[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been copy-typed. It is for reference purposes only.]
(To Dolf) -- This is your name: Swami Anand Dolf. Anand means bliss. Dolf means courageous spirit.
Bliss is only for the courageous The coward is destined to live in misery. He cannot get out of it Not that misery clings to him But just the contrary: he clings to misery. The coward is a clinger He always clings to whatsoever it is He is afraid to let go anything Even though it is misery. His reasoning is that Whatsoever is known, will-known is good and whatsoever is unknown is fearful, makes him scared. He always chooses the known And rejects the unknown.
Misery is known, bliss is unknown. Matter is known, god is unknown. Science is known, religion is unknown. It is only for the courageous spirit To go beyond the known And to have a taste of the unknown.
(To Uli) -- This is your name: Swami Svatmo Uli. Svatmo means of the self. Uli means a noble ruler.
To rule others is ignoble To rule others is violence The rule others is inhuman because It destroys the other, his freedom, his dignity Because it reduces the other From a human being into a thing. Unless you reduce the other into a thing You are never in the possession of him. To be in total possession You have to destroy his soul. This is the ugliest act in life one can do Hence the real ruler never rules others. He rules himself, he is a master of himself. His kingdom is not of this world His kingdom is not of the outside His kingdom is of the inner.
(To Renate) -- Your name: Ma Renate. This is a Beautiful name. It exactly defines sannyas, Renate means born anew -- and that's what sannyas Is all about.
It is a process of rebirth Of becoming twice-born. The first birth only gives you A possibility, a potential, an opportunity. The second birth makes the potential actual Transforms the possible into the real. Only the second birth Makes the first birth meaningful. Without the second The fist is a lost opportunity. With the second the opportunity is fulfilled You have risen to the occasion You have accepted the challenge of life.
The first birth ends into death The second birth knows no death at all. It leads you into eternal life. It is the real birth because It is the beginning of real life.
(To Adelheid) -- This is your name: Ma Abhinava. Abhinava means the new one.
From this moment Disconnect yourself from the past. Start counting your life from this moment. After one year you will be only one year old. The life that has passed before Was just a dream phenomenon. Now you have to awaken You have to become more alert More watchful, more conscious -- that's the work A sannyasin has to do upon himself; It is the most beautiful work. Incredible are the results of it The rewards are unbelievable. Once you have started moving Towards being more conscious You become more loving, you become more blissful You become more divine! For the first time you start feeling that life is a great gift, a benediction from god. And a great thankfulness arises in the heart. That is true prayer.
(To Thomas) -- This is your name: Swami Tathagato.
Tathagato is one of the names given to Gautam the Buddha. It means one who lives in the suchness of life, who accepts whatsoever is the case. who accepts everything totally.
Even death is absolutely accepted because His trust in existence is infinite -- It knows no bounds, it is unconditional. It is the highest peak of meditation. To accept all -- all the sweetness of life And all the bitterness of life With equanimity, choicelessly With no like, no dislike -- Once this starts happening you become a rejoicing You become a serenity, you become utter silence; And a silence which is not dead A silence which sings, a silence which dances. A silence which is not empty. A silence which is over full.
This is going to be your method: Learn to accept life as it comes. When something happens, accept it. When it disappears, accept it. When pleasure comes, accept it. When it evaporates, accept it. And the same with pain: remain non-judgmental, Just a silent witness to all. This is the most profound secret Of all the buddhas, of all the awakened ones.
(To Kathleen) -- This is your name: Ma Arihanto. Arihanto is also a name of Gautam the Buddha. Arihanto means one who has conquered all his enemies.
There are two kinds of enemies; the first category Consists of enemies who are outside you. Buddha conquers them. The awakened person conquers them: Because he drops his enmity Because he no more thinks of them as enemies -- That is his victory. They may still think him as the enemy but For him there is no enemy at all in the world. He is friendly to everything. That's why Jesus could say In the last moments of his life 'Father, forgive these people Because they know not what they are doing.' He is praying for those who are crucifying him. This is the meaning of Arihanto, first meaning: Conquering the outer enemies Not that they are conquered in the ordinary way Not in the way of Alexander the great But in a totally different way They are no more enemies. The enlightened person Has no enmity towards anybody.
And there is a deeper meaning also The second category: He has conquered all his inner enemies -- The ego, the greed, the anger, the jealousy, All those inner enemies. They consist in fact of one And the name of that one enemy Which is hidden behind all these faces Is unconsciousness -- He has conquered it By becoming absolutely conscious. He is full of light There is no darkness any more. He is only consciousness There is no unconscious in him Hence inside all the enemies have disappeared. From the outside he has dropped all enmity. He is arihanto -- he has conquered all the enemies. The whole existence is his friend And he is a friend to the whole of existence. He is a lover hand he loves unconditionally.
(To Sylvie) -- This is your name: Ma Vijayo. Vijayo Means the victorious one.
There is only one victory worth achieving And that is of becoming conscious Of becoming more meditative, of becoming More silent, calm and quiet and collected. All other victories are false, pseudo. They don't have any meaning. Money, power, prestige -- they are all playthings They are not for people Who are really intelligent They are for the stupid ones: Stupid ones Also need few things to keep them occupies Otherwise they will create more nuisance. But the really intelligent person soon becomes Disinterested into all that nonsense. He starts moving inwards He starts enquiring 'Who am I?' He starts digging deep within his own being To find his center. And the day the center is found One is victorious because one has overcome death. Once you know who you are there is no death -- That is true victory.
(To Kirsten) -- This is your name: Ma Samudro. Samudro means the oceanic.
One should not think in terms of limits one should get rid of all ideas of limitations, that's the whole phenomenon of sannyas. Knowing that "I am not the body," is the beginning of a great pilgrimage. Then knowing that "I am not the mind either," is a further step; then finally knowing that "I am not even my feeling," is the last step. In these three steps the journey is over because on the fourth step you discover your being. And that is vast, infinite as vast as the ocean, as vast as the sky. To experience it is to experience god. And to experience it is to exercise bliss, ecstasy. That is the only experience worth trying for; all else is just sheer wastage, wastage of a great opportunity in which one can find the real treasure. And one goes on collecting seashells and colored stones on the seabeach while the treasure is within you, the kingdom of god is within you.
So drop thinking in terms of limitations so that you find more and more that you are closer to the unlimited being, to the infinite being.
(To Frederike) -- This is your name: Ma Arpano. Arpano means the surrendered one.
All that I ask is -- give your ego to me -- nothing else. And the ego is your misery, your problem, your anguish. Just give it to me and forget all about it. Once you can gather the courage to give the ego to the master, all the problems that have been following you; and you have never been able to solve any of them, simply evaporate because the very root is cut. That is the meaning of Arpano; let it also become your experience.
Sannyas is true only when you are ready to offer your ego to me. And I don't ask for anything else, I am asking only for the ugly in you, the pathological in you, the psychotic in you, the mad in you. The real master only demands your madness, and once you have given your madness, sanity arises of its own accord. It is your self-nature, nobody can give it to you. Just the arbitrary has to be removed and the natural starts growing of its own accord. Only the rocks have to be removed and the stream of your consciousness starts flowing.
(To Johan) -- Just look at me. Good. -- Osho, just now I have so many resistance. -- Mm? -- Just now I have so many resistances happening. -- They all will disappear -- everybody has them! No need to worry about them. When you are ready to take sannyas, that means you have already overcome a great resistance, one of the greatest. The remaining one are small ones, they are not that big. And once you are a sannyasin, then I stat hitting you. Unless you are a sannyasins, I resist myself! I am very polite!... very loving, seductive! Once you are a sannyasin, then I come into my true colors! -- you don't be worried.
This is your name: Swami Anandmurti. Anand means Bliss; Murti means image of -- image of bliss.
That's what we are potentially bound to be. But we go astray, we become something else. We become that which we are not We become that which nature has not provided for Hence the misery Because we become schizophrenic, we become double. One is our natural self Which remains hidden behind the artificial self. The artificial self is the ego and the real self We have completely forgotten. We have become so much identified With the artificial. Once in a while we have glimpses of the real Because howsoever we forget it We cannot destroy it -- the artificial is artificial And the real is real. The real is going to abide The artificial is just a make-believe. We are miserable because of the artificial self Otherwise we are pure bliss But we are living double lives.
A schizophrenic fell in love with a woman And asked the woman, 'Kiss me twice -- I am schizophrenic!' But that is the situation of everybody. And even if you go to the psychiatrists They are even in a far worse mess.
One schizophrenic went to a psychiatrist And he said, 'Help me! I am always thinking I am two persons.' The psychoanalyst looked over the room And said, 'All four of you?'
Everybody is split And the split is there for the simple reason that We have become too much identified with the false And the false is the top layer, Easily available, just on the circumference.
And the real is far deeper -- you have to dig it It needs effort, arduous effort, patient effort. And grat insistence, determination, resolution That 'I am bound to find it,' That 'I have to find it,' That 'I cannot live without finding it.' Unless it becomes a question of life and death One never finds it. But you have some in the right hands. Nothing to be worried. -- How long will you be here? -- I go home about three days and then I will come back in November or December. -- Come back in November, December. And by that time I will be sharpening my sword and ... (inaudible) Come back! Good.
Osho's Commentary
(To Dolf) -- This is your name: Swami Anand Dolf.
Anand means bliss. Dolf means courageous spirit.
Bliss is only for the courageous
The coward is destined to live in misery.
He cannot get out of it
Not that misery clings to him
But just the contrary: he clings to misery.
The coward is a clinger
He always clings to whatsoever it is
He is afraid to let go anything
Even though it is misery.
His reasoning is that
Whatsoever is known, will-known is good and
whatsoever is unknown is fearful, makes him scared.
He always chooses the known
And rejects the unknown.
Misery is known, bliss is unknown.
Matter is known, god is unknown.
Science is known, religion is unknown.
It is only for the courageous spirit
To go beyond the known
And to have a taste of the unknown.
(To Uli) -- This is your name: Swami Svatmo Uli.
Svatmo means of the self. Uli means a noble ruler.
To rule others is ignoble
To rule others is violence
The rule others is inhuman because
It destroys the other, his freedom, his dignity
Because it reduces the other
From a human being into a thing.
Unless you reduce the other into a thing
You are never in the possession of him.
To be in total possession
You have to destroy his soul.
This is the ugliest act in life one can do
Hence the real ruler never rules others.
He rules himself, he is a master of himself.
His kingdom is not of this world
His kingdom is not of the outside
His kingdom is of the inner.
(To Renate) -- Your name: Ma Renate. This is a
Beautiful name. It exactly defines sannyas,
Renate means born anew -- and that's what sannyas
Is all about.
It is a process of rebirth
Of becoming twice-born.
The first birth only gives you
A possibility, a potential, an opportunity.
The second birth makes the potential actual
Transforms the possible into the real.
Only the second birth
Makes the first birth meaningful.
Without the second
The fist is a lost opportunity.
With the second the opportunity is fulfilled
You have risen to the occasion
You have accepted the challenge of life.
The first birth ends into death
The second birth knows no death at all.
It leads you into eternal life.
It is the real birth because
It is the beginning of real life.
(To Adelheid) -- This is your name: Ma Abhinava.
Abhinava means the new one.
From this moment
Disconnect yourself from the past.
Start counting your life from this moment.
After one year you will be only one year old.
The life that has passed before
Was just a dream phenomenon.
Now you have to awaken
You have to become more alert
More watchful, more conscious -- that's the work
A sannyasin has to do upon himself;
It is the most beautiful work.
Incredible are the results of it
The rewards are unbelievable.
Once you have started moving
Towards being more conscious
You become more loving, you become more blissful
You become more divine!
For the first time you start feeling that life is a great gift, a benediction from god.
And a great thankfulness arises in the heart.
That is true prayer.
(To Thomas) -- This is your name: Swami Tathagato.
Tathagato is one of the names given to Gautam the Buddha. It means one who lives in the suchness of life, who accepts whatsoever is the case. who accepts everything totally.
Even death is absolutely accepted because
His trust in existence is infinite --
It knows no bounds, it is unconditional.
It is the highest peak of meditation.
To accept all -- all the sweetness of life
And all the bitterness of life
With equanimity, choicelessly
With no like, no dislike --
Once this starts happening you become a rejoicing
You become a serenity, you become utter silence;
And a silence which is not dead
A silence which sings, a silence which dances.
A silence which is not empty.
A silence which is over full.
This is going to be your method:
Learn to accept life as it comes.
When something happens, accept it.
When it disappears, accept it.
When pleasure comes, accept it.
When it evaporates, accept it.
And the same with pain: remain non-judgmental,
Just a silent witness to all.
This is the most profound secret
Of all the buddhas, of all the awakened ones.
(To Kathleen) -- This is your name: Ma Arihanto.
Arihanto is also a name of Gautam the Buddha.
Arihanto means one who has conquered all his enemies.
There are two kinds of enemies; the first category
Consists of enemies who are outside you.
Buddha conquers them.
The awakened person conquers them:
Because he drops his enmity
Because he no more thinks of them as enemies --
That is his victory.
They may still think him as the enemy but
For him there is no enemy at all in the world.
He is friendly to everything.
That's why Jesus could say
In the last moments of his life
'Father, forgive these people
Because they know not what they are doing.'
He is praying for those who are crucifying him.
This is the meaning of Arihanto, first meaning:
Conquering the outer enemies
Not that they are conquered in the ordinary way
Not in the way of Alexander the great
But in a totally different way
They are no more enemies.
The enlightened person
Has no enmity towards anybody.
And there is a deeper meaning also
The second category:
He has conquered all his inner enemies --
The ego, the greed, the anger, the jealousy,
All those inner enemies.
They consist in fact of one
And the name of that one enemy
Which is hidden behind all these faces
Is unconsciousness -- He has conquered it
By becoming absolutely conscious.
He is full of light
There is no darkness any more.
He is only consciousness
There is no unconscious in him
Hence inside all the enemies have disappeared.
From the outside he has dropped all enmity.
He is arihanto -- he has conquered all the enemies.
The whole existence is his friend
And he is a friend to the whole of existence.
He is a lover hand he loves unconditionally.
(To Sylvie) -- This is your name: Ma Vijayo. Vijayo
Means the victorious one.
There is only one victory worth achieving
And that is of becoming conscious
Of becoming more meditative, of becoming
More silent, calm and quiet and collected.
All other victories are false, pseudo.
They don't have any meaning.
Money, power, prestige -- they are all playthings
They are not for people
Who are really intelligent
They are for the stupid ones: Stupid ones
Also need few things to keep them occupies
Otherwise they will create more nuisance.
But the really intelligent person soon becomes
Disinterested into all that nonsense.
He starts moving inwards
He starts enquiring 'Who am I?'
He starts digging deep within his own being
To find his center.
And the day the center is found
One is victorious because one has overcome death.
Once you know who you are there is no death --
That is true victory.
(To Kirsten) -- This is your name: Ma Samudro. Samudro means the oceanic.
One should not think in terms of limits one should get rid of all ideas of limitations, that's the whole phenomenon of sannyas. Knowing that "I am not the body," is the beginning of a great pilgrimage. Then knowing that "I am not the mind either," is a further step; then finally knowing that "I am not even my feeling," is the last step. In these three steps the journey is over because on the fourth step you discover your being. And that is vast, infinite as vast as the ocean, as vast as the sky. To experience it is to experience god. And to experience it is to exercise bliss, ecstasy. That is the only experience worth trying for; all else is just sheer wastage, wastage of a great opportunity in which one can find the real treasure. And one goes on collecting seashells and colored stones on the seabeach while the treasure is within you, the kingdom of god is within you.
So drop thinking in terms of limitations so that you find more and more that you are closer to the unlimited being, to the infinite being.
(To Frederike) -- This is your name: Ma Arpano. Arpano means the surrendered one.
All that I ask is -- give your ego to me -- nothing else. And the ego is your misery, your problem, your anguish. Just give it to me and forget all about it. Once you can gather the courage to give the ego to the master, all the problems that have been following you; and you have never been able to solve any of them, simply evaporate because the very root is cut. That is the meaning of Arpano; let it also become your experience.
Sannyas is true only when you are ready to offer your ego to me. And I don't ask for anything else, I am asking only for the ugly in you, the pathological in you, the psychotic in you, the mad in you. The real master only demands your madness, and once you have given your madness, sanity arises of its own accord. It is your self-nature, nobody can give it to you. Just the arbitrary has to be removed and the natural starts growing of its own accord. Only the rocks have to be removed and the stream of your consciousness starts flowing.
(To Johan) -- Just look at me. Good.
-- Osho, just now I have so many resistance.
-- Mm?
-- Just now I have so many resistances happening.
-- They all will disappear -- everybody has them!
No need to worry about them. When you are ready to take sannyas, that means you have already overcome a great resistance, one of the greatest. The remaining one are small ones, they are not that big. And once you are a sannyasin, then I stat hitting you. Unless you are a sannyasins, I resist myself! I am very polite!... very loving, seductive! Once you are a sannyasin, then I come into my true colors! -- you don't be worried.
This is your name: Swami Anandmurti. Anand means
Bliss; Murti means image of -- image of bliss.
That's what we are potentially bound to be.
But we go astray, we become something else.
We become that which we are not
We become that which nature has not provided for
Hence the misery
Because we become schizophrenic, we become double.
One is our natural self
Which remains hidden behind the artificial self.
The artificial self is the ego and the real self
We have completely forgotten.
We have become so much identified
With the artificial.
Once in a while we have glimpses of the real
Because howsoever we forget it
We cannot destroy it -- the artificial is artificial
And the real is real.
The real is going to abide
The artificial is just a make-believe.
We are miserable because of the artificial self
Otherwise we are pure bliss
But we are living double lives.
A schizophrenic fell in love with a woman
And asked the woman, 'Kiss me twice --
I am schizophrenic!'
But that is the situation of everybody.
And even if you go to the psychiatrists
They are even in a far worse mess.
One schizophrenic went to a psychiatrist
And he said, 'Help me! I am always thinking
I am two persons.'
The psychoanalyst looked over the room
And said, 'All four of you?'
Everybody is split
And the split is there for the simple reason that
We have become too much identified with the false
And the false is the top layer,
Easily available, just on the circumference.
And the real is far deeper -- you have to dig it
It needs effort, arduous effort, patient effort.
And grat insistence, determination, resolution
That 'I am bound to find it,'
That 'I have to find it,'
That 'I cannot live without finding it.'
Unless it becomes a question of life and death
One never finds it.
But you have some in the right hands.
Nothing to be worried.
-- How long will you be here?
-- I go home about three days and then I will come back in November or December.
-- Come back in November, December. And by that time I will be sharpening my sword and ... (inaudible) Come back! Good.