful is going to happen in ten minutes of fast breathing; at most you may feel a little tired—half an hour later you’ll be fine. There is no need for fear in it.
In the second ten minutes, if you feel to continue the breath, continue; if not, let it drop. In these ten minutes, many kinds of processes will begin in the body—it will dance, jump, weep, laugh, shout. Whatever process begins within you, give it your total energy. If this hand is trembling a little, lend it your full power. Pour your whole body into this hand so it can tremble totally.
You don’t know what is releasing through the trembling of this hand. You cannot know, because we have no idea that each movement of the body is related to movements in the mind. When you give someone a hard slap, you know your anger suddenly subsides. What happens in a slap? Only that your hand vibrates in a particular way. Yet in that vibration, your anger vanishes.
Even psychologists now say that if anger arises and you cannot strike a person, even striking a pillow will release it. Try it—you’ll be surprised! Because the force aroused in the body needs a discharge, a letting-fall.
So when your hand is trembling, you don’t know how many things are trembling within it—and being released. Give it your full power. If your head is trembling, give it your full power. If the legs are dancing, give them your full power. Whatever is happening, give it your full strength.
For about seventy percent of people, something will begin to happen spontaneously. Thirty percent will face a little difficulty. If you feel you are among the thirty percent—nothing is happening, no laughter comes, no tears come, you are neither dancing nor trembling—then choose any one of these four and begin doing it on your own. The first day you will be doing it; the second day it will begin to happen. But don’t just stand there.
In the third stage, ask, “Who am I?” If you feel to keep the breath going, you may. If you feel to keep dancing, you may. But in the third stage, give the emphasis to “Who am I?” Ask it within with intensity. Let there be no gap between two “Who am I?” Let the whole mind become a storm, a gale, asking “Who am I?” If it feels right, ask it aloud; if it feels right, ask it within—whichever is convenient. But in those ten minutes be drenched in sweat; ask with such strength and power.
The more you tire yourself in these three stages, the deeper your peace will be in the fourth stage. The proportion is the same: the greater the effort, the deeper the rest. The more tension you have generated in the first three stages—these three stages are for generating tension—the more deeply you will enter relaxation in the fourth stage. The fourth stage is the result. Those who were even slightly weak in the first three stages will not be able to enter the fourth. The fourth stage is meditation. The first three stages are only steps. The fourth stage is the temple. That is the entry.
In the fourth ten minutes you have nothing to do—no breathing, no dancing, no crying, no shouting. If you’re standing, you’re standing; if you fall, you fall; if you’re sitting, you’re sitting—be as you are—dead, like a corpse. And you will be, if the first three stages have been done rightly. In the fourth stage you will disappear. And what remains is bliss, is light, is the divine—whatever name we may give it. Even the smallest glimpse of it dispels the darkness of endless lifetimes. Even the smallest glimpse dissolves the miseries of countless births. Even the smallest glimpse transforms life. A new life begins. The new life is very near, but for those who are too weak to take even a few steps, nothing can be done.
I will keep reminding you in between: “Do it strongly.” Whenever I remind you, gather your full strength again and pour it in. Our minds are such that we forget in two moments—two moments of fast breathing, and then it slows down. I will tell you again; I will keep prodding you from here. Whenever I say, “Stronger!” then with all your strength come back into intensity.
Now let us do the experiment. Stand apart, a little distance between you. Those who wish to sit should sit toward the outside, not in the middle. Move a little away; there is plenty of space. If you are too close—someone will dance or jump and bump into you, and that will break your meditation. Stand with a little space around you. Look around and make sure that if you dance or jump there is room for you. And if someone bumps into you, don’t open your eyes. If you get bumped, you get bumped—keep doing your work.
Now, I will assume you are… Yes, if anyone needs to remove any clothes, coat, etc., quietly take them off and set them aside. If you have spectacles, anything that might bother you—something that might become a hindrance in between, that it might fall or cause injury—set it aside. Today you have to put in your full strength, so prepare fully. Because yesterday was your preliminary; now in the remaining four days you must give your total strength.
All right. Make sure no small thing will hinder you. Whatever small thing could hinder you, set it aside. Remove your glasses if you need to, set them down. If some garment needs removing, remove it. If you need to move farther out, move out. And those who know they will jump and leap very strongly should come a little more to the outside; otherwise they will trouble others. And do not leave your place—jump in your own place.
Keep your eyes closed for forty minutes. Close your eyes now. Come with me on the journey. Close your eyes. Not a single person should be standing with eyes open in between. If someone wants to look, to open their eyes, then step outside and stand; watch from outside, not inside.
Close your eyes, and with both hands folded, make a resolve before the divine. With your whole heart resolve: With God as my witness, I resolve that I will put my total strength into meditation—total! With God as my witness, I resolve that I will put my total strength into meditation—total! With God as my witness, I resolve that I will put my total strength into meditation—total! You remember your resolve; the divine surely remembers your resolve. Lower your hands. Begin the first stage.
Breathe intensely, as a blacksmith’s bellows works—work your lungs like that. Intense… intense… Raise the storm from the very beginning; do not go slowly. We have to make a great journey in forty minutes, so from the very start—faster… faster… deliver the blow; slowly you cannot strike a blow. Strike fast… let the body tremble, let it tremble… if it wants to dance, sway, let it sway… You deliver the blow. Faster… faster… drop all fears, drop all inhibitions. Drop childish concerns, drop thinking of others. Strike hard… faster… faster… Let only the breath remain. Let only the breath remain; forget the whole world; let nothing remain but the breath. Inhale, exhale… in, out… in, out… stronger… stronger…
Remember: you must put in one hundred percent, otherwise it will be wasted. No worry if a sound comes—let it come. If the body sways, let it sway; if it dances, let it dance. Keep hammering with the breath…
Faster… faster… faster… Very good. About fifty percent of you have come into the right speed. Faster… faster… faster… faster… faster… Give a full hundred percent… remember your resolve and pour it in. Eight minutes left—pour in your total strength… The body will begin to sway; the body will fill with electricity; it will begin to leap like lightning… Go faster… faster… keep making it faster…
Very good! Let no one fall behind, let no one remain empty. Fast… fast… fast… Forget the body, forget others… fast breath… fast breath… fast breath… harder… harder… harder… Fill with bliss… fill with bliss and breathe. Breathe with bliss… engrossed in bliss, breathe fast… fast… fast… fast breath… fast breath… fast breath… fast… Only a little time is left; otherwise you will be left behind. If you miss the first stage, you miss the whole… Breathe fast… breathe fast… breathe fast… Forget it—drop the concern for the body. If you dance, dance; if you jump, jump; if you sway, sway… Breathe with bliss. You have to make the blow, hammer with the breath, strike within, awaken Kundalini—strike hard…
Six minutes left. Put in your power… put in your power… Do not get caught in little thoughts… put in your power… put in your power. Forget—forget everything else; let only the breath remain… more… more… more… more… Remember, resolve—and more intense… more intense… more intense… harder… harder… harder… Let only the breath remain. Five minutes left… half the time is over; five minutes remain—pour in your strength. Then there will be no chance in the second stage. Awaken it—awaken it well. If you are dancing, jumping, forget the worry, forget the body. Forget whether you are woman or man. Harder… harder… harder… harder…
Very good! The rhythm is coming, the energy is awakening—awaken it more. The more it awakens, the more it will serve you. Four minutes left—come into full force… Breathe like a storm… let only breath remain… only breath remains… everything is gone… the body is not—only breath remains. The body is just a machine of electricity… swaying… trembling. Three minutes left—come into speed. Then we will enter the second stage.
Harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… No worry—if the body sways, dances, jumps; if sounds come, if a scream comes—let it come. Harder… harder… harder… Two minutes left. When I say “One, two, three,” then breathe like a madperson.
One! Put in your total strength—one hundred percent—harder. Two! Put in your total strength. Three! With your full power, leap! Very good! A few seconds—full power—full power… If tears come, laughter comes, a scream comes—let it come… Then we enter the second stage. Breath… breath… breath… let only breath remain, let everything else disappear. Only breath remains… only breath remains…
Now enter the second stage. Let the body go. Whatever it wants—dance, jump, shout, weep, laugh—whatever the body does, let it do. For ten minutes, throw all the body’s illnesses out.
Begin! Harder… harder… whatever is arising… harder… in bliss… do it strongly. Dance in bliss, sway in bliss, jump in bliss, laugh, weep—whatever is happening… shout—whatever is happening. Harder… harder… harder… You must put in total strength. No, not slowly—harder… harder… harder… harder… So many people—there should be a storm. Harder… harder…
Not so slow—put in total strength. Whatever is happening, let it happen. Do not be shy; do not hold back. Dance, jump, laugh, weep, shout. The energy has awakened—let it work fully. Put in your full power—whatever is happening, give it your full strength. Shout… shout… dance… dance… dance… fill with bliss. Six minutes left—put your force in… not slowly—harder… there should be a storm—with so many people, the whole…
The energy has awakened—let it work. Five minutes left—put in your full strength. Then we shall enter the third stage. Dance… dance… fill with bliss… dance… jump… shout… laugh… weep… whatever is happening, let it happen. Drop inhibitions—go completely mad. Five minutes left—put in your full power… harder… harder…
Four minutes remain… harder… use the energy fully…
Very good! Bring in more speed… more speed… more speed… Whatever is happening, do it strongly. Jump… dance… shout… raise a complete storm. Throw all madness out. Three minutes left—come into full force, total force. One hundred percent—one hundred percent—remember your resolve—remember your strength…
One! Put in your full power—move—move with force. Two! Go further. Three! Come into your full strength. Shout… shout… shout… shout… go completely mad for one minute. Go completely mad. Throw all sickness out. Dance… dance… jump hard… dance… shout…
Very good! A few seconds more, then we enter the third stage. Come to a full climax, to the very peak. Pour it all in… Stay in your place… Shout in your place… jump… dance. Harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… do not lag behind… do not lag behind… all at once, put in your total strength…
Now enter the third stage. Now enter the third stage. Ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Let it rain down—Who am I? Ask only this one question within, and outside—Who am I? Who am I? Keep swaying, keep dancing, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Not slowly—ask with power—Who am I? Let every hair of the body ask—Who am I?…
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… This is the last stage—put in your total strength. Dance, jump, ask—Who am I?…
Very good! Very good! Louder… stronger… put in more power… Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… Louder… louder… a storm must be raised… Who am I?… Dance, jump, ask—Who am I? Who am I?… You must ask strongly—ask strongly—Who am I? Who am I?…
Who am I? Who am I?… Seven minutes left; then we will go into rest. Exhaust yourself. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… Dance, jump, shout, ask—Who am I? Who am I?…
Very good! Only a little time remains—put in your full strength… Who am I?… Who am I?… Ask like a madperson—Who am I? Who am I?… Drop inhibitions… drop inhibitions… remember your resolve. Who am I? Who am I? Dance, jump, ask, keep swaying, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?…
Five minutes left—apply your strength… apply your strength…
Very good! Let no one lag behind. Louder… put in your power… put in your power… Dance—dance in bliss; sway; ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… We have come very close—we are at the shore—apply a little more strength and you will enter the fourth stage. Who am I?… Four minutes left—apply your strength, apply your strength. The shore is very near—apply your total strength. Who am I? Who am I?… Three minutes left—put in your full strength… The shore is very close. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, jump, shout… Now shout loudly… Dance, jump, shout… Who am I?… So many people—there must be a total storm for three minutes… Who am I?…
One! Put in your total strength. Two! Put in your total strength. Three! Put in your total strength—one hundred percent. A few seconds more… put in your full strength… louder… louder… Dance, jump, shout. All at once, put in your total strength—then we will enter the fourth stage. Who am I?… Drop everything, forget everything—only one question: Who am I?…
Now stop. Now be still. Enter the fourth stage. Now do not ask. Now be still. Now do not sway. Now do not dance. If you’re standing, you’re standing… if you’ve fallen, you’ve fallen… if you’re sitting, you’re sitting… For ten minutes you are entering perfect silence. Drop everything… lie down, remain as you are. If you’re standing, stand… if you’ve fallen, you’ve fallen… if you’re sitting, sit… as if you have died; as if you have disappeared. Like a drop dissolving into the ocean, dissolve. Everything is silent, everything is still. All is silent, all is empty. You have descended into deep peace. You have dived into the deep void. Like a drop dissolving into the ocean, dissolve. Everything is gone—only light remains. Far and wide, to infinity, only light remains. You are submerged in that ocean of light. Light upon light, infinite light, all around only light. Lost in that ocean of light.
Within, fountains of bliss have begun to spring. Every pore will be filled with bliss. Every heartbeat filled with bliss. Within, the fountains of bliss have begun to spring. Streams of bliss alone are flowing within—you are submerged in them, lost in them. Only bliss remains. Bliss, infinite bliss remains. There is nothing but bliss all around. Outside and inside, only bliss remains. See, experience, remember—there is nothing but bliss all around. The thrill of bliss has filled every pore. There is light, there is bliss, there is the divine.
It can be released in a single day if you give your full cooperation. If your participation is total, even in one day it can all come out. But that rarely happens, so it is released gradually. Within, there is a big reservoir of disorder. If you let it out drop by drop, it takes a long time. Break the wall, and it can flow out today—even in a single moment. It will take exactly as long as the slowness of your cooperation. If your cooperation is complete, it will happen quickly. Don’t be afraid—let it come out.
A sister has written:
Last night you said we should remain standing, that standing would give a good result. But I found great delight in sitting. While looking toward you, the burden of the body fell away. The first cry was: Help me! That transformed into Help them. Later there was an extraordinary peace, a silence, which then turned into bliss—and it is still present. Was my meditation honest?
The question is not so much of standing or sitting; each person will differ a little. If sitting suits someone, they can certainly sit. If standing suits someone, they can stand.
Generally, I prefer you begin standing, because the second stage can unfold properly when standing. Sitting, the second stage may not be as effective, because the body doesn’t have the same freedom of movement. But if you feel it works better sitting, you are the final authority. Sit by all means—it will happen. Sitting makes no fundamental difference; it will happen sitting as well. And what happened to you is perfectly right.
A friend has said that some friends are new, so I will say a few things about the morning meditation before we sit for the experiment.
There are four stages in the morning meditation. In the first stage, breathe intensely for ten minutes—so intensely that every pore of the body trembles. Keep increasing the intensity. By the tenth minute, you should reach a climax. The body should be filled with a dancing electrical charge. It should feel as if electrons are dancing, everything else is gone. It will feel so—if you have breathed with full intensity and with the deep hammering of breath. Then the hidden energies in the body begin to awaken, and the body becomes nothing but a dance of energy.
If you are even a little miserly in these ten minutes, the rest of the experiment goes astray. In these ten minutes you must invest your total strength. After the ten minutes, forget about the breath. Then let the breath move as it moves: if you feel to continue, continue; if you feel to let go, let go. But during those first ten minutes, even if you feel like stopping, don’t stop. For those ten minutes you must breathe faster and faster. You have to hammer with the breath.
It is by the impact of breath that Kundalini awakens. The stronger the impact, the more something within rises and begins to move upward. Its upward movement is itself an incomparable bliss. And as it moves upward, the body fills with a wondrous trembling and dance. From that impact, your suppressed illnesses will begin to erupt. And from that impact, the bliss suppressed within you will also begin to manifest.
Therefore, do not be even a little miserly with the impact of the breath. Nothing harmful is going to happen in ten minutes of fast breathing; at most you may feel a little tired—half an hour later you’ll be fine. There is no need for fear in it.
In the second ten minutes, if you feel to continue the breath, continue; if not, let it drop. In these ten minutes, many kinds of processes will begin in the body—it will dance, jump, weep, laugh, shout. Whatever process begins within you, give it your total energy. If this hand is trembling a little, lend it your full power. Pour your whole body into this hand so it can tremble totally.
You don’t know what is releasing through the trembling of this hand. You cannot know, because we have no idea that each movement of the body is related to movements in the mind. When you give someone a hard slap, you know your anger suddenly subsides. What happens in a slap? Only that your hand vibrates in a particular way. Yet in that vibration, your anger vanishes.
Even psychologists now say that if anger arises and you cannot strike a person, even striking a pillow will release it. Try it—you’ll be surprised! Because the force aroused in the body needs a discharge, a letting-fall.
So when your hand is trembling, you don’t know how many things are trembling within it—and being released. Give it your full power. If your head is trembling, give it your full power. If the legs are dancing, give them your full power. Whatever is happening, give it your full strength.
For about seventy percent of people, something will begin to happen spontaneously. Thirty percent will face a little difficulty. If you feel you are among the thirty percent—nothing is happening, no laughter comes, no tears come, you are neither dancing nor trembling—then choose any one of these four and begin doing it on your own. The first day you will be doing it; the second day it will begin to happen. But don’t just stand there.
In the third stage, ask, “Who am I?” If you feel to keep the breath going, you may. If you feel to keep dancing, you may. But in the third stage, give the emphasis to “Who am I?” Ask it within with intensity. Let there be no gap between two “Who am I?” Let the whole mind become a storm, a gale, asking “Who am I?” If it feels right, ask it aloud; if it feels right, ask it within—whichever is convenient. But in those ten minutes be drenched in sweat; ask with such strength and power.
The more you tire yourself in these three stages, the deeper your peace will be in the fourth stage. The proportion is the same: the greater the effort, the deeper the rest. The more tension you have generated in the first three stages—these three stages are for generating tension—the more deeply you will enter relaxation in the fourth stage. The fourth stage is the result. Those who were even slightly weak in the first three stages will not be able to enter the fourth. The fourth stage is meditation. The first three stages are only steps. The fourth stage is the temple. That is the entry.
In the fourth ten minutes you have nothing to do—no breathing, no dancing, no crying, no shouting. If you’re standing, you’re standing; if you fall, you fall; if you’re sitting, you’re sitting—be as you are—dead, like a corpse. And you will be, if the first three stages have been done rightly. In the fourth stage you will disappear. And what remains is bliss, is light, is the divine—whatever name we may give it. Even the smallest glimpse of it dispels the darkness of endless lifetimes. Even the smallest glimpse dissolves the miseries of countless births. Even the smallest glimpse transforms life. A new life begins. The new life is very near, but for those who are too weak to take even a few steps, nothing can be done.
I will keep reminding you in between: “Do it strongly.” Whenever I remind you, gather your full strength again and pour it in. Our minds are such that we forget in two moments—two moments of fast breathing, and then it slows down. I will tell you again; I will keep prodding you from here. Whenever I say, “Stronger!” then with all your strength come back into intensity.
Now let us do the experiment. Stand apart, a little distance between you. Those who wish to sit should sit toward the outside, not in the middle. Move a little away; there is plenty of space. If you are too close—someone will dance or jump and bump into you, and that will break your meditation. Stand with a little space around you. Look around and make sure that if you dance or jump there is room for you. And if someone bumps into you, don’t open your eyes. If you get bumped, you get bumped—keep doing your work.
Now, I will assume you are… Yes, if anyone needs to remove any clothes, coat, etc., quietly take them off and set them aside. If you have spectacles, anything that might bother you—something that might become a hindrance in between, that it might fall or cause injury—set it aside. Today you have to put in your full strength, so prepare fully. Because yesterday was your preliminary; now in the remaining four days you must give your total strength.
All right. Make sure no small thing will hinder you. Whatever small thing could hinder you, set it aside. Remove your glasses if you need to, set them down. If some garment needs removing, remove it. If you need to move farther out, move out. And those who know they will jump and leap very strongly should come a little more to the outside; otherwise they will trouble others. And do not leave your place—jump in your own place.
Keep your eyes closed for forty minutes. Close your eyes now. Come with me on the journey. Close your eyes. Not a single person should be standing with eyes open in between. If someone wants to look, to open their eyes, then step outside and stand; watch from outside, not inside.
Close your eyes, and with both hands folded, make a resolve before the divine. With your whole heart resolve: With God as my witness, I resolve that I will put my total strength into meditation—total! With God as my witness, I resolve that I will put my total strength into meditation—total! With God as my witness, I resolve that I will put my total strength into meditation—total! You remember your resolve; the divine surely remembers your resolve. Lower your hands. Begin the first stage.
Breathe intensely, as a blacksmith’s bellows works—work your lungs like that. Intense… intense… Raise the storm from the very beginning; do not go slowly. We have to make a great journey in forty minutes, so from the very start—faster… faster… deliver the blow; slowly you cannot strike a blow. Strike fast… let the body tremble, let it tremble… if it wants to dance, sway, let it sway… You deliver the blow. Faster… faster… drop all fears, drop all inhibitions. Drop childish concerns, drop thinking of others. Strike hard… faster… faster… Let only the breath remain. Let only the breath remain; forget the whole world; let nothing remain but the breath. Inhale, exhale… in, out… in, out… stronger… stronger…
Remember: you must put in one hundred percent, otherwise it will be wasted. No worry if a sound comes—let it come. If the body sways, let it sway; if it dances, let it dance. Keep hammering with the breath…
Faster… faster… faster… Very good. About fifty percent of you have come into the right speed. Faster… faster… faster… faster… faster… Give a full hundred percent… remember your resolve and pour it in. Eight minutes left—pour in your total strength… The body will begin to sway; the body will fill with electricity; it will begin to leap like lightning… Go faster… faster… keep making it faster…
Very good! Let no one fall behind, let no one remain empty. Fast… fast… fast… Forget the body, forget others… fast breath… fast breath… fast breath… harder… harder… harder… Fill with bliss… fill with bliss and breathe. Breathe with bliss… engrossed in bliss, breathe fast… fast… fast… fast breath… fast breath… fast breath… fast… Only a little time is left; otherwise you will be left behind. If you miss the first stage, you miss the whole… Breathe fast… breathe fast… breathe fast… Forget it—drop the concern for the body. If you dance, dance; if you jump, jump; if you sway, sway… Breathe with bliss. You have to make the blow, hammer with the breath, strike within, awaken Kundalini—strike hard…
Six minutes left. Put in your power… put in your power… Do not get caught in little thoughts… put in your power… put in your power. Forget—forget everything else; let only the breath remain… more… more… more… more… Remember, resolve—and more intense… more intense… more intense… harder… harder… harder… Let only the breath remain. Five minutes left… half the time is over; five minutes remain—pour in your strength. Then there will be no chance in the second stage. Awaken it—awaken it well. If you are dancing, jumping, forget the worry, forget the body. Forget whether you are woman or man. Harder… harder… harder… harder…
Very good! The rhythm is coming, the energy is awakening—awaken it more. The more it awakens, the more it will serve you. Four minutes left—come into full force… Breathe like a storm… let only breath remain… only breath remains… everything is gone… the body is not—only breath remains. The body is just a machine of electricity… swaying… trembling. Three minutes left—come into speed. Then we will enter the second stage.
Harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… No worry—if the body sways, dances, jumps; if sounds come, if a scream comes—let it come. Harder… harder… harder… Two minutes left. When I say “One, two, three,” then breathe like a madperson.
One! Put in your total strength—one hundred percent—harder. Two! Put in your total strength. Three! With your full power, leap! Very good! A few seconds—full power—full power… If tears come, laughter comes, a scream comes—let it come… Then we enter the second stage. Breath… breath… breath… let only breath remain, let everything else disappear. Only breath remains… only breath remains…
Now enter the second stage. Let the body go. Whatever it wants—dance, jump, shout, weep, laugh—whatever the body does, let it do. For ten minutes, throw all the body’s illnesses out.
Begin! Harder… harder… whatever is arising… harder… in bliss… do it strongly. Dance in bliss, sway in bliss, jump in bliss, laugh, weep—whatever is happening… shout—whatever is happening. Harder… harder… harder… You must put in total strength. No, not slowly—harder… harder… harder… harder… So many people—there should be a storm. Harder… harder…
Not so slow—put in total strength. Whatever is happening, let it happen. Do not be shy; do not hold back. Dance, jump, laugh, weep, shout. The energy has awakened—let it work fully. Put in your full power—whatever is happening, give it your full strength. Shout… shout… dance… dance… dance… fill with bliss. Six minutes left—put your force in… not slowly—harder… there should be a storm—with so many people, the whole…
The energy has awakened—let it work. Five minutes left—put in your full strength. Then we shall enter the third stage. Dance… dance… fill with bliss… dance… jump… shout… laugh… weep… whatever is happening, let it happen. Drop inhibitions—go completely mad. Five minutes left—put in your full power… harder… harder…
Four minutes remain… harder… use the energy fully…
Very good! Bring in more speed… more speed… more speed… Whatever is happening, do it strongly. Jump… dance… shout… raise a complete storm. Throw all madness out. Three minutes left—come into full force, total force. One hundred percent—one hundred percent—remember your resolve—remember your strength…
One! Put in your full power—move—move with force. Two! Go further. Three! Come into your full strength. Shout… shout… shout… shout… go completely mad for one minute. Go completely mad. Throw all sickness out. Dance… dance… jump hard… dance… shout…
Very good! A few seconds more, then we enter the third stage. Come to a full climax, to the very peak. Pour it all in… Stay in your place… Shout in your place… jump… dance. Harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… harder… do not lag behind… do not lag behind… all at once, put in your total strength…
Now enter the third stage. Now enter the third stage. Ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Let it rain down—Who am I? Ask only this one question within, and outside—Who am I? Who am I? Keep swaying, keep dancing, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Not slowly—ask with power—Who am I? Let every hair of the body ask—Who am I?…
Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… This is the last stage—put in your total strength. Dance, jump, ask—Who am I?…
Very good! Very good! Louder… stronger… put in more power… Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… Louder… louder… a storm must be raised… Who am I?… Dance, jump, ask—Who am I? Who am I?… You must ask strongly—ask strongly—Who am I? Who am I?…
Who am I? Who am I?… Seven minutes left; then we will go into rest. Exhaust yourself. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… Dance, jump, shout, ask—Who am I? Who am I?…
Very good! Only a little time remains—put in your full strength… Who am I?… Who am I?… Ask like a madperson—Who am I? Who am I?… Drop inhibitions… drop inhibitions… remember your resolve. Who am I? Who am I? Dance, jump, ask, keep swaying, ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?…
Five minutes left—apply your strength… apply your strength…
Very good! Let no one lag behind. Louder… put in your power… put in your power… Dance—dance in bliss; sway; ask—Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?… We have come very close—we are at the shore—apply a little more strength and you will enter the fourth stage. Who am I?… Four minutes left—apply your strength, apply your strength. The shore is very near—apply your total strength. Who am I? Who am I?… Three minutes left—put in your full strength… The shore is very close. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Dance, jump, shout… Now shout loudly… Dance, jump, shout… Who am I?… So many people—there must be a total storm for three minutes… Who am I?…
One! Put in your total strength. Two! Put in your total strength. Three! Put in your total strength—one hundred percent. A few seconds more… put in your full strength… louder… louder… Dance, jump, shout. All at once, put in your total strength—then we will enter the fourth stage. Who am I?… Drop everything, forget everything—only one question: Who am I?…
Now stop. Now be still. Enter the fourth stage. Now do not ask. Now be still. Now do not sway. Now do not dance. If you’re standing, you’re standing… if you’ve fallen, you’ve fallen… if you’re sitting, you’re sitting… For ten minutes you are entering perfect silence. Drop everything… lie down, remain as you are. If you’re standing, stand… if you’ve fallen, you’ve fallen… if you’re sitting, sit… as if you have died; as if you have disappeared. Like a drop dissolving into the ocean, dissolve. Everything is silent, everything is still. All is silent, all is empty. You have descended into deep peace. You have dived into the deep void. Like a drop dissolving into the ocean, dissolve. Everything is gone—only light remains. Far and wide, to infinity, only light remains. You are submerged in that ocean of light. Light upon light, infinite light, all around only light. Lost in that ocean of light.
Within, fountains of bliss have begun to spring. Every pore will be filled with bliss. Every heartbeat filled with bliss. Within, the fountains of bliss have begun to spring. Streams of bliss alone are flowing within—you are submerged in them, lost in them. Only bliss remains. Bliss, infinite bliss remains. There is nothing but bliss all around. Outside and inside, only bliss remains. See, experience, remember—there is nothing but bliss all around. The thrill of bliss has filled every pore. There is light, there is bliss, there is the divine.
Osho's Commentary
Yesterday we understood the experiment. Today its depth should increase. Only when resolve falters do obstacles arise in meditation. And that lack of resolve can sometimes come from the tiniest of things.
In life there are not great, towering obstructions; there are very small ones. Sometimes a tiny speck gets into the eye, and even the Himalayas disappear from view. Let a speck be in the eye, and the Himalayas cannot be seen. If someone were to reason and calculate, they would surely think that the speck that hid the Himalayas must be bigger than the Himalayas.
That speck is not bigger than the Himalayas; a speck is just a speck. But even a tiny speck can close the eye. The Himalayas are covered over. Exactly so, the small specks cover the power of our meditation, blind the eye of meditation. That which is the third eye is veiled by the smallest of specks. There are no huge mountains sitting on it. But we keep on holding to these little specks.
So let me say two or three things today so that your resolve can grow. Then I will take up some of the questions you have asked.
First: whatever you are doing, do it with your whole strength. Do not allow even the slightest thought to remain inside that you have held something back. Only you can decide this; no one else can. You alone must see whether you are using your full energy or not. And remember, until your whole energy is engaged, whatever is left out will do the work of the speck. It may even be that you put in ninety-nine percent and hold back one percent; that one percent will act like the speck and render the ninety-nine percent futile.
Your hundred percent is essential. It does not matter how much strength you possess—however much it is. Someone has two pennies’ worth of strength, someone four, someone six. The question is not how much you have; the question is whether you have put in all of it. Even the weakest person, if they give their entire hundred percent, will enter meditation before the strongest person who is giving ninety-nine. How much you put in is not the question. Whether you put in the whole of it—this is the question.
Just as at one hundred degrees water becomes steam, at the hundred degrees of your energy you too vaporize into meditation, you too become steam, you too evaporate. But one hundred percent must be there. For this, no one from the outside can do anything. You alone must keep watch: am I saving myself anywhere?
I see many friends saving themselves. Our mind is very contradictory. We meditate, and we also avoid meditation. A woman came and said to me, “I do come—and I’m also afraid that meditation might actually happen!”
Now that is a great difficulty! If we want to meditate and we also fear that it might happen—if even a trace of that fear remains inside… This is not a fear of meditation; it is fear of little things. Otherwise no one would come to meditate at all if the fear were of meditation itself. The fears are of very small things. Someone fears a piece of clothing might slip. Someone fears that if they jump and leap, someone might see. That the neighbors might hear about it. Someone fears that if they cry or laugh, people will think them mad. These are small fears. From them arises the feeling “what if it happens?” If such fears are in the mind, it will not happen. Then one should not waste effort; then better not to enter into the effort at all.
Second point: when you begin the experiment, the real difficulty starts in the second stage. In the first stage you take intense breathing, so you manage it. In the second stage the real difficulty begins. In the second stage our repressive mind—the mind under which we have pushed everything down—creates every kind of obstruction. There are a thousand inhibitions, taboos; they grip the mind hard. One feels panic at even an inch’s deviation here or there. But without the second stage you cannot enter the third. Each stage has its own scientific sequence; only if you complete it can you go forward. Therefore, pay attention to the second stage.
Yesterday most friends did the first stage correctly, except about ten percent. But in the second stage, another forty percent joined that ten percent. In the second stage, fifty percent could not do it.
In the second stage you will have to be courageous. And remember, the second stage has two aspects. One reason the voices, the dancing, the shouting, the laughter arise is because we have repressed all this; its release is in your favor. If it remains suppressed inside, it will come out in twenty-five kinds of mental and physical illnesses—it does. Now even scientists say that some seventy percent of diseases have their cause in the mind. Seventy percent! And the percentage is rising every day. As understanding increases, it becomes clear that the majority of bodily diseases are the result of diseases of the mind.
And what are these diseases of the mind? Exactly these: what has been blocked and suppressed tries to burst out—through the mind, through the body. Every day the number of the mad increases. Anyone can go mad any day. If one has pushed so much inside that one’s own strength becomes insufficient and the strength of the suppressed becomes greater, one can go mad any day; the balance can be lost any day.
So when you see this madness coming out, yes, it is madness coming out—but remember, catharsis is the only remedy to save you from potential madness. If it has been released from within you, that very possibility is finished. Only the person who has descended into meditation cannot go mad; all the others can go mad at any time. In fact, there is not much difference between the mad and the non-mad—only a difference of degree. When your degree too becomes full and the last weight is placed on the scale, you will also snap.
Let it come out; it is for your well-being. Let it be flung out. Do not block it—cooperate with it. That is one. And there is a second reason for the dancing, jumping, and laughing. When a new energy arises within you, or when from all sides the energy of the divine begins to flow toward you, then vibrations begin in your mind, your life-energy, your body—inevitably. These two processes can also run together. So it may be that in one from whom all the sickness has been released, still there is dance, laughter, celebration. And even after the release, it may continue—but its meaning will be entirely different. Both require your cooperation; otherwise they will not happen.