[A sannyas says: Things have happened and now I'm trying to get into control in finding out what it was that did happen.]
You are on a wrong trip and you will disturb the whole process. Things have happened and they are happening, but if you start analysing -- looking into it intellectually, figuring out what has happened, what has not happened, how much, how little -- the whole process will stop, because these processes are very very temperamental. They are so delicate and the intellect is so rough that if you bring in the intellect they simply shrink and disappear. They are very shy, all great processes are very shy.
One day try this: take your lunch and become conscious about what is happening -- whether it has reached the stomach yet or not, whether the stomach juices are being released or not, mm? You have eaten your lunch but you have to know whether it is being digested or not, you have to figure out how much time it is going to take and whether you are deriving nourishment from it or not. Analyse it and watch and see: close your eyes and think about your stomach and intestines and things. Try for twenty-four hours and you will fall ill; your whole stomach will be disturbed. It was perfectly okay but now it cannot be okay because you have disturbed it.
These processes are very subtle and they don't need your knowledge, they don't need you to know about them. It is just like the roots of a tree: they are underneath the ground, hidden. If you bring them up in the light you kill the tree. It is better that they should remain hidden, they should not be exposed. They work that way.
It is just like a small child is in the womb of the mother: bring him out and you will destroy the child. He has to be in the womb for nine months, completely hidden. Never again will he be growing so fast as he grows in the womb, never again in his whole life! If he lives ninety years, then too he will never grow so fast as he grows in the mother's womb. The growth is tremendous! It almost doubles itself in twenty-four hours; you will never double yourself again.
And it goes on multiplying: just a small tiny cell is there in the beginning and in nine months a baby with all the organs. It is all going on unconsciously, it is all going on silently. The mother is not aware, nobody is aware, nobody needs to be aware. When the child has grown to a certain point, nine months, he will come out.
So these processes are like pregnancy. Simply don't disturb them. When they have come to a certain point of growth they will reveal themselves; you need not go into them, you need not bother. You should not try to work out what is happening at all; that's what surrender is. And they are going well!
In the East it is an old tradition: the disciple goes to the master and he just asks for blessings, nothing else. By blessings is meant that the master is saying 'Everything is going well; don't be worried'. That's all that blessings mean: everything is going well. So the disciple is perfectly okay, he forgets about it. He goes on doing whatsoever he is doing and the master knows; that is his business.
One day suddenly the child is born! And then you will be able to see and know and there will be no problem, but not before it. A premature child will suffer the whole of his life; there is danger that he may not survive.
My feeling is that whenever a woman becomes too conscious of the child, a child is born premature; that's my observation. In primitive societies immature children are never born because the mothers are not conscious about it.
You will be surprised -- there is a tribe in Africa which had not known that there is any connection between intercourse and pregnancy. For thousands of years they have lived and loved and given birth to children and they had not even thought about it -- that a child is born because of sexual intercourse. They had not thought that there was any relationship. They had always been thinking that a child is god's gift; it has nothing to do with anything else.
Now, this is a totally different world. Those people have never known a premature birth; how can they know? They don't know anything, knowledge has not interfered in any way.
The modern woman is very much alert, too alert, dangerously alert. She is reading books, trying to find out how old the child is, how he looks inside. She looks in the encyclopedia to see how the child is looking at three months old, what shape, what organs have come up. This is dangerous, mm?
Just thinking about it your stomach starts churning, thinking about it your stomach becomes strained, thinking about it your stomach is not relaxed and you are hurting the child. The child needs total relaxation.
Knowledge is a tension. When it happens on its own it is not a tension, when you try it is a tension. So my suggestion is that you forget about it.
Whenever you become too worried, just look at me and my blessing is with you.
Osho's Commentary
You are on a wrong trip and you will disturb the whole process. Things have happened and they are happening, but if you start analysing -- looking into it intellectually, figuring out what has happened, what has not happened, how much, how little -- the whole process will stop, because these processes are very very temperamental. They are so delicate and the intellect is so rough that if you bring in the intellect they simply shrink and disappear. They are very shy, all great processes are very shy.
One day try this: take your lunch and become conscious about what is happening -- whether it has reached the stomach yet or not, whether the stomach juices are being released or not, mm? You have eaten your lunch but you have to know whether it is being digested or not, you have to figure out how much time it is going to take and whether you are deriving nourishment from it or not. Analyse it and watch and see: close your eyes and think about your stomach and intestines and things. Try for twenty-four hours and you will fall ill; your whole stomach will be disturbed. It was perfectly okay but now it cannot be okay because you have disturbed it.
These processes are very subtle and they don't need your knowledge, they don't need you to know about them. It is just like the roots of a tree: they are underneath the ground, hidden. If you bring them up in the light you kill the tree. It is better that they should remain hidden, they should not be exposed. They work that way.
It is just like a small child is in the womb of the mother: bring him out and you will destroy the child. He has to be in the womb for nine months, completely hidden. Never again will he be growing so fast as he grows in the womb, never again in his whole life! If he lives ninety years, then too he will never grow so fast as he grows in the mother's womb. The growth is tremendous! It almost doubles itself in twenty-four hours; you will never double yourself again.
And it goes on multiplying: just a small tiny cell is there in the beginning and in nine months a baby with all the organs. It is all going on unconsciously, it is all going on silently. The mother is not aware, nobody is aware, nobody needs to be aware. When the child has grown to a certain point, nine months, he will come out.
So these processes are like pregnancy. Simply don't disturb them. When they have come to a certain point of growth they will reveal themselves; you need not go into them, you need not bother. You should not try to work out what is happening at all; that's what surrender is. And they are going well!
In the East it is an old tradition: the disciple goes to the master and he just asks for blessings, nothing else. By blessings is meant that the master is saying 'Everything is going well; don't be worried'. That's all that blessings mean: everything is going well. So the disciple is perfectly okay, he forgets about it. He goes on doing whatsoever he is doing and the master knows; that is his business.
One day suddenly the child is born! And then you will be able to see and know and there will be no problem, but not before it. A premature child will suffer the whole of his life; there is danger that he may not survive.
My feeling is that whenever a woman becomes too conscious of the child, a child is born premature; that's my observation. In primitive societies immature children are never born because the mothers are not conscious about it.
You will be surprised -- there is a tribe in Africa which had not known that there is any connection between intercourse and pregnancy. For thousands of years they have lived and loved and given birth to children and they had not even thought about it -- that a child is born because of sexual intercourse. They had not thought that there was any relationship. They had always been thinking that a child is god's gift; it has nothing to do with anything else.
Now, this is a totally different world. Those people have never known a premature birth; how can they know? They don't know anything, knowledge has not interfered in any way.
The modern woman is very much alert, too alert, dangerously alert. She is reading books, trying to find out how old the child is, how he looks inside. She looks in the encyclopedia to see how the child is looking at three months old, what shape, what organs have come up. This is dangerous, mm?
Just thinking about it your stomach starts churning, thinking about it your stomach becomes strained, thinking about it your stomach is not relaxed and you are hurting the child. The child needs total relaxation.
Knowledge is a tension. When it happens on its own it is not a tension, when you try it is a tension. So my suggestion is that you forget about it.
Whenever you become too worried, just look at me and my blessing is with you.